I know you need to hear my side of the story...
Paano ko ba sasabihin?
I know you'll definitely get mad.
Nagalit ka na nga eh.
Pero, please promise me you won't go.
Ok the truth is, I'm not a saint ok?
I may have done something na ayaw mo, but I had a reason.
Last time I didn't have any.
So I guess you'll definitely get mad.
It's ok, if you get mad.
But please don't leave.
I know you won't understand.
And that's completely understandable.
Coz you're not me.
And no matter how much you try to be on my shoes, there are things you can't comprehend that I do.
As a child I developed the feeling of hating to do bad things.
Being me, that was kind of a perfectionist, I don't like hurting people or knowing that I hurt them.
That's why kahit nakasakit ako and I feel...
Love Letters
A lot of times I cannot help but still think of what we have before. I knew within myself that those were for real. But as time passed we slipped what we had for each other, and somehow there something inside me that felt a regret, that if I have had waited a little longer, we might have been with each other’s arm right now. It is funny how life brought us together, those happy moments that we shared were never forgotten, I still remember I had the feeling of happiness, each time you message me or when I see you. But we had this special bond that you and me share, bickering is what we always do. I haven’t thought about it, but a lot of times in the past, you actually treated me specially.In my heart, it gave me an excitement but in mu mind, I knew you would never like me as me. I would be...
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When the world was stumbled upon its existence, He knew would create fire. His breathe moved upon the waters and shook them to behave. And out of this very fire i believe you were created. You were created out of the first fire and to be very seriously reckoned with. You are something out of a myth, a finite being, a storm brewing, a terrible awakening, and a deep beautiful force. There is no end to the warmth you can create and with that same fire leave scars that will forever remain visible. You are powerful and magnificent. But the same fire that can warm your home can burn entire cities to the ground.
When i made love to you, i felt the world shift. I heard the ocean and the night. I felt your pain and your past. I felt you. It was an act of adoration,a complete ritual of time...
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Dear Best Friend,
Here's something you will never know: I am in love with you. It's not exactly the first time I've fallen in love, but it's still new. I thought I was used to this: I've fallen in love with too many fictional characters, straight/taken women and celebrities to say otherwise. I never expected I'd fall in love with you. You've been around me for four years, and you're one of my best friends. I would never even dream about inflicting myself upon you.
A wise word to those who may stumble upon this letter: Not all stories end happily. He and I are both moving to different corners of the continent and, although we may reunite in a few years, things between us will never work out. Why? Well, he doesn't love me.
As I've already mentioned, I should be used to this feeling of...
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Dearest Mr. Know It All,
First off, congratulations on your engagement! I am truly happy for you and i'm beyond glad that you finally found the girl of your dreams. There is something I need to tell you...
I know its been 5 years since you've been gone, might seem strange that i suddenly built my courage to speak to you. Every now and then I take a trip down memory lane especially to the times you were a huge part of my life. My favorite memory of us is the day we first met, Christmas'12. You were rehearsing with your band and i couldn't help but dreamily gaze at your every move. I'm so glad we met and you made the first move by speaking to my young and naive self. Our endless phone calls until dawn arguing about anything and everything is the...
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You are an awesome girl,probably one of the sweetest girls i have ever met,you have a very big heart.I know you are stuck in a situation on whom you should choose and you are very confused and don't curse yourself for that.Lots of people have this situation where they don't know what to do.I gotta say this in all the time i have known you,i have always felt really good when i talk to you,you make me smile,laugh.We had really good moments together where we played pranks on each other.Even if you don't pick me I wont start hating me,i will always be there for you whenever you need my help,you were close to my heart and you will be close to my heart,I wish you a very good luck for your future and remember that you are awesome
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how to start this email?
how to start anywhere?
okay.
you didnt do anything wrong
you didnt do anything wrong
okay?
i found trouble
in a balance with you of
too soft and close
and
too hard and distant
but i am not
a scale
someone said
what i needed to hear
desperately
and i think i get it now
i keep saying that
i got it
this time
i got this
and i never do
have it
i tell you
go
and i cry
because im soft
im distant
because i am not
content with what i have
and i cant
push you
like
i push me
i know youre sledding
i know you wont respond
i think
im in pieces
and thats okay
its so strange
i revolve and make
gravity of different
things
and life is so
warped...
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Dear Ben,
My dearest. My love. My heart. My Ben.
What to say? How to say it? Will you even read it?
I’ve spent the last week knowing that I’m going about this all wrong. Knowing that my actions are pushing you away: but completely unable to stop myself for fear of losing my Ben.
I’ve spent the week in a sick panic. My heart racing; my body burning up; my stomach twisting; with a horrible taste in my mouth. And it’s because in every fibre of my body I know this isn’t how this is supposed to be.
But what’s worse is that you are adamant that it is.
You made the decision and have been full steam ahead ever since. Have you stopped to think about it properly? What is it that is making you so sure that this is the right way to go for you and I; us?
Why won’t you talk to me...
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Our meeting is just a normal one. A hi and hello is enough for our everday encounter. Until the day that we click and seems to have the same persona. Months passed and friendship was built. Never a dull moment, only laughters can be heard. Until the day we decided to open up to each other. The fun talk goes to a serious mode when we climb the hill. In its cold weather and cigar, we loosen up until we finally took out our burdens. It was nice to have someone who will not judge you after the story was told.
Days passed and we decided to face our poisons. It is such a bumpy road but we had each other as a support system. Weeks passed and everything went normal again. Fixinf our own poison and decided to move back to the life we once gave us heartaches. Never thought that this day will come...
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Dear online guy,
The day that I was on that dating app and saw your photo was the day a spell was cast. We began to text and I started to believe that something magical was about to happen.
The first night that you stood me up should have been it. However, hope springs eternal and I refused to let go. Deep inside though, I knew. I realized that something about your story was not adding up and you misrepresented yourself online. However, my fantasy of what could be was strong and I carried on.
That day that it happened again was so painful that it was hard to breathe. I felt so ashamed of myself for trusting when I knew the truth inside. Still didn't let go though...
Everyone can think that I am insane for not letting go. The fact is, you are a human being whose fingers are...
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