To the friend who got away,
You’re gone from my life. I’m not sure if you’ll ever return. But before that let me go back to the beginning. I still remember the first time I met you and how anxious and nervous I was to meet someone that I felt like I had a connection to after talking for so long. I still remember how I was more eager than you were to meet and how I was barely settled in and you wanted to come over. I remember texting my best friend and freaking out because what if I said something stupid? What if you hated me and I wasn’t good enough? But you came and I was okay. I was glad I got it over with. From here, it could only go up. I counted the days and I saw you for the first 18 days of the semester. I think after thought I knew you’d be around a lot. As each day passed we...
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Alright, so, im gonna make you a long message again, and hopefully this will be the last time. I dont wanna bore you with too much shit you know hehe. Remember when we first started talking, like really started talking. It was when you wanted to donate and you were desparate enough to trust someone you never know, nor never even talked to that much. I remember too, how you told me about the extra pbp Dorin gave you and how, you asked me not to tell anyone, and how you asked me to be there in ren discord voice just cause you can talk to Dorin about the that stuff. I'm really confused that how can someone like you, easily like trust me even though most of your friends hate me especially Demon. Through that you earned my respect, and tru though honestly i didnt trust you, i decided...
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Freshman year homecoming dance. I regret wondering off when we got inside. All these years later I STILL feel bad about it. Truth is I liked you and I was trying to play it cool. That was lame I'm sorry.
Regardless, glad I found you in the last five minutes.
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When you left, I thought life couldn't get worse. That nothing could possibly hurt me more. Emotionally, at least. Then, I decided, it didn't matter. That I didn't care. Not in the least. So what, if you weren't a part of my daily life now? Life goes on, doesn't it? But, as I told myself I didn't care, I experienced something, in fact, the one thing, I was sure couldn't happen. I hurt my emotional balance even more.
Since you left, I had my life all planned out. 'You can do it!' is what I told myself. 'Focus on your career', 'Have fun. Move on.', 'You're smart and confident and good at what you put your mind to. You'll be fine.' In fact, it will be better without a distraction. Right? Distraction. When we use that word, there's almost always a negative connotation to it. You were a...
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It’s been almost three years since I lost you, Jewels. I want to say that it gets easier, that through the passage of time the grief I felt and still feel has lessened even slightly, but it hasn’t. If we’re being honest, which is what we do best with each other, I’ve lost a lot of people in my life, but losing you has really fucking sucked.
People say that eventually I’ll look back on the memories and they’ll make me smile instead of feeling like I can’t breathe. I’m just wondering when that’s supposed to happen, because it hasn’t yet. People don’t seem to understand the bond we shared with each other, it doesn’t matter that weren’t friends for fifteen years or all our lives, the few years I was able to call you my best friend were the happiest I’ve ever known.
It makes me laugh...
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You left me. Your words just can't get out of my head. We're over. I wish I'll never see you again. You're dead to me. May you find others to take care of you and watch your back the way I did. Those are the things you said to my. Those are the words that ripped off my heart. I mean I don't even know what I did, what made me like that. I just don't know. And it's killing me. And I miss you. I miss you like hell. I'd do anything, I'd lose everything, I'd give everything to get you back. You're my life and you know that. You're the person that taught me how to love. You're my person. My guardian angel, my protector, my savor, my best friend, my older brother. You're my everything. Most of my friends say that you don't deserve even the least of my tears, but they say that cause they can't...
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Dear B,
I remember coming to the realization that not all friends stay with you in life. We grow up, we fall out, and then we only like each others posts on facebook every now and then. This was a hard realization to come to. As children, we have this fixation that our best buds are going to be our best buds for life. This isn't always the case and it's painful to experience falling out with someone for the first time. You were my first experience with such thing.
It wasn't a dramatic ending to the friendship like you would suspect. It was sad and slow. The dreams of our childhood dying and replaced by more realistic, boring notions. Okay, realistic and boring dreams on your part anyway. My dream is still to discover aliens, and maybe that was the problem in the dynamic of...
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Hey, Boo. It’s weird I can’t call you that anymore. I miss you like crazy, I want to hate you but I can’t. It really hurt when you abandoned me. But it hurt worse when you pretended to care only to turn around and relay everything I said to him.
I’ll probably never talk to you again and that really sucks. Remember our plan to finally meet in person next year? I do. What about building houses right next to each other and raising our families together? Those dreams were just fantasy.
I miss us staying up hella late and talking about anything. Or watching our shows together. Did you hear about The L Word coming back? All I wanted to do was text you freaking out about it. But I stopped myself.
I’m sorry for what was said and I’m sorry if I’m the reason you chose his side. I know I...
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To those about to read this.. Why do we not talk about friend breakups?! I feel as though they are worse than an actual relationship. I don't know about you, but I've never felt this way before.
So many times I tried planning this out, but with all the speed bumps along the way, on both ends, has only further prolonged it. Many mutual friends also suggested I shouldn’t speak out, but I can’t live my life based on the opinions of others. So, here I am..
~You never apologized for hurting me but, I've apologized multiple times for being angry about it..~
Life happens and a series of a unfortunate events transpired between us and I wish that wasn't so. If I could change the outcome of all that became, I would. I would start from the very beginning and alter anything to have changed...
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hey best friend,
I wanted to write this letter to you for so long.28th may 2017 is the first time we met and i had no idea that you would end up meaning so much to me . But look, now you are very important to me" my precious" is what i call you now
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