Broken Hearts

Bachelor parties. A word that sends a pang of pain into the heart for many fiances and wives alike. For future brides, it's the fear of what happens. For wives, its pain from knowing what happened, or living with unanswered questions. For me, his bachelor party was the worst night of my life. He was supposed to come see me after work. And for hours I sat calling waiting, wondering if he was okay. Was he in a wreck? Did something happen to him? No. His "friends" had come to his work to take him out for the night. He would cheat on me that night. Encouraged by his "friends" and even father. I'm not blaming them, but my husband has always been a push over. Peer pressure could make him walk off a bridge. And with his entire family encouraging it, he did it. We had talked about...
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Dear JM, My love, you are still the most amazing person in my life. You are pure and kind inside, and really gorgeous and good-looking outside. I love your perfection and flaws. I love every inch and bit of you. In fact, since the beginning of our relationship, I knew early on that you are the man I want to be with for the rest of my existence. As time passes by, my love for you has been growing deeper. My heart, body, and soul are in unison that whatever it takes, in sickness and in health, in richer or poorer, in happiness and sadness, with established career or just floating, with or without approval of parents, until we get older, until we're laid on our death bed, I will stick with you with my everlasting commitment. I will always be patient, understanding, supportive, loving,...
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Dear (Former) Best Friend I miss you, I miss you so much, I miss hearing your voice, I miss having you in my life. The way you left me, Is what hurts the most, you didn't say goodbye or anything... just one day my number was blocked and I had no way to contact you. I Don't know if it's my fault, if I hurt you, if I let you down but, it hurts to be without you and I would do anything to have you back in my life. Your boyfriend told me to never talk to you again... that You were friends with me because you felt sorry for me and I don't know what to believe I mean I thought you'd at least try to talk to me if this wasn't true. You missed a day that was so important to me and I thought it was to you too, but I guess I was wrong. I thought I could deal with it, I was so wrong everyday I...
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My lovely kids, I can exactly see how you would look, I know what you would be called, I know I would take you to museums, concerts, the sea and all kinds of places. Most of all: I would love you till my last breath. But still, you're not here. You'll never be here. When I was in my twenties I wasn't thinking about kids of my own. I was busy getting myself together after ordeals that made my world shake. I knew I couldn't do that to a child to be part of that. When I was in my thirties it took a while for me to admit that I'd love to have kids. But then there was no man in my life. That day in September 2012 when I walked out of the gynecologist office and felt like my whole world fell apart. That day she told me that it was never going to happen: kids. That day I sat at the...
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The first time I met you, I thought you were the weirdest person I'd ever met. Your jokes were stupid and sometimes borderline offensive and the few times I'd spoken to you in a group voice chat you had been high as a kite. I didn't think much of you. I played a cover of a parody and everyone had seemed to enjoy it, especially you. But we never really talked in private. Then one day you messaged me after I'd basically gone AWOL for two weeks. We talked for a bit and then basically dropped it and never really talked much. I think that's when I start to develop a minor crush on you. Noone had ever done something like that to me before. We barely talked but still, you thought of me. And you cared about me. And then you did it again a few weeks later after I'd been sectioned. A few...
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You are an epitome of a gentleman with oozing sex appeal, vehemently sought after by woman from all walks of life. When I first laid eyes to an almost perfect creation made by God who happened to be you, my heart palpitated very fast. I was never attracted nor even imagined I am going to sleep with you til it actually happened... not once, not twice but a lot of times! I am not that type person who likes to sleep around but you are damn good in bed that makes me wanna do it again and again and experiment anything under the sun. You text or call me only when you need something, I realized that a midnight or any late night text messages are booty call but since I like you, I will rush and come to you after you had sent me a message or after hanging up the phone. I had agreed with...
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Will I ever? will I ever be? will I ever be able to move on? Almost 12 years ago, I met you.. no, I saw you. We didn't speak, but you captivated me. It was me liking you.. crush.. to admiration.. to love! Why did I let my feelings grow? When did I fell in love with you? I don't know! The was never an us, I can't even claim that you're my friend. You know me...
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To my...Almost?? I fucked up, again. every time there’s a possibility for something good in my life, i fuck it up. all my friends told me that you were into me, hell even some of your friends told me. but i let my insecurities get in the way, again. it’s so disappointing to wreck something for yourself, because the only person to blame is the same person who got you into the mess. i couldn’t get out of my head, i couldn’t listen to the words you were saying. i could hear you, but i just couldn’t listen. i wish that i could say you broke my heart, but fuck, i broke my own heart. it took me a little while longer to realize my feelings, and i’m truly, deeply sorry if that hurt you. i genuinely apologize if i lead you on. that was never my intention, all i wanted was to let my guard down....
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how can I say that I still feel, deep in my heart, that you want me, that you need me and crave for communication? Maybe I wish it to be true and SO much that I'm starting to think this feeling is mutual and I can feel you through distance and time. A very wise witch once said to me that you and I met in another life, and we were married. Can you imagine it? Us? Married? No shit, we surely were having tons of sex till you decide to cheat on me and I dissappeared from your life forever, till the next life, which is this one. It's ironic because if that's true, then this life taught me something: I am the other woman, the mistress, but I am suffering too. Our relationship is doomed and there's no happy ending, can you see it? To be honest, I'm afraid, I'm afraid of not seeing you...
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To My Future Husband... I went through my first heart break. I can’t breathe. I barely ate anything today and sleeping is out of the question. I find a small comfort knowing you are out there somewhere. Maybe we’ve already met, maybe there’s still years between us. Maybe you’re going through a heartbreak right now too. If you were here would I be sad? Would you comfort me? Would we know how much our lives were going to matter to each other? I have no idea about the what ifs. What if this guy didn’t break my heart? What if he still wanted me? What if there’s still a chance for us? What if you’re him? What would you say when you read this? Would you be sorry? Would you regret us? I have no idea... I don’t want to go through another heartbreak. I am in so much pain and I always thought...
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