The night was perfect. The moonlight kept us sober despite the alcohol prepped on the smooth wooden table. We were two twinkling stars of the night shining oh-so brightly. So bright that we'd make the perfect astrology. It was amazing. So amazing that we'd own these memories to ourselves. The embrace I've longed for, you seem perfect to provide it without hesitations. It was passionate; it was undoubtedly magical. We can watch the clouds and stars shower upon us. I desperately wished this was the night- the perfect night to fall in love.
Sadly, I was the only one who hoped for it. I was the only one who starred in the film I thought we both directed. But I had to be okay. I was /okay/.
We continued our journey. It was those late night conversations that kept us walking even 'til...
Broken Hearts
As i sit here listening to the rain fall as if tears from my check, i can still feel the warmth of your skin on mine the way your lips felt on my cheek. Its been months since everything fell apart and there are days still that it hits me so hard that i can literally feel the cracking in my heart.
I dont understand why things happen the way they do or why we couldnt make it work and this will be the question i fear will haunt me. You were my everything, my best friend, my heart, my strenght and my weakness. You made me insane but yet kept me grounded somehow. There wasnt anything i wouldnt have done for you, ive never felt a love like that before and i fear i never will again. Our love seemed extraordinary to me one that you only get to feel once in your life and although things werent...
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You wouldn't find the alias funny, probably, but you tend to startle me with the way you execute your exhibitions. It amazes me, really, seeing you all giddy and proud as you see me cheering louder and adorably giggling. My tiny stunty, please keep my eyes from getting all teary. Another nickname you say? Maybe /my/ frustrated wrestler since you seem quite odd in cuddling; it's not too much for you to comprehend. Easy.
I find it funny though. This playlist I've been streaming through reminds me of you. "I'm reaching out to you, can you hear my call?" Fuck you, you heartless immature prick. These words were uncalled for, neither was my heart hanging on; basically grasping for air, on a tip of an iceberg, about to slip down and break into millions of pieces; slowly turning into cold...
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I'm sorry I failed you
I'm really sorry that I don't see how.
Maybe I loved you too much
And it suffocated you
Maybe I Overprotected you
Maybe I believed in you too much
And my belief pressured you to
hide your flaws, mistakes or anything that you thought didn't live up what my eyes saw.
I'm sorry that even though you have been very clear with your accusations,
I can't truly apologize for any of the things that you say I did to hurt you because I don't see them.
I still try to find any trace of truth in the things you say but I can't. I've prayed over and over for God to reveal them to me as truths so that I can own up to them and help you heal but he has not.
What I see is a life that was one hundred percent devoted to you. A life where every decision was made...
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Blue,
As I take another hit of my third cigarette in a row, I notice my chipped blue nail polish. It is reminiscent of you. Your favourite colour was blue, your eyeshadow was blue, I left you blue.
I have spent well over an hour deciding how to begin this letter. I don't know that I should, really, as I'm sure my pathetic heart will be disgruntled for the rest of the night after writing out this letter. However, so much of it must be said.
The nights that followed our first meeting were long, and confusing. I was cold, bitter, and distant. I tried so very hard not to let you in. I had a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach as we found your house, and as you wrapped your arms around him, a wave of nausea hit me like a train. The spite built up in my heart. When we got to...
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We met at the fragile age of 16. I remember our first conversation like it was yesterday. You were like every other boy, but there was a glimpse of something great in you I couldn't help but want to know. We started off rocky, which should of pulled me away from you to begin with. Yet, you always made your way back into my life. As we grew older my feelings got stronger. I remember when I knew for sure I was in love with you. Staring into your eyes at my Senior Prom singing a familiar song in your ear, I never thought anything could ever pull us apart. After I graduated, spending time together got less and less as did your feelings. I knew things were changing, but I couldn't let you go without a fight. After a little break up I moved closer to you thinking it would help our relationship...
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Its been 3 years... Ive moved on, in a happy relationship, but I still miss you. How did we confuse the love that we felt for each other with a romantic one? Why did we have to enter into that stormy relationship only to end up without each other. I Lost my best friend and I cant get over it. I cannot forget and my wounds will not heal.
Im sorry that I broke your heart. Im sorry that I was selfish and threw you away because I was tired of your immaturity. I will never forget the look on your face when I told you Im leaving. I will never forget your pained phone calls begging me to stay. I will never forget the tears on your face after you landed up in hospital due to a suicide attempt. Im sorry. How could I have been so selfish? Your life was already such a painful one. I wish I could...
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Dear Ex,
I know you will never read this lines because I won't share them with anyone, but I need to pour out a lot inside of me.
I am very sad with you and while I've answer to all your distress calls until now, I'm actually never going to do the same in the future. You lefted me for a navy officer 4 years ago, and you did to him what you did to me... the worst of all is that you decided to jump into a relation with a drug dealer...
I always feared you smoked too much shit and that you would end up as a junkie, in fact I saw you turning into a junkie but I never mentioned it neither judged you. I actually believed you were controlling the situation...
You know, a drug dealers girlfriend must be blind, deaf and mute... that's not you... but I suppose a large stash of marijuana...
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It hurts more than I thought it would. I tried to distance myself from you in case this happened. Or at least to not let myself fully fall in love with you. Honestly, I thought this might happen and I basically knew it would. But I let it happen, so I guess it's my fault.
Lucky girl, she is. I hope you get her and get your happy ending. (And it'll be the happy ending for her too, which will make you happier too.)
You told me I haven't loved like you do. Maybe you're right; maybe I never loved. But I think I did. I've poured my heart out in loving somebody, and although I don't love, hate, or miss him at all anymore, I miss being in love. I remember how it actually physically hurt to see him worried about something, even though I knew it was for another girl. I remember how happy I was...
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I thought we would spend our lives together. I knew we had problems. I guess I should have known better. I saw the signs, but I chose to ignore them. I loved you with a fire in my heart that couldn’t be extinguished. No matter what happened, no matter what you did, I loved you with every ounce of my soul. I loved you with a wild abandon only a teenager could muster. I thought that my love for you was enough. Enough to get us through anything. But, I was wrong. Years passed and promises were broken, lies told, hearts broken, but I still loved you. To this day, I love you still. Even though you’ve moved on. It was so easy for you. So easy for you to start over with someone new. I won’t have that chance for a while. See single mothers who have their children 24/7 don’t have the chance to go...
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