The day I met you was when it all began. Not a friendship, of course. I don't think you're even capable of being a real friend. It was this out of control love triangle you had going on.
The day I met you, you took advantage of my kindness. I was innocent compared to you, even though you were slightly younger. I had always been a good girl.
The day I met you, I was already in a dark place. I had been through a lot that year. You were my first real kiss, and you made me feel special.
A few weeks later I was falling. You had no intentions of catching me.
You apparently had a girlfriend, but you continuously lied about her. "She's crazy." "She just thinks we are together."
A couple of days later I met her, and she confirmed you had been with her for a couple of weeks before...
Broken Hearts
An open letter to the "man" who used me, and left.
I do not know why I am writing this letter. Maybe out of hope that it will stop the constant voices in my head. Or the constant wondering. Or the crying I do when I am forced to think of you. Maybe its in hope that you will come across it someday, see the name and know its me, your rush. Or maybe, I'm just writing it out of pure loneliness.
No matter how much I write, I can not explain to you the amount of pain I am going through, I can not even explain it to myself. I knew this was a risk. I knew we were not together. I knew we were not in love. All I knew, is that I wanted you, I needed you, I clung to you. I trusted you. And I hoped. I hoped that those times you mentioned a future, us living together, being together when I was...
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I recently heard through the grapevine that you're pregnant with your first child. I was surprised by the news considering your stance on children, and your relationship, but mostly the fact that it took 3 months for me to hear about it. At first, I had terrible, and hateful thoughts run through my mind, then it turned to sadness. I miss you all the time, and I pretend that I don't. I'm so sad that I'm not a part of your life for this, and I'm sorry for not trying to be. I know there were a lot of shady events that took place between our partners, and their families, so much that it drove a divide right between us. Right when I first started having my children, and when I thought I would need you most, we got further and further apart. I remember after we had stopped speaking, I would...
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Dear Mrs. ___________
First off I'd like to say that I mean no harm with this letter, and I am respectfully trying to get you to understand how your words to your son caused a great deal of pain for me. I have thought about how you might be seeing things, and have concluded that some of your fears about me are rational, but other things you are saying are just plain cruel.
You don't like that I have a mental illness, so you told your son to give up on me and that I was "dangerous". I get that you want what is best for your son, and as I will be a mother someday, I would want the same. But do you remember how happy he was with me? Isn't the best thing for anyone what makes them smile the most? I know a mental illness may seem scary and yes I have extremely injured myself before (...
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It isn't fair to you. It isn't fair to me. Going in to this, we already saw the ending. The conclusion to this beautiful partnership we have created. Not a day goes by I don't think about you. About all of the fond memories we already have only four months into this. All of the help you've given me, all of the advice and long conversations. I honestly cherish every moment spent with you, but is it possible that's why it's so special? Almost equal to all of the time spent thinking about the good times, I think about the end. Is that why we have such quality time together? Is that why I love you in a way that I never thought was possible? I know I know. I'm being really sappy and corny. But, when most people break up there's a good reason. You know without a shadow of a doubt that they...
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I know this letter will never reach you … but
My god it have been a roller coaster of emotions… I can even begin to tell you how hard this is for me …
The week that I stop talking to you must have been one of the hardest week of my life… I wanted to call you … I wanted to tell you how much I love you … how I new we could work trough anything … I wanted to catch a plane … find you and give you a kiss … to make you feel the love that I feel for you … to once again make you see why we had lasted so long … to let you see all the love that I had for you …
It was extremely painful… seeing the hours pass… and as every second of the day past … the pain just grew deeper … I didn’t eat… I didn’t sleep much … pretty much I was drinking everyday … to try to make time pass faster … I wanted...
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Dear Derek,
We never really talked about forever but I'm sure we both did not see this day coming. I mean of course couples get mad and think about breaking up but the idea of it actually happening and sticking to it is a whole different story. Right now as I'm righting this we've been broken up for only 2 days (almost) and it's going completely wrong. All I want to do is call you and tell you that I'm sorry and that I forgive you for the mistakes and that I'm on my way over to hug you and never let you go.
That's just how I feel but I also feel like everything happens for a reason and if our breakup actually went through signed, sealed and stamped then maybe this is where we should be. I have been asking God why, how did we get to this point when we both loved each other no...
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This letter is to make you aware of all the things you have done unto my family, unto the father of your children and most importantly to your children. You will NEVER as in NEVER fathom the extent of damage your actions has caused us all. Your devious plans, your emotional abuse and potty mouth has caused irreparable damage to us as a couple (yes we are a married couple now, because I married the father of your kids because you didn’t want to be married to him anymore – YOU left him for another, just be reminded of that please).
I on the other hand can also not fathom or wrap my mind around a few things you have said and done, I will list them for you and in some cases try to carefully indicate why I am struggling to understand, so here goes:
1. My husband, your ex husband and...
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It’s been 4 months since you told me you love me to infinity, and that you will never leave me. It’s been also 4 months since you bid good bye. How ironic, isn’t it? The pain struck me all of a sudden. You left me behind hanging, feeling like having no reason to go on. How can I fight for someone whom I love with my all, if he had already given up? Yes, it was really hard for me to lose you. But, it’s even harder to stay by your side, knowing that you don’t want me to be there anymore. I’ve been always the girl who puts your happiness first; I’ve been always the girl who never let your stomach empty, well because I know you might turn into a monster real quick. In a blink of an eye, everything has changed. You used to crave for my presence, and I used to overcome your thirst of my love....
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It will be five years since we lost you this december, and 5 years have never felt so long. five years without my very best friend. 5 years of waking up every morning having to face the reality of life without you. 5 years of talking to you in my head all day long hoping and praying that your listening and that the strength that you carried through your life can some how be reflected onto me. 5 years of wondering if I'm the only little sister that got left with so much pain when i lost my big brother.
there was nothing more comforting than knowing i had my brother to protect me. you had imbedded in me since birth that if anyone hurt me they would have to answer to you. lt was like i had an imaginary shielld around me because my big brother was only phone call away. you gave me the...
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