Broken Hearts

Looking back now, I laugh at all the times you took me for granted. But more than anything I want to forgive you. I want to forgive the decade of Narcissistic abuse that led me to become the ugliest version of myself. A version I have to heal, and most likely will have to work on for the rest of my life. I’m not the monster you made me out to be – you and I both know that. But I’m writing this to correct your wrongs. To tell the world my side, finally. Just over 5 months in and cheating was already at the surface, but you played me – you played the game so well, I almost want to give you a round of applause. Women came and went just as my tears did. Many lovers know that struggle, I know.. But the way you went about it was masterful, honestly. Gas-lighting me into thinking it was...
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Hello Red, I hate you right now. You are a cheater! A Liar! and a manipulator. I hate you because I wasted my time loving you. I hate you because you made me believe that I am the only one, that there was only you and me in our world. And I found out that you are cheating on me half of the time of our relationship. You meet and fuck others. You made me believe that I am the only one, the only one you love so much, you cared so much, you treasured so much. You always give that assurance that the is only me and nothing else. I am hurt, I am mad at you, cause until now even though I forgive you still able and manage to cheat on me, lied on me and manipulate everything. I am hurt, I am crying in pain, my heart is in pain. I hate you so much!!!!!
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First, I wanna thank you for waiting for me to come back here in PH. Thank you for taking a risk with me. Thank you for not giving up on love. I know how hard it is for you to trust and love again, but you did - with me. Thank you. I wanna thank you for supporting me in whatever decisions I make in life. Thank you for always believing in my judgments. Aside from thanking you, I also wanted to apologize for all my short comings. I’m sorry if I wasn’t your ideal woman. I’m sorry for not being the best girlfriend you could have. But I wanted you to know how much I value you, appreciate you and loved you. I loved you for always trying to make me feel ok, when everything around me is grey and cloudy. I loved you even if you always choose to play Dota rather than talking to me. I still...
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I haven't stopped thinking about you since we last spoke. Then I saw you with another girl at my job, and my heart shattered. Just when I thought I was finally moving on. I guess I haven't gotten there yet, and I am scared I never will. But I know I have to, and I know eventually I'll let go. You were in my dreams recently. I haven't dreamt about you since we saw each other last. I think my mind continues to portray someone who I thought you were rather than who you really are. It hurts less and less as time goes on, and I know that one day and I will feel no pain at all. My sister told me that my best friend talked to you when I was gone. She told you to never talk to me again. If you truly loved me the way you did that you knew it would be better for us to say goodbye. I wish I knew...
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An open letter to the MAN who took MY innocents, I have spent years trying to build up enough courage to address what You put me through. The older I get the angrier I am. The more it effects me, not only me but my family. My mental health, my mothering, my ability to be vulnerable as a wife. I’m tired of keep secrets inside. I’m a mother not only to a son but of girls. I feel as if I can’t be a proper mother to my daughters because I am terrified something will happen to them the way it did me. I’ve turned into a helicopter mom for this very reason! YOU! I’m afraid to have any male figure alone with them and if they are my mind is wondering the whole time. I realized I was hiding behind who you were and who I thought you were. How I was terrified to tell because of how...
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What I would say to Katherine but won't ... You do not know my husband. You do not know the very complex person he is or the relationships he has had as a child nor as an adult. You will never know all the many thoughts that go on in his mind nor experience the extreme highs and lows that I have experienced with him.. Who you met was a man in need of attention and affection. Which you apparently gave to him tenfold... he has so many different layers that you can never understand, I still struggle with understanding him at times after 22 + years. You were a fantasy. Your relationship was a fantasy. I know this now. You gave him nothing but admiration adoration and affection. He craved this his entire life. But the truth is this is not reality. When you know someone, really know someone...
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It's finally over. You now have chosen her. Things may have changed but even though you chose to walk away and forget me like I never exist, you can never fully escape me. I will be there for you, but not in the way that I will always care nor I would reach out someday - that's not gonna happen. You may not like the idea of it, but pieces of me will still show up to you each day. In every places you will bring her - be it on the fancy lights, amusement park or nature themed places, you will see glimpses of me. With all those places, entirely, there are fond memories that we once shared. Remember when my eyes shine brighter than the lights first before hers? Eventually, my presence will come out to you in the songs we used to sing. You will hear me through the melody and...
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I wish I could tell you our break up didn't hurt that much, it did and it still does. I may not be completely healed right now but eventually I will be. I have accepted the duly fact that we are not meant to be way before our relationship ended. Although, I wish he has been honest with you about what really happened to us. How many times I have accepted him before I lost trust. How I did help him before I finally gave up. How I was the sweetest before I became toxic due to his lies and manipulation. How I was still around while you two became a thing. How I was badly hurt when he kept me trapped in his situation while you 're already there for him. How he jumped into a new relationship without settling his issues first. And I know in his story, it's me, I'm the problem, it's me!...
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My Heart, I love your perfection and flaws. I love every inch and bit of you. In fact, since the beginning of our relationship, I knew early on that you are the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. As time passes by, my love for you has been growing deeper. And whatever it takes, in sickness and in health, in richer or poorer, in happiness and sadness, with established career or just floating, with or without approval of our relatives, until we get older, until we're laid on our death bed, I will stick with you. I will always be patient, understanding, supportive, loving, caring, and sweet to you and your love ones. Despite the challenges we encountered, our years together were definitely the best for me. I felt like my life with you was perfect and I wouldn't trade it...
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It's been a year with no contact, but i still remember everything i said that night. My words won't choke me anymore. I was a fool, really. First, for believing that we would ever had anything, because now i see that i was only a thing for you to pass your time. Maybe a toy for your amusement, or maybe even less than that. You were bored in your relationship, i was available. It was the perfect match, i admit. Things seemed well when the ghost of your girlfriend didn't have a face, a name, or a social media account. Sometimes i wish i didn't ease the curiosity, that i didn't flirt first that day, that i hadn't liked you like i did. Then i found her social media account, just like you wanted, from all the clues, i finally did. Comparision does kill, i died at least hundred times since i...
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