Yes I went. On a date. Like everyone told me I should, like the world expected me to. I agreed to it and I went.
He was kind, confident, very good looking. He had the car, the job, the house and a designer wardrobe. He was polite, chivalrous and ever so respectful.
We had a wonderful time and got on really well. The date was well thought out, well planned and a total surprise. I felt like I was so special.
We talked, we laughed, we felt at ease in each others company. A success I hear you say! Yes, a success in theory, a success to the untrained eye.
Except the night was tinged with sadness. With doubt. Because when I looked across the table and looked into his eyes, I didn't feel the earth spin. I didn't get lost in his gaze. There were no butterflies. No feeling of complete...
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My Best Friend
It was a cool evening in mid-January when my life would change forever. I found myself out in public under bright lights surrounded by people. I was feeling good; looking forward to what the new year would bring, but little did I know that before I would leave that place, the new year would take away something so special from me. I had missed a call. I like to think that I missed that call because destiny was allowing me to hold on for just a little longer. When I realized who the call was from, I smiled and promptly returned the call. On the other end was that something special I was referencing. Someone that had been in my life for a decade. Someone who I had built both good and bad everlasting memories with. This person had come into my life unexpectedly and was...
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An open letter to mothers around me:
First off, I'm going to say I'm sorry before I even begin.
I'm sorry if you sit at the table next to me at a restaurant, or walk down the same aisle as me at the grocery store, or anytime we may be at the same place at the same time. Also, I'm sorry to my sisters, and sister-in-laws. I'm sorry for staring.. I'm sorry for silently wondering why your more "qualified " to be a mom and I'm not. I'm sorry for silently wondering why God gave you 5 children and I would be tickled to have 1. I'm not the only one( regardless of who wants to admit it). I'm sorry for gazing at your little family and admiring the life you have and wishing it was mine.
I'm sorry for taking it personal, and for making you probably feel uncomfortable sometimes.
If you seen...
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Years have passed, seasons have changed and so has our love for one another.
Somewhere along the lines we got tangled up in so many different webs, we didn't realize the underlying truth that we were truly unhappy.
I think both of us were in denial for a while.
I remember the first day I met you. You made me believe that love at first sight was real. I was so infatuated with you, I would've done anything to be with you. And I did.
I did everything for you. I probably spoiled you way more than you deserved but I never minded because I was so irrevocably in love with everything about you. You could have done anything and I would've thought it was the best thing in the world because YOU did it. I was blind sided by being 18 and finding what I thought was my first love.
It wasn't...
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When I saw you today I thought that I would feel sad or angry. The truth is that the smile I gave you was genuine. I am sorry for the relief I felt at your expence. I am sure that the sour look you had was because of the things he told you, just as he has told everyone else who will listen. I am not a bad person but I am looking forward to the peace. The peace that will come when the sad stories will be about you. I feel guilt in the pleasure that he is moving on to a new target.
I can honestly say that his exited walk and giggle brought a feeling of hope when he knew I saw you. I am sorry you were used as an object to get back at me.
Please forgive me for supporting your relationship. It really does break my heart that someone else has to expirence the rage and retaliation that the...
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It’s going to be okay.
“Blessed is she who has believed that what the LORD has said to her will be accomplished.” Luke 1:45
I love reading inspirational letters written by young women trying to encourage likeminded readers. I’ve read the be-patient-in-this-season-of-waiting letters, the enjoy-your-single-years-and-live-life-to-the-fullest letters, and even the how-to-heal-your-broken-heart-after-a-break-up letters. Don’t get me wrong, those are all great, and I’ve been moved to tears by more than one of them, but the reality is that none of those stories are my story, and I’m willing to bet there’s more of you out there who feel the same way.
Between cheesy rom coms and trashy romance novels, we as young women have been conditioned to think it’s weird for us to be in our late...
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Dear her,
I have spent the past 48 hours in complete and total devastation over what your affair with my husband did to me and my kids. I have tried so hard to pray for peace but you have robbed me of that luxury because at this point I'm even angry with God for allowing this to happen. I've gone over things I would say to you or what would happen should I ever see you in person. You very much deserve to be knocked into next week, but that's not the example I want to set for my children. I've beaten myself up and picked myself apart for the past two days trying like hell to determine what made you better than me. I've cried, lost sleep, been unable to eat, cried more, and now I'm just mad. I'm currently overwhelmed with hate. What has been done to my family has forever changed me. I...
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Dear C.
You may think that I have moved on, just like you did. But for me, it's taking more than just a few days like it did for you. Because to me, we weren't just nothing. To me, everything I said meant something. And to me, you weren't just another game to play.
To me, you were the first guy I trusted. You were the first guy I opened up to. And you were the first guy who changed me.
I know we didn't spend that much time together. It was only a few months. But those few months were the most eventful months of my life. I felt like you opened me up to another world. An unknown world. Because I'm young and I didn't know what love feels like. I still don't. But you made me feel like I was about to find out. You made me feel like we could be something. You got me to break down my walls...
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A Narcissists' New Years Wish.....
A truly Happy New Year!!??
43 now
At least 35 years of waking up feeling anxious
Of feeling let down by the first of many females....mother
Of feeling frightened of anger...father
But feeling such rage despite that fear?
I am a victim, feel sorry for me please and I will play the victim some more
It was a defence mechanism to begin .... Now a very sad way of life
So feel sorry for me please, be there, offer support, kindness, love
But I don't know how to give anything back....so I won't try
I know It sounds like madness ..
At least 35 years of not being able to speak up
Or have my own views, so I take other's and pretend they are mine
I need to be the best... A perfectionist in the making
I needed to prove my worth to them...to...
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Don't. Seriously, just don't do it.
I know it's easier said than done, but no matter how much you care about him, how secretive you two will be, or how good the sex is, you will regret it.
You'll sit in your room wondering if there's a reason why he hasn't come to hang out with you yet today. You'll wonder if it's something you did or if he's just busy with his actual girlfriend. You'll wonder if he's done with you or if he's just not interested right now. You'll think to yourself that maybe you should hold out on him the next time he asks, just so he can see what it feels like.
But despite this, you'll still give in the next time he comes looking for sex. You might do it because you feel lonely, because you just really enjoy it, or because you don't want him to think that you've...
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