As i sit here listening to the rain fall as if tears from my check, i can still feel the warmth of your skin on mine the way your lips felt on my cheek. Its been months since everything fell apart and there are days still that it hits me so hard that i can literally feel the cracking in my heart.
I dont understand why things happen the way they do or why we couldnt make it work and this will be the question i fear will haunt me. You were my everything, my best friend, my heart, my strenght and my weakness. You made me insane but yet kept me grounded somehow. There wasnt anything i wouldnt have done for you, ive never felt a love like that before and i fear i never will again. Our love seemed extraordinary to me one that you only get to feel once in your life and although things werent always perfect and days seemed so sad i wouldnt trade not one day good or bad for anything. I wake up everyday and i have yo remind myself that you are gone, that you just didnt care as much as i did to fight for us for our love and that is what hurts me the most the knowing that i didnt mean enough to you for you to fight its something i struggle with everyday and everyday it hurts. I am getting better though you see because i have forgiven you and myself we both made alot of mistakes and i think thats because we were both so scared we have both been hurt so many times by the people we loved and thats what made it so difficult for us. I hope that you remember me and how much i truly did and still do love you and although i cannot hold you in my arms anymore i will forever hold you in my heart.
