Broken Hearts

Pinpointing the moment where we stopped being whatever we were is as difficult as describing it. It's been so many different things over the years. Mates and best friends and partners in crime, sisters and team mates and constants. We went to pre-school together, and school together, and stuck together loyally for four years of college, even when we went different ways. Seventeen years of us two. You're in so many memories, inextricably linked with almost every part of my childhood and teenage years. I called you by my sister's name and my sister by your name when I was excited and talking fast. We were in the same classes, we were each other's buddy for everything. I never suffered from lack of friends during school. How could I? I had you, and we didn't need anyone else. I wonder...
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Dear Man, Words are beautiful. To produce them, I allow my fingers to move about in a rhythmic and rather therapeutic manner. These movements then deliver my thoughts and emotions into the minds of human beings who cannot be reached by the sound of my voice. I think it's time for me to start understanding that you are now just one of those people that is out of my reach. So here are a few words to the man I no longer know and cannot seem to find. Let me explain to you what it feels like to be told you are perfect in every way and will always be taken care of. Let me convey the emotions that rip through a young woman like myself when she is convinced she is someone's forever. Let me express the hope and loyalty that is instilled inside of a girl who built up wall after wall only to...
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Dear 스타키, Sometimes things don't end up the way they're hoped to be. Unlike other freshmen in college, I was brave enough to confess my feelings for you. No, I was not expecting you to feel the same way. All I just wanted was to know you more in a friendly manner. I did not expect you will think I'm a creepy person. Yet, as I look back at all the things I did to you, I realized I was actually creepy. After the confession,you never said anything. No rejection. No acceptance. Not even a thank you. Just nothing. Until now I wonder what was really your reaction or even just your intention. We exchanged cheesy messages but we rarely speak to each other. I have thought of you so much in my freshman year in college. I don't even know if you were worth the time to think of. To my...
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I was caught so unexpected and so much at a loss. I can’t shake the sadness as easily as I should be able to. Which is trite as it is your sadness, your loss, and your pain. I wonder what my motivator is? How many times is our understanding of grief framed by our own situations? Maybe you can never truly grieve for others without it doubling up to say something about you? Maybe that is the weakness of mankind? You were my best friend but it has been almost two years since I spoke to you. During this, the times you have crossed my mind have been fleeting. They have also been triggering and I have compartmentalized them for my own piece of mind. We blended so seamlessly together that I was dumbfounded that we could ever be brought down. In that heady first year of our friendship, I...
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Bukas na sulat para kay Pepe. Hindi ko alam kung "trip" mo ang mapaligiran ng mapanghusgang lipunan ng "social media" dahil sa ito ang "trend" ngayon. Gayunpaman ito na ang "La Solidaridad" namin ngayon. Ipagpaumanhin mo sana, Pepe. Madami akong gustong ikwento sayo kaso baka madismaya ka. Huwag na lang. Karamihan sana patungkol sa pulitika pero baka maghalo ang madama mong galit, inis, puot, hinayang, hinagpis, yamot, at bungang araw dahil sa init ng panahon. Huwag na lang. Alam mo ba? Sabi ng pamahalaan medyo nakaka angat na daw ang bansa natin. Hindi na daw tayo masyadong naghihirap. Nabawasan na rin daw ang bilang ng mga pamilyang kumakalam ang tiyan at ng mga walang pinagkukunan ng ikabubuhay. Ngunit sabi lang nila ito. Diba nga may kasabihan na, "Ang taong naniniwala sa...
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Dear Ex-Girlfriend, I now have the courage to introduce myself to you. I can imagine how much you despise me after all you have been through. I bet it wasn't easy, it wasn't for me either. I think you deserve to know the truth, so here I am telling you that I wasn't intentionally stealing your man. When I met him I had no knowledge of your existence. I fell in love quickly, almost at first sight. I could feel something was wrong, because it was just way too perfect to be true. After days of paradise he told me he has you. A woman waiting for her man in his home-country many kilometers away from our fairy-tale. He never went into details about you. Your looks, the way you are or anything. Never a bad word. It gave me a very hard time what to do. I never wanted to break up...
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Dear Glenn Beck, Good sir please forgive my frustrated tone as I am a long time fan of yours, but I have grown rather tired of that endless work. You, Hannity, Limbaugh, Cruz and all of your Tea Party cronies along with Obama, Sharpton, Gore, Clinton and their Liberal cronies are WORKING ME TO DEATH! There's plenty of blame to go around, but I blame you Glenn Beck because you're the only guy who SAYS he can find all the answers. If everyone will just work hard enough the answers will come in time right? Well this is MY time. There is a sickness in the pit of my stomach that is common with exhaustion and there is a taste in my mouth that comes from the unmistakeable smell of rot and decay. It's the putrid smell of Josh's rotting flesh. Josh Duggar. Yes that man. That...
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Don't sh*t where you eat. I believe that's the saying I ignored. I'm so sorry that you feel you've had to take a side, or form an opinion or invent a theory behind what has happened to the marriage of your two friends. I can tell you that I have been you. I formed opinions. I gossiped. I speculated about motivations, intentions and conflicts that I knew nothing about. I seemed to get some satisfaction out of organizing the pain of other peoples lives into some order that I could understand. I'm not proud. I'm sure this divorce is the universe explaining to me in very blunt terms that it is not my place to evaluate the lives of others. I've learned my lesson. I will never know what you think you know about my marriage. I will never know what you've heard or what you've been...
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Dear Affair, It has been several years now but I am lost, I am hurt, I am baffled. I thank you for being within my life for such a short space of time and for showing me what passion truly is, with the essence of one look into one another's eyes, however I also hate you for coming into my life, for chasing me desperately, for promising your love to me, for weeping over me, for pushing me into events I never desired and for breaking my heart more than you could ever imagine. The time I spent with you, albeit we were both married, was exquisite. It made me feel alive, electric and I had the energy to be anything, anyone and feel a goddess. I desired to see you, feel you and hear your voice, as you stated you did with me. I think perhaps in the end you were simply bored for this...
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As I write this I have a chaotic mesh of emotions. The first and most prevalent is love. I love you all so much. You have become such a large portion of the positive aspects of my existence, it’s hard to comprehend how much you mean to me. The few genuinely happy memories I have, are all thanks to you guys. You have made such an enormous impact on my life that I can’t imagine a future without any of you. But the sad truth is we have grown distant. I don’t feel like I can approach you all in the same manner I have before, and I know it is my own doing. This brings me to the next emotion; Regret. We all make mistakes, we all have done things we wish we hadn’t, and for the most part we were able to set things right and move on. But there comes a point where it begins to wear thin, I am...
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