When I saw you today I thought that I would feel sad or angry. The truth is that the smile I gave you was genuine. I am sorry for the relief I felt at your expence. I am sure that the sour look you had was because of the things he told you, just as he has told everyone else who will listen. I am not a bad person but I am looking forward to the peace. The peace that will come when the sad stories will be about you. I feel guilt in the pleasure that he is moving on to a new target.
I can honestly say that his exited walk and giggle brought a feeling of hope when he knew I saw you. I am sorry you were used as an object to get back at me.
Please forgive me for supporting your relationship. It really does break my heart that someone else has to expirence the rage and retaliation that the end of my marriage will cause you. I know I still pay dearly finanically, physically and mentally for his first marriage.
When the honeymoon ends and you see the whispers behind your back know that its not your fault. When the lies out weigh the truth and he has spent every penny of your future, know that you can come back from it. I will believe you when he manipulates every situation in his favour and when he guilts you into sleeping with him. I will believe you when he rallies everyone against you. Know that you are not crazy and that he has done this in every relationship he has had.
My advice to you is to start getting a good support network in place now...when things are good. When he slowly chips away at you you will have people to bring you back up. Just know that there are many women that have survived what you are about to go through and you will not be alone.
