Broken Hearts

Let me explain to you what it feels like to be told you are fat, a worthless parent, not good enough. Stupid, lazy, crazy. It’s heart breaking it does something to a person they can never fully get over. The thoughts replay throughout my mind daily. I question myself when I know better but after being put down for so long you start to believe you are absolutely worthless. Let me convey the emotions that rip through a young woman like myself when she is convinced she is someone’s forever. Let me express the hope and loyalty that is instilled inside of a girl who built up wall after wall only to feel as though they were peacefully torn down by a man who pulled her deeply into his love. I cannot formulate those emotions into words the same way I cannot describe the way it felt to have you...
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The whole world might conspire against you, because you know people will keep spreading all the bad things they know about you but I want to let you know.......all that means nothing to me. I want to know that side of you that no one seems to care about. But how do i dive in deeper? Where do i go from here babe? The more you let me in your life, i cant help but realize that deep down you’re hurt, like a broken piece of glass that was shattered. You are waiting for someone to pick and fix you up. And if they do, they’re gonna bleed just like how i am bleeding right now. Slowly, the pain will come back to you. You can’t do that babe, you can’t let someone fix you. Only you can do the fixing yourself. I hope you will soon realize that. But i’ll be here, always.
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To the girl who’s name is a variation of the colour red, Crimson. We got together sometime in the beginning of this year. You left me in August. And that, I have to say, hurt me horribly. But, I know you didn’t want to be harsh. You explained everything to me and I’m thankful you didn’t just leave me with no explanation. I was drowning for years and you finally came into my life and gave me a breath of air to life myself up with. Now we aren’t together anymore, but I’m still so in love with you. I know you’ll never feel the same way about me again, so I just want to say goodbye. I don’t want to leave you, and I would do anything for you, but I need to leave you now. This letter is to explain to you why I’m leaving you out of my life from here on out. There’s a small piece of my...
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I'll never forget the day I opened up to you. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make me want to open up more. We were kids and I think I just liked the idea of having a companion. I didn't care about your flaws. I didn't care that you weren't always listening. I didn't care that your methods began to look a lot like peer pressure. I didn't care that you began to make excuses. I cared when you walked away. You see, I had put everything I had into what we had because you didn't put in anything. I was devastated. Then, I was okay, and you decided to come back. I loved you again, with hesitation at first. I thought I had nothing left to give, but you proved me wrong. I gave you my heart. I gave you my body. I gave you my mind and my soul and my confidence until I was nothing but...
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Dear Everyone, 9/30/18 2:20 am This letter goes out to everyone in my life who made me or broke me. I'm writing this letter just in case my thoughts become too much one day,...
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To the one I loved, the one that hurt me, the one I forgive, the one I had to walk away from. In no particular order, welcome to my brain I never wanted a life without you. I feel lost and helpless and defeated. I can’t eat or sleep. My stomach is in knots all the time, I have constant runs and I’ve gone back to wetting myself out of anxiety. My head is dazed. I feel total sadness and despair. My eyes are filled with tears constantly. I cry all the time. I don’t have a home to go to and clean or tidy or animals to look after. I don’t have someone to come home to and to talk to. It’s quiet and lonely. I don’t have a purpose. I’ve lost everything that was me. It’s not fair that you hurt me. It’s nit fair that I hurt you when I had to leave. None of it is fair. I miss your hugs...
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Dear Freddie, I don't know where to begin. The pain I feel without you is like nothing I have ever experienced, made ten times greater by the knowledge that you probably haven't given me a second thought in months. I am walking and wounded, with thoughts of your arms wrapped around me circling in my head. The image of us crying with laughter together is forever etched into my brain and is constantly torn to pieces when I remember the words you said to me that made me fall apart inside. "Well I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way. We're not going to work after this. I'm sorry it's so harsh but that's just what it is for me. I wish you the best of luck for everything you do in the future." I never knew that words could cut so deep. I never knew I could feel so intensely human with...
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The final line, the last thread. I know that in writing this letter to you, I will be sealing a future without you. That I will be crossing the last line. That is the decision I have made. I don’t understand what you would be getting out of a friendship with me anyways. According to you, I am a manipulator who brings drama and negativity into your life. I’m not “cool” enough. I can’t be your friend. It won’t ever work. All I am to you now is a regret and a mistake. You won’t remember any good things. It’s easier to remember the bad. For a year and a half, I supported you, emotionally, and financially. I bought you food, cigarettes, alcohol and drugs when you had no money. I gave you colour, and furniture, air conditioning and clothes. I lent you money I didn’t have, close to $...
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Dear Dad, Do you remember when I was your little girl...
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I've written to you 100 times. With every letter I write I think it will get easier and it doesn't. 6 years have passed and throughout these years I've had a chance to see things from not only my grieving perspective, but that of everyone else who loved you in the way I did, too. I've said a lot of "I miss you" and only god knows how many times I've begged for you back. But after 6 years, I've come to terms with the fact that no matter how much we love you, you deserve so much better than here - and it would be so selfish for us to bring you back to a world where you just couldn't be happy. So from here on I want to make sure that people remember you in the way you deserve to be remembered, and too learn from you all that I was lucky enough too. So this letter is your lessons that...
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