Broken Hearts

An Open Letter to the Church that Beoke My Heart, I am writing this letter while on a personal journey of forgiveness. I have learned that there are certain hurts in life that cannot be forgotten; they need to be dealt with. Therefore I am writing this letter as a means to let you know the pain and hurt you have caused, however unintentional it may have been, in my life. For years I attended your church, a church where I felt loved and accepted for who I was. There weren't many children around my age, especially after the pastors family left, so I often sat with my Dad and the men for coffee time after the service. I never knew this was an issue. I always felt accepted at the table. That was until someone mad an off-hand comment to me one Sunday after church. "Why do you always...

By today’s standards, all good love stories have a happy ending. These stories are worth reading or watching, but what if the best love stories don’t have happy ones? What if the best love stories end horribly? This one ended in the worst way I could have possibly imagined but for her, it may have been one of the best things that ever happened to her. I was asked once to describe the girl I’m in love with and what happened to us, here is what I said. Saying she was the most amazing person I have ever met is an understatement. I have always been a dreamer. She was the pair of wings that let me fly to every dream I could ever imagine but she also held me down when it started flying too high. Her soul was that of an angel who always saw the best in people, even when they couldn’t see it in...

What I would give anything to have known. (July 15th, 2013) Dear little girl, You worth is not defined by how much this boy likes you. He is irrelevant. Before you start this, think about all the wonderful things you have going for you. I know he is older, sexy and mysterious. But you are young, innocent and naive. Please, stay this way. Sweetie, starting this with him is going to ruin your life. He is still destroying you to this day. It is November 24th, 2016. It is Thanksgiving Day, three years later. He is still running through your head. He is still controlling your heart. You are his puppet. I am begging you. He isn't worth it. The happy days to come are not worth the days that will make you feel lower than you ever have. He is going to leave you during the worst...

I get knots in my throat when I think of you, still. But of course that's to be expected when you lose your first love. I see you've found someone new, and so have I. So why do I still feel sick when I think about all of the I love you's we said back and fourth. Why do I still get twisted butterflies when I think about your promise. The promise to never leave me, the promise you broke with no remorse. I'm writing this letter to let you know how bad of a place you left me in, not only mentally, but physically as well. I miss you. I miss everything about you. But you're happy now with your new girl. She's beautiful. Perfect honestly. It brings me joy to see that you're happy, even if it's not with me. I do love you, and I always will. Even though you broke your promise, I forgive you. I'm...