The truth is you did not love me, you did not want me; you needed me. No..not me someone, anyone someone to keep you stable. The night we met you had been planning on killing yourself, but chose to hang out with me instead. During the relationship you told me you didn’t know what you would do without me... that I was what was keeping you sober. At the time I thought this was sweet and romantic.
The same night we broke up you made a friend. That is totally rad, friends are great . I was glad you didn’t have to be alone. I was happy someone was with you to make sure you did not harm y yourself. You also told me she was just a friend nothing more nothing less. Now you are happily dating her. Less than a week later…
You met them a night you were planning on harming yourself in some way...
Broken Hearts
Five years. I spent five years of my life with you. Five years that I can never have back. To say you hurt me would be a major understatement. I devoted my life to you. Did my best to make you happy. Gave you everything I could. Though, nothing is ever enough for you. Nothing I could have done or not done would have stopped you from cheating on me. I've learned that cheating is just a part of who you are. When our daughter was six months old you began seeing a 21 year old that you swore was nothing to you. You swore you barely even knew her. Of course, that was all lies. You'd go do your thing with her then come home and pretend nothing was wrong. Even when I asked. Even when I begged with tears running down my face for you to please just tell me the truth. You never did.
Shortly...
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Today my father got a rejection letter from home office for his visa application. A retired 69 years man. Home office is xenophobic. We will have a sad Christmas because an officer from home office is a heartless paranoid person.
They rejected the visa because my father is totally alone in our home country and they said maybe he doesn't come back after his visit.
I am senior scientist. My husband is lecturer in university. We both are UK permanent resident. Why can't we invite my old father for Christmas to our home?
We are not allowed to appeal or question the decision. This is unjustified. Is this democracy UK is proud of? British people reading my post, is this moral that minority and foreigners are treated like this in your country?
If by chance a border officer read this,...
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An Open Letter to the Three Guys that cheated on me,
How are you? How’s life? Actually, I know you guys are fine, because sometimes I check your social network accounts. And I can see you all have moved forward, are happy, enjoying and someone even got married.
Honestly, I envy you all. That you go on with your life easily, with new partners on your sides. And yet, I am here, figuring what was my fault, what’s wrong with me that it was so easy for you to leave and hurt me. It will always end up to that, I am not enough, because if I was, I don’t think you’ll leave, right?
Did I ever cross your mind? Did it even come to your mind to say sorry to me? To explain what happened and why it became like that, you left suddenly and next thing I knew, you’re with somebody.
At random nights, I...
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To the guy whom i love and cherish the most, to the guy whom im willing to sacrifice my all, the word i hate you and yet still loving you is the best thing that i can tell you right now. I hate you for taking me for granted and yet i love you cause you did.
I hate you for always scolding me and telling me how childish i was and yet i love it cause it means that youre still connected with me.
I hate you for always telling me how stupid and naive i am but still i love you cause i really do.
I hate you for thinking i dont love you.
I hate you for not seeing my worth and yet im still here waiting for you to see right thru me.
Theres almost a lot of reasons for me to hate and despise you, and yet im here still beside you for better or for worst. I may not be your first wife neither am i...
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I had seen signs of things that I didn't think we're normal in a healthy relationship, but I ignored them because I loved you. When school started you got mad when I went to lunch with my friends and you even got mad when I spend time with my family. It was almost as if you were in competition with them, fighting for me. I wish you had known that you were the only one fighting when you didn't even have to. You weren't in a competition with anyone.
Fast forward to the threatening texts messages, the criticism, the hatred of everyone in my life, the cruelty, and the manipulation. When we first broke up I thought I was blind to that because of how much I loved you. Looking back on it now I realize that you made me feel like I had no one else, leaving me to rely only on you. I wasn’t...
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Love was never a concept that I thought I would experience in high school. Nor did I ever think I would fall so hard, so fast. It was crazy really. My sophomore year go high school will be one i never forget. I knew you weren't as interested in me as I was you, but it only made me crazier about you. As a teenager with almost zero sexual experience I thought that was going to be the key to your heart.
Sadly as I write this, I know it didn't work out like that. I hate myself for being so naive and trusting. We began to "hook-up" frequently, but you would never consider it anything past desire. As you boasted to all of your friends about things that seemed personal to me, I gleamed with happiness as i described the guy I was so into. I thought we were together, but still not in your eyes....
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You were, are and always will be the most beautiful girl in the world. I love you more than life itself, you were the first person in my life to truly love me and want me as a person. For that I'm forever grateful to you. I didn't treat you the way that I should have, I didn't always give you the love that you gave me and we fought more than any couple should have, but for every terrible, tear inducing moment we had, we also had an equally great, butterfly inducing love story. The amount of butterflies I would get around you, how nervous I felt during our first date, how accomplished I felt when I defied your dad's orders and held your hand. How awesome it felt to talk to a girl that was so similar to me and loved me for my geeky, cornball self. All the kisses, the hugs, the cuddles...
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I GET JEALOUS BECAUSE I AM AFRAID.
I've never loved myself the way you claim to love me.Never have I once looked at myself and thought I was anywhere near perfection.My insecurities have made it nearly impossible for me to view myself anything other than just her.I'm just that one girl..So why would you stay with me when there's other girls whom are confident in their looks and personality?
It scares me to think that maybe one day you'll see what I see.You'll realize what I already know.I love you more than anyone ever will so to see you go would destroy what little confidence I do have.Everytime I see a post that she makes I wonder how much better she'd be for you.She is so outgoing and beautiful..her confidence makes her glow!
When you talk about her I know I start...
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An Open Letter to the Church that Beoke My Heart,
I am writing this letter while on a personal journey of forgiveness. I have learned that there are certain hurts in life that cannot be forgotten; they need to be dealt with. Therefore I am writing this letter as a means to let you know the pain and hurt you have caused, however unintentional it may have been, in my life.
For years I attended your church, a church where I felt loved and accepted for who I was. There weren't many children around my age, especially after the pastors family left, so I often sat with my Dad and the men for coffee time after the service. I never knew this was an issue. I always felt accepted at the table. That was until someone mad an off-hand comment to me one Sunday after church. "Why do you always...
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