Love Letters

MASAYA NGA BA AKO? Pero bakit hindi yata totoo? O baka pilit ko lang ipinaparamdam sa sarili ko, na masaya ako, na ayos lang ang lahat, kahit na hindi, ganon na ba talaga ako kagaling gumamit ng defense mechanism? Bakit di ako makaalis? Bakit di ako makawala? Pinipilit kong iwaksi ang kadena na nakatali sa akin pero hindi ko magawa, hindi ko kaya. Pagod na pagod na ko sa set up na to. Gusto kong maging malaya pero bakit pilit ipinagkakait sa akin? Di ako makahinga. Di ako makagalaw. Sugatan na ang sentro ng pagkatao ko. Walang pang-uri ang kayang magpaliwanag ng nararamdaman ko. Paulit ulit na naglalaro sa isipan ko ang mga salitang ito. Bakit ba ako nabubuhay sa nakaraan mo? Bakit pakiramdam ko ang lapit lapit niyo pa rin sa isa’t isa, kahit ako na ang nasa tabi mo? Bakit pakiramdam...
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The Madness of Being In-love Alone Generally, we want a fairy tale kind of love story. A princess with a prince, a kiss that can break the curse, the belief on love at first sight, and even the first love never dies. We want to love and be reciprocated with love. We enjoy the feeling of loving someone and be loved by someone but what if your kind of love is like mine? One sided. Five years ago, I felt what love is. The feeling of love is ecstatic. The spark is real. She completes my day with just her existence. I appreciate every piece of her. Her hair, eyes, smile, and voice are perfect. The way she walk and talk is so classy. I can and cannot do things in front of her. I am inspired and motivated until she broke me. I love you but you cannot love me back. You said, you don't...
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Years ago, I started liking how you project yourself in front of the crowd with class and eloquence. Your grace sets you apart from the tradition of what teachers look like. Every day was a moment to look forward to. Generally, I do well in school but my class with you was different. I came to value compliments for having the highest score or reading my name in a certificate. Months passed and I get to know you. Our small talks under the mango tree made me felt something else. Your philosophy in life especially as an educator amazed me. I realized that you’re not just the hard to find beauty and brain. You also have a heart, a fragile heart that no one dares to see. You are the kind of woman who knows what she wants and how to do it, immediately. Your advocacy as an educator was one of a...
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Pete, Your face flashes through my mind. Your eyes, your smile, the way you looked at me…these thoughts won’t go away. Then come the feelings. Feelings of hope, love, excitement. Abruptly the feelings dissipate and are replaced with sadness, grief, and an awful dull burning persists in the pit of my stomach…knowing I was wrong and wishing I knew then what I understand now. The days pass by, but the thoughts and feelings are so poignant, it’s as if it was just yesterday. I understand now, I see. You were the first man who truly loved me, and I didn’t see it…I didn’t understand, because I didn’t know what love was. I screwed it up, I screwed everything up. I thought you were like the rest, that you only wanted me for one thing. I was wrong. You did love me, and now that I know...
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April 12, 2017 Dear Brett, Rumor has it that you’re single. And looking. Hard. Coincidentally, I am also single…but I’m not looking. However, the stars seemed to align in such a way that compelled me to write you anyway, because, hey, you’re Brett Eldredge. See, when “I Wanna Be That Song” started playing regularly on my local country station a few months ago (shout out to @SeattleWolf), I was intrigued. After a few listens I found myself hoping it would play every time I got in the car, because, damn, your voice is a rugged kind of sexy. Especially in that song. Talk about making a woman swoon. It was then that I learned the name Brett Eldredge. Turns out you had other songs on the radio that I had also always liked, but, I’ll be honest, it wasn’t until “I Wanna Be That Song”...
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Dear the guy i am not giving up on, Everyday people give up on the ones they care about. They give up on them for different reasons like they can't get through to them, they can't get the person to open up. Those people don't give it enough time. You can't expect someone to spill their whole life and past out to you in one night. They've had a troubled past and they hate talking about it, so how exactly do you get through to them? Time, give them time and a lot of it and don't ever give up on them. I'm never giving up on you. No matter how long it takes to show you that I am never leaving your side. I told you I would always be there for you and I mean it. No matter how hard your life gets I will always be here. I don't expect you to tell me everything about your past...
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To the first boy I have loved... I never expected us to ever get together. You came back into my life after 6 years and I instantly knew that something good would come from it. You have changed my life in these past few months; you've challenged me in all the best ways, removed me from my comfort zone and introduced me to your world of color. You truly are the best thing that has happened to me in six years. You went from being my goofy friend, to being this boy that consumes my thoughts. For the first time in my life, I was afraid to fall in love - but you made it so easy for me. You have been nothing but genuine. I love how you try everyday to convince me that not every man is like my father; and that your intentions are pure. It must be because you are going through...
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I believe that there are very few people in the world who get to meet their dream partner. The one who has it all: the beautiful body (of course) but, more importantly, the most beautiful soul, the most beautiful heart, and the most beautiful mind. It’s only fair that everybody should be blessed enough to find that person. The one who makes everything seem possible. The one who makes you feel like anything can be achieved. The individual who brings sunlight to the most difficult and darkest times of your life (well, apart from this moment). Yes, we’ll call them The One. For once in my life, I got lucky. I found my One. The issue is that I achieved the dream; I met that person… But, she didn’t. That’s the real problem. After all, if I met my dream partner, shouldn’t she be afforded the...
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For some unknown reason, I was always drawn to tragic tales of forbidden love. Star-crossed lovers who were destined to meet but aren't meant for each other. Little did I know, I would feel the same way the couples I have read about long ago felt. Love that was frowned upon. Love that was not supposed to happen. Love that might not be returned. I am writing this now because you have been bothering my heart and mind for two semesters now. Who knew that I, a girl who's standards are based on fictional men mostly created by Nicholas Sparks, would fall for someone like you. A man who many disliked. A man who could greatly affect my studies with just one move. A man who so many students and colleagues misunderstood. Sir, at first I didn't like you. I was so scared when you first walked...
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I don't know how to start this without sounding extremely cliché *insert eye roll*. For starters, I have been extremely blessed to have found my "person". I would always here others talk about how finding your "person" is so important and never quite understood what they meant, till it happened. Till this day, I am amazed. I am amazed because he has not given up on me, instead he pushes me to be the best version of myself that I can possibly be. It feels like I am honestly living in one of those love stories and I couldn't be happier. To have found someone who loves you endlessly and so passionately is one of the best feelings in the world. So, thank you. Thank you for changing my life into a life that I wouldn't trade for the world. Thank you for being so understanding when...
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