I get knots in my throat when I think of you, still. But of course that's to be expected when you lose your first love. I see you've found someone new, and so have I. So why do I still feel sick when I think about all of the I love you's we said back and fourth. Why do I still get twisted butterflies when I think about your promise. The promise to never leave me, the promise you broke with no remorse. I'm writing this letter to let you know how bad of a place you left me in, not only mentally, but physically as well. I miss you. I miss everything about you. But you're happy now with your new girl. She's beautiful. Perfect honestly. It brings me joy to see that you're happy, even if it's not with me. I do love you, and I always will. Even though you broke your promise, I forgive you. I'm not going to beg for you to take me back. I just want you to know that you absolutely destroyed me. I'm not over you, and i'm not going to just forget you. That would be impossible. I will never be able to hear your name the same again. I'm writing this letter to somehow help me get over you. It probably won't work, as nothing does. But I had to write this down, for maybe someone to read and relate. Please don't ever forget me. Don't ever forget my big lips or bright blue eyes. Don't ever forget our pointless 4 am conversations about our lives together. I know I won't. Hearing your name gives me panic attacks and makes it hard for me to sleep at night. I am trying to get over you in every way possible, don't think i'm not. You just had this way with words and dark brown eyes that made me glue myself to you, and my glue won't come unstuck. I guess what i'm trying to say is that I miss you, but I don't want you back. I love you so much.
