Broken Hearts

"It just won't work." "Another shot of us may be impossible right now." "I'm sorry." "You weren't made to love me." "Her." "She." "Hers." I had all these hopes and doubts to myself, not knowing you only cared less. People choose to conclude with the assumptions which weren't even part of the choices. And yet, some people do things that make others assume further, for either something better or worse. That's simply part of the cycle of hurting. It works either way. It has to be one-sided or unfair, for it is to be realized to unfortunately exist in reality. We are the negative measurement in an absolute solution. It is a fact I've already expected and reminded myself right from the beginning. And as you utter those harmful words, it was as if the concept seemed...
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I'm so sorry that he found you. I thought I had time to meet you and build you back up from your last relationship, before he got to you. I'm so sorry for the things he will do to you. You don't deserve any of it, but he can't help himself. He thinks what he does is justified and fun. I don't know the lies he told you about me, but I do know the lies he has most likely already told you, because he told them to me. First off, he has only one biological sister. He doesn't have a brother and no one he knows died just before Christmas on any year, walking to his place. His mother was not abusive. Yes, she would smack or punch his stomach randomly, but only because he and his step dad asked her to do it. So they could tighten their stomachs. His step dad confirmed this. He was only in...
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Despite having never met you, I know a lot about you. More than I care to know, honestly. My husband has known you for many years now and I'm just now realizing what has happened. He fell in love with you when I allowed you to come into his life because of my stupid decisions. We have separated many times and every time he has went to you. Every time he tells you how beautiful you are, how perfect you are. The scary thing is, he's right. You have everything in the world going for you. You ARE gorgeous and genuinely nice. You would be the best thing in the world for him. But the jealous wife in me would never want that to happen of course. This time when we reconciled things felt so different. He still looks for you on his Facebook. He watches your MMA fights online....
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Before you embark on your journey down the isle, I wanted to express this blessing upon you. I hope you never experience fear from his temper. I hope you never catch him lying regarding who he is on the phone with. I hope you never hear his disgusted sigh regarding your tears or pain. I hope you never experience his aggressive drunk advances that cause you to fell uncomfortable for days after. I hope you never witness the exile of another friend because of his irritation with them. I hope you never see him in a fight, or witness the aftermath of him bloodied after. I hope you never have to waste tears wondering where he is, or why he wont respond to your calls when he should be next to you in bed. I hope you never become convinced to keep separate bank accounts, so he can lie about not...
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Dear Bear, Two years of my life has been spent in an ever fluctuating relationship that I thought was worth all the sacrifice in the world. Worth pain and discomfort. Worth loss and lack of security. Worth hard work and emotional strife. It was worth it because I had a best friend and lasting love that made me a better version of myself. It made me happy, it made me proud, and it made me appreciate love in all its forms. And now that love is no longer something worth fighting for. You are an amazing person when you are your true self. You are kind, funny, caring, and very smart. You work hard, and you love deeply. You take care of me and make me feel like the luckiest woman alive. You give great advice. You speak well. You read. You are my dream companion when you are...
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It's been exactly 47 days since I last saw you. Since I heard you tell me you love me. Since I felt that hug I love oh so much. Its weird to think, 47 days ago we were fine. We argued, yes, but you were my best friend. 47 days ago we were sitting in my room, eating meatloaf and playing games on my laptop. We were laughing, for once we weren't arguing. For once since we broke up we were fine. Its weird how things can change, one minute you love me, the next minute you don't want to speak to me. I know so much about you and all that information is now a distant pointless memory. I remember everything, I remember every night I saw you since the first night at Walmart. I should be over you. I should be over all the pointless arguments that I started. I should be over everything, but for...
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Dear dad, I'm writing this to you, not to hurt you, but to heal me. I'm writing this to put all my feelings out on the table and then close the book forever. I sit here wondering how in the world am I 36 years old and you and the subject of you still bothers me as much as it does. How in the world do you have such an impact on my feelings and emotions and my day to day life when I obviously have no impact on yours. How is this possible?? Why at this age in my life do I still long for the father/daughter moments my friends have always had and still continue to have?? Why do I miss something I never really had?? The hurt and anger that go along with just those questions is almost unbearable, but you know what hurts the most? The part that hurts the most is growing up your entire life...
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It all started out on that August day way back three years ago. I fell in love with your blue eyes and well back then short blonde hair. It wasnt til later I started talking to you about four months later. We clicked better then two attracted magnets. I instantly fell in love with the way your smile made your upper lip curl in and your smile was more tall then wide which just made it so cute. We instantly knew something was between us but the 100 miles that separated us kept us apart due to the young age of 12. I know I was young but I thought you were the one. Over the course of a couple months we became close talking about how we would date and all this romantic stuff. Then... we stopped talking for around 6 months due to you being grounded for getting in a fight. After six months...
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We met at the fragile age of 16. I remember our first conversation like it was yesterday. You were like every other boy, but there was a glimpse of something great in you I couldn't help but want to know. We started off rocky, which should of pulled me away from you to begin with. Yet, you always made your way back into my life. As we grew older my feelings got stronger. I remember when I knew for sure I was in love with you. Staring into your eyes at my Senior Prom singing a familiar song in your ear, I never thought anything could ever pull us apart. After I graduated, spending time together got less and less as did your feelings. I knew things were changing, but I couldn't let you go without a fight. After a little break up I moved closer to you thinking it would help our relationship...
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Dear, Panda-Wife   It wasn’t that long ago that I was frightened by the terrifying medical issues you were facing, it wasn’t that long ago where I felt I needed to do something about it to protect you from unnecessary pain and suffering. It wasn’t that long ago you were getting out of the bathroom, and I proposed to you right after you went potty. You were my best-friend so I knew you would appreciate the irony of my timing. It seems as if forever has gone and gone since that over cast cold day outside the court house while we had our families with us, on the day we said (our) "I do's) It wasn’t that long ago I had considered myself to be the most fortunate man in the world I had achieved all my aspirations, goals, and dreams. I was complete and my life was bliss. We had our up’s we...
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