Feeling our relationship was coming to an end certainly didn't make the official termination any easier. I find it especially difficult because I can't hate you.
I struggle with the realization that our days of exploring are forever gone. There is no longer anything to try to work through because you can't change how/what you feel or don't feel. You will never be a presence in my life again. The thought of that eternal separation makes me sick. We have become completely separate people that are operating independently, yet my heart still aches with your absence.
I wonder if things would be different if we had never attempted to move in together, if the conversation was never initiated until after we were done with school. It's so damn painful. Thinking about going through day to...
Broken Hearts
I don't fit in. I never have. I've always been pushed around trying to fit in but never have. Over the past year things have got especially worse. Great things like getting my first job as well as my license have been great. But many things have overshadowed this. Meeting one person change so much for me.
At first change seemed good but after all it was too good to be true. Time dragged on and it got to a point to which I didn't know how to leave it. Aside from that the people I call my friends are really just nonsense people. Talking behind my back or excluding me is just childish. People just be honest. That one person changed a lot and many hated her. More recently being an idiot proved costly for my car. But when I thought to have found the right girl, it didn't work out. If only she...
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Dear my little bean,
You were only nine weeks along when you left us.. Only nine weeks along and I was so excited to meet you already. Your daddy decided to call you our little bean and that's what you were. Our growing little bean. But, for only a very short time.. Only thirty one more weeks and we would be up all night, making bottles and changing diapers. Only thirty one more weeks and I would have gotten to see that smile and those beautiful eyes that I knew you were going to have. Only thirty one more weeks and you would have been in my arms..
But, I will never get to wake up in the middle of the night to make you a bottle or change your diaper. I will never have the chance to know what kind of person you would have grown up to be. I will never get the chance to know if you...
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It's 1:35 in the morning, I'm wide awake. You're sound asleep. You sent me five, maybe six messages today. Honestly, that's better than yesterday. What happened to getting messages all day? Is it honestly that hard to pick up your phone before 6? You don't have a job. College is on break. How did I drop so low on your list of priorities?
I've noticed, of course, how the texts have changed. "I love you" has become "love u" and only used when needed. I get one word answers. I have exhausted every conversation starter I know. Still, nothing. I get "okay" and "cool" and "yup". I've confronted you about it. If talking to me is a chore, don't talk to me. "Talking to you isn't a chore, sweetie." Good. Prove it. Put some effort into this.
I am so very tired of pulling this along...
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And there you were.
The most perfect combination of charisma, mystery, and bad news. It was the start of what would be the best and worst months of my life.
Okay now brace yourself, because this is going to be filled with lots and lots of rambling because to be honest, I don't know how I could ever put all of my thoughts and feelings toward you into words or sentences that make any sense at all.
Unfortunately, I am stuck in this zone until I decide to get on my feet and grow some balls and tell you how I feel and I do not mean the "hey, I like you." bullshit speech, I mean how I really feel. Until then I’m going to continue to go to hell and back trying to hide behind the friendship because you and I both know I do not want to lose it or risk losing it.
Thank you for being...
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I am a country girl from a poor simple family from a third world country. When I was young I always had dreamed of getting out of my country, I wanted to see the other side of the world, your world.
I am always amazed every time I will see foreigners from the first world countries coming in our place. It is either, you are coming for travel or mostly you are coming to help us, to give us some free medical check-ups, books, clothes, free education, etc. Those kindness and help you were giving us made a great impact on my young mind and my young heart, because of that I thought you were awesome, you have a golden hearts, I look at you up and respected you a lot. Even as a child I also realized that your life is very different from our life, I know it, I could even see it from the...
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An Open Letter to the First Boy Who Broke my Heart
I have never felt like this in my entire life. My heart feels like its shattered into a million pieces, I haven’t cried this much –ever, my chest aches all the time, and there’s an emptiness inside of me that I think only you could fix.
Maybe I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was in love. You had me wrapped around your finger, and I think you knew it. I would have done anything in the world for you, and sometimes I think that occasionally, you took advantage of that whether or not you meant to. From the moment we started to talk and become friends back in October, to May when we parted and went our separate ways for the summer, and maybe even forever I would have done anything in the world.
You needed me and I needed you. I was...
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Well Hey Long time, no talk,
It has took me a few years to actually write this letter or express my feelings ever since you broke my heart. I've had quite a few heart breaks in my life, but I would never expect in a million years for my best friend to break my heart. Honestly, I'm still recovering from it. Yeah I'm almost a Senior in High School and still recovering from a Heartbreak from 9th grade. It's sad isn't it?
I still remember all our good ole' memories, like they were yesterday. I still remember our laughs and Cheesy jokes what we made up. I still have all of our friendship bracelets and necklaces. You might not have any of our stuff from our friendship nor remember any of our memories like I do. But I hope you know I still remember everything and it's okay if you don't. I...
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This is an open, honest letter to the man I loved after so many years of not knowing if I'd ever find it again.
I knew from the moment we locked eyes at the gas station, that we'd start something we both could not walk away from. As I sit here years later pandering my life's next chapters, I wonder where it all went wrong. You see we couldn't be more opposite, but I was always willing to take part in the things you liked. Of course it was just lust for both of us but at opposite times I know we both thought of what it'd be like to love each other. Call me a hopeless romantic but anyway I could get you to come over, made my day... Every.... Single.... Time....
The thing about lust is, it turns into something unmistakable and will either get hotter or burn out like a moth to a...
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Did you think before you acted? Did you ever consider what a relationship like that would do to me?
i doubt it because you say we were just "friends" but we were the exact definition of the term relationship.
- Relationship: the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected.
- Relationship: the way in which two or more people or organizations regard and behave toward each other.
Sure. We were not "official" We did not say we were dating. But what do you call the endless text. The flirting. The sneaking around because we were forbidden? I wish I listened to them. I wish I listened to my sister, and your mom. They were scared of us sneaking around..I did not see it coming until it was to late. I want to blame you, I want to...
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