It was a a swift beginning. It was very different from past. It was rare. It was very honest, for the first time I thought I found the one. I thought having all the cards on the table, being very transparent literally from the beginning was rare and perfect. But we all know those two words are traps, illusion, and fantasy.
I thought knowing everything about a person is a good thing and it can be a stable basis of a great partnership. I thought the beginning was so rare and good that the future almost peaked. Of course all honeymoon phases are bright and gliterry. It maked everyone blind for all the red flags.
Two months after being officially in a relationship, one major issue risen and that was the root cause of the first wound on the trust. I thought that I was a just a rebound....
Broken Hearts
I find myself wrestling with a profound sense of pain. The exhaustion from this emotional chaos burdens me heavily. My love for you ran deep, and I made every effort to express it. Yet, it appears that my vulnerability was misinterpreted as a flaw, something you could exploit. I often reflect on why you couldn’t return the affection I offered. I held on for as long as I could, but the erosion of my spirit and the torment of these feelings have brought me to a breaking point. I’ve chosen to let go; I can no longer bear this suffering.
Now that I’m free from the illusion you kept me trapped in for so long, I can finally perceive the truth: nothing was as it seemed. You never loved me; instead, you used me for your own gain. If someone were to ask me to describe you, "evil" would be the...
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t has been over 10 years since we married. It has been over 10 years since I started my downfall into the monster I am today.
I failed to see the amazing woman I had by my side. You were by my side all of the time, and all you needed was for me to care, listen to you and have your back. You gave up years of your time for my dreams and wishes. And I was absent, I was a pile of flesh and bones (and fur) without any kind of feeling or emotion. There is one feeling that was there all of the time: your love for me. Love that I could not see and failed to acknowledge. What kind of idiot does that? I mean, seriously. For that I say to you (although you possibly will never see this), I am sincerely sorry for the man I was and am struggling to not be and I thank you for all of your love and...
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This goes out to the next women that ever finds herself searching his name. I apologize way ahead of time, because I know how your stomach maybe knotting in all sorts. I'm sorry that you are just another one of his victims, probably VICTIM 4000000!
Ishmaeel, the gust of wind that blew in out of nowhere, swept you off your feet and before you could breathe a gush of air, you were inlove. He was bombarding your phone,blowing you up, texting, calling, the video calls, the 15 minute pop ins, the random im picking you up and the night drives.
It was all fun and games, everything was rosy and all his excuses was valid. He painted this picture perfect stories, so you will never for a moment doubt anything. Remember it's new you still finding your way, he hypes up your social media and...
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I'm sorry for the things I'm about to say and I'm giving you a chance to ignore this so you won't have to get hurt with my words, I just want to let everything out if moving forward is what's really the best thing to do at this point.
I'm upset with a lot of things but I can't help but still see the good in you, like you're really a good person, you're loving and you know how to spoil your loved ones, you pay attention to them, you make them feel loved your own way thats why it's so hard for me to digest and accept everything that hwppened in the past 7-8 months ngl hahahaha. My brain still refuses to acknowledge the pain I went through. I really had so much trust in you. I really wish things were different for us hahahs.
I'm most upset with you for always wanting to give up and...
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ᴀ ᴅᴏʀ ϙᴜᴇ sɪɴᴛᴏ ϙᴜᴀɴᴅᴏ ᴠᴏᴄᴇ̂ ᴇsᴛᴀ ʟᴏɴɢᴇ ᴅᴇ ᴍɪᴍ
Ter você por perto é o que me ajudar a não desistir de você e de toda a minha vida, sei que quando você está perto eu te trato de uma forma meio chata e que possa ser injusta separarmos para relembrar tudo que você já fez por mim, teremos
certeza disso.
você teve que ir porquê eu te decepcionei pelo menos é nisso que eu acredito mesmo você tendo motivo para ter ido embora quando você sai de perto de mim, é uma metade da minha alma saindo do meu corpo, tenho que confessar estou com tanta saudade, saiba que sempre ouço uma música que me faz lembrar de você toda vez que eu ouço ela e lembro que você não está ao meu lado meu coração acelera meus batimentos, meu peito solta a dor é meus olhos enchem de lagrimas como se não fosse ter fim.
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my world went from happy as long as i was with you- to dark, depressing and constant wondering why you ghosted me after 7+ years. You cannot even fathom what you did to my heart, my mind and my soul, feeling as if my body had been drained and left empty with no explanation. What you did to me was cold blooded, and nearly killed me. I never in a million years thought you could be so cruel. I loved you so much that it blinded me and didnt allow me to see that side of you. I loved you so much that it drove me crazy, you drove me crazy. You were all i had, and all i wanted, and when we would fight , it wasnt me being mad at you, it was me being mad at the situation. My world revolved around you. Its now 2023 and youre in my thoughts almost daily. I wished you werent but you were part...
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I had a mental breakdown today this one was one of a kind, I questioned everything even my existence it was so bad, I was restless and then I started crying, I cried as if someone took my most prized possession from me the crying turned into hiccups and then this is where it gets worse.
I had suicide ideation, I need to talk to someone I've never felt this way before everything was just coming all at once it's like I've been keeping things bottled up and the bottle broke this morning, I had to get up walk round my small room lol.. to calm my self when I was a little bit better I remembered what Samuel use to tell me when you are sad watch something funny and I did next 5 mins I was laughing like nothing happened but deep down I knew something happened it was just there at the back of my...
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It was a beautiful moment having a little chat on the bow, in the tiny cabin, in the studio, in the gondola, in the cafeteria, on top of the hill, even ended with quiet emptiness on the way to see you flying. I would like to thank you for your graciousness and deep apology for not following your way which even planned by nature, still I wish I could return...
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Were you...
the Seabourn photographer?
the Majesty photographer?
having trinity on your finger?
taking pictures of solar eclipse in Carribean?
giving away Seabourn pen?
loving Subway?
enjoying the night sky on the deck?
loved to drink beer?
watching the shooting stars?
outing on gondola in St. Thomas?
got stranded at stranger cabin?
loved to chat at cafeteria?
escorted to airport?
had a beautiful shy smile?
If so, someone is looking for you...
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