It's twisted, in the least dramatic sense, I know- being so deeply and somehow, effortlessly spun into a "web" with someone who poisons you, cripples you, derails your value and self-worth- intoxicating you with their violent spews of hatred and repetitive cycles of pseudo tears and drunken apologies. Although, the unhealthy cycle of abuse and need for "power" and dominance is constant and never-ending, I'm afraid, in irrationally egocentric personalities, the victim forgives her abuser over and over again.
She will do anything to savor the parasitic relationship, because as sickening as it is, the victim becomes addicted, in a sense, to his abusive tics and behaviors. Consequently, as afraid as she truly is of her abuser, the only thing that terrifies her more is losing him. Ironic,...
Broken Hearts
I have become second choice- and that’s on a good day. When big moments happen in our lives, we would always, ALWAYS turn to each other. I still turn to you without hesitation, while you turn to him- and later update me if it’s convenient for you.
I have no doubt that you will be engaged within the next year, and good for you. I will probably spend a chunk of my 20’s single figuring out my career and myself as a person.
I know deep down that this letter comes down to the fact that I miss you, I miss what we had, and yet I still love what we do still have to this very day. I hope we are college roommates…but I fear for your need to be with this boy 24/7.
You always tell me that you hold a leash, and quite frankly it’s not funny and it’s a bit disturbing. Honestly, I’m not sure...
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Hey,
It's funny to think it's been two years since I met you, a little over 3 months since I've spoken to you and not a day goes by where you're not on my mind.
Looking at you for the first time was nothing like I'd experienced before, as cliché as it sounds. I never quite believed that there was such a thing as being emotionally and physically drawn to someone the moment you lay eyes on them. But it happened. With you. The second our eyes met, I honestly knew with every fiber of my being that you would be my greatest downfall. Your long curly hair, deep brown eyes and your signature smirk that all the girls before me had fallen for. Damn, was I gone for.
I always wondered if the attraction was purely one-sided or if I read the signs wrong. I was so stupid that I completely...
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It's funny to think it's been two years since I met you, a little over 3 months since I've spoken to you and not a day goes by where you're not on my mind.
Looking at you for the first time was nothing like I'd experienced before, as cliché as it sounds. I never quite believed that there was such a thing as being emotionally and physically drawn to someone the moment you lay eyes on them. But it happened. With you. The second our eyes met, I honestly knew with every fiber of my being that you would be my greatest downfall. Your long curly hair, deep brown eyes and your signature smirk that all the girls before me had fallen for. Damn, was I gone for.
I always wondered if the attraction was purely one-sided or if I read the signs wrong. I completely ignored the fact that you had...
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I loved you.
People say once you love someone and it's real, the love never goes away. I didn't believe this until now. It's been several months since we last talked.. When I think I'm over everything and you, I have some type of reminder of how happy we were or I have something I want to run and tell you because you'd be proud or just as excited as I am.
I loved you
I thanked God every day that he put you in my life. For the first time, I had everything I wanted in a relationship. We talked about a future together and made compromises with our dreams. We had an image of a house in our heads that was a mixture of what we both wanted.. We had names for our children, we had it all figured out. I thought about you all day. We spent almost every day together.. My life revolved...
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This is a little hard to write because I'm not sure if he's with the same girl he just was with back in December. If he is with another girl hopefully it's because the last one wiser up and saw he will never change.
But to whoever is holding his hand now I want to say you're a lucky woman because he treated me so great it almost seemed untrue and then it did become untrue when I found out he was sending pictures of his dick to one of my friends whom I went to school with at the time. If it wasn't for that I'd say he was one of the greatest man I ever dated and there's so many days I wish things could've went differently maybe if I hadn't have hitched a ride from my ex and his mom to the fair that night maybe he wouldn't have broke up with me but the more I think about it he might...
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Why I am considered a bitter baby mama? Why am I labeled as crazy? Do you know what happent to me? The events that led to me where I am now. I am not a baby mama, I am a woman and soon to be mother who was deeply hurt and instead of keeping quite about I chose to speak up for myself.
Imagine finding out you are five weeks pregnant, and your lover reactions is joy ! You both want a baby girl and often spent long hours coming with a name for her. A name that would represent not only who she is but it also payed homage to her Abraic and black heritage. You and him begin talk about moving in and your undying love for one another. Feels nice right. Now imagine him sitting you down and telling you about that he is leaving the country because he could get into college in Texas. Then he...
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Dear Boy,
I call you my boyfriend- who really knows what you were. You were my middle school crush, my 6th grade "boyfriend" who broke my heart when you broke up with me, and you were special enough for me to want you back freshman year. Unsurprisingly, it didn't work out yet again. I'm forever sorry for that. We broke up "mutually" and I truly thought that's what it was- I didn't know your true feelings until this year.
It's now senior year, you've asked for me back at least 6 times over these high school years, but I've been with my current boyfriend for 3 years now. After you, I hit my bottom. I dated the boy that everyone warned me about, and you laughed because I ended up with him. Of course he made a fool out of me, don't worry I'll never forget him despite my constant...
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First of all, thank you. Thank you for attempting to ruin my life so desperately the way you always did. Thank you for intentionally, falsely accusing me of horrid things that you cooked up in your own twisted mind, and then taking the time to pathetically try to convince everyone that they were true. Thank you for the hateful words and insults that derived solely from your own bitterness, jealousy, self loathing, and insecure/anti-social personality. But most of all, thank you for helping me realize that you're the one who needs help, not me. No matter how hard you tried to make it seem that way. What is so shocking about all of this is the fact that you have never even met me. You don't know me, but I know you. I didn't have to meet someone like you to find out exactly what kind of...
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First of all, thank you. Thank you for attempting to ruin my life so desperately the way you always did. Thank you for intentionally, falsely accusing me of horrid things that you cooked up in your own twisted mind, and then taking the time to pathetically try to convince everyone that they were true. Thank you for the hateful words and insults that derived solely from your own bitterness, jealousy, self loathing, and insecure/anti-social personality. But most of all, thank you for helping me realize that you're the one who needs help, not me. No matter how hard you tried to make it seem that way. What is so shocking about all of this is the fact that you have never even met me. You don't know me, but I know you. I didn't have to meet someone like you to find out exactly what kind of...
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