Broken Hearts

Why I am considered a bitter baby mama? Why am I labeled as crazy? Do you know what happent to me? The events that led to me where I am now. I am not a baby mama, I am a woman and soon to be mother who was deeply hurt and instead of keeping quite about I chose to speak up for myself. Imagine finding out you are five weeks pregnant, and your lover reactions is joy ! You both want a baby girl and often spent long hours coming with a name for her. A name that would represent not only who she is but it also payed homage to her Abraic and black heritage. You and him begin talk about moving in and your undying love for one another. Feels nice right. Now imagine him sitting you down and telling you about that he is leaving the country because he could get into college in Texas. Then he...
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Dear Boy, I call you my boyfriend- who really knows what you were. You were my middle school crush, my 6th grade "boyfriend" who broke my heart when you broke up with me, and you were special enough for me to want you back freshman year. Unsurprisingly, it didn't work out yet again. I'm forever sorry for that. We broke up "mutually" and I truly thought that's what it was- I didn't know your true feelings until this year. It's now senior year, you've asked for me back at least 6 times over these high school years, but I've been with my current boyfriend for 3 years now. After you, I hit my bottom. I dated the boy that everyone warned me about, and you laughed because I ended up with him. Of course he made a fool out of me, don't worry I'll never forget him despite my constant...
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First of all, thank you. Thank you for attempting to ruin my life so desperately the way you always did. Thank you for intentionally, falsely accusing me of horrid things that you cooked up in your own twisted mind, and then taking the time to pathetically try to convince everyone that they were true. Thank you for the hateful words and insults that derived solely from your own bitterness, jealousy, self loathing, and insecure/anti-social personality. But most of all, thank you for helping me realize that you're the one who needs help, not me. No matter how hard you tried to make it seem that way. What is so shocking about all of this is the fact that you have never even met me. You don't know me, but I know you. I didn't have to meet someone like you to find out exactly what kind of...
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First of all, thank you. Thank you for attempting to ruin my life so desperately the way you always did. Thank you for intentionally, falsely accusing me of horrid things that you cooked up in your own twisted mind, and then taking the time to pathetically try to convince everyone that they were true. Thank you for the hateful words and insults that derived solely from your own bitterness, jealousy, self loathing, and insecure/anti-social personality. But most of all, thank you for helping me realize that you're the one who needs help, not me. No matter how hard you tried to make it seem that way. What is so shocking about all of this is the fact that you have never even met me. You don't know me, but I know you. I didn't have to meet someone like you to find out exactly what kind of...
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I can only pray that you read this but I'm sure you won't mainly cause you'll probably never find it. For the last almost four years of my life you've affected me in many ways. Even though you weren't around for two of those years. I just want you to know that every time I hear "our band" play no matter what the song is I start to cry. I will never forget the times we had together though they were short it made a very big impact on my life. The biggest question I have is "did you ever mean anything you ever said to me?" Unfortunately I will probably never have the answer to that question. Because after not hearing from you for two years you reappeared. I had you in my life again it was great. And those eight months went by so fast. I had you longer then, then when we were...
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It's been more two years. Two years since you left me for another. And yet I'm here, taking care of our two year old who doesn't even know she has a dad. I cry almost every night, wondering what I did wrong to make you leave me while I was 6 months pregnant. Wondering, if we found out I was having a boy, would you have stayed? I know you really wanted a boy. I cry, thinking what did our daughter do to deserve this? It's been more than two years... And I can't stop thinking about it. About you. I suffer from depression and anxiety now. I work three jobs and haven't gone out on a real date in two years. I take care of my girl. I do what I have to in order to survive. I can't believe after all this time, your still on my mind. You broke me to the point I KNOW I'll never be the same. You...
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It's been a minute since we've spoken. What were the lyrics from that Flyleaf Song "So I Thought"? "A year goes by, and I can't talk about it". I think I'm ready to try, to talk about it, I mean. Do I start with how you lied to me? How about with the fact that you weren't just "not there" for me when you promised you would be, but you didn't even try to be the friend you said you were? Or maybe the fact that you blamed the sexual assault I endured on me? I gave you my heart - it was a bleeding, torn mess from my ex already, but when I care about someone I don't hold back my devotion for them. I was there for you at any hour if you needed a friend to listen, I encouraged you in all things you pursued, and I practically begged you to go back out with your ex even though we both knew how I...
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First off, I call you a boy (even though you were 20 at the time) because our whole relationship was childlike because of you. You strung me along until I lost sight of who I was. If you were a man, you would have ended it when you stopped having feelings for me. Sure, I should have known better; I don't blame you solely for the relationship, but I do blame you completely for that night. Sure, I should have released all you wanted was a your stereotypical college booty call, but part of me hope you would change. If you would have gotten to know me, you would have learned that the first man I ever loved, my father, decided one day that I wasn't good enough to be his daughter. When we first started seeing each other, my parents were in the middle of a messy divorce that divided my...
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I want to start off by saying thank you. You led me down a long journey that was filled with laughs and memories. I will never forget all the good times we had and I hope you still have endless amounts in your life. I fell for you when I first met you. You were quite and I knew there had to be more. When you opened up I realized who you were. Your humor could make any girl fall for you. You were strong when it came to what you wanted and the dreams you had and I admired that. You are one of the smartest people I know and I loved that about you. When I met you I knew that you were going to change my life. I just wish I knew if it was going to be for better or worse. After I had just got out of another toxic relationship with the ever so common, “it’s not you, it’s me speech” you...
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You don't remember who I am, and you probably never will, given how careless you are. You'll never see this letter either so this really is just for me, but in case you do, just know that you are the lowest person I've ever met. My mom bought Bella from you a couple months ago. She was so tiny and beautiful. You told my mom that she was a runt and that's why she was so small. Yeah, maybe there was something fishy about how you wanted to meet us at Walmart in the dead of night, but we didn't care because we were getting a brand new puppy! After about a week, my mom knew she was not okay. We all did. I denied it because I had already fallen so deeply in love with her that if something happened, I would lose myself. The vet told us she was fine (the first time,) she just was tiny and not...
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