Love Letters

In life hundred percent happiness is not guaranteed and same goes for sadness but meeting you is a kind gesture from nature. The day I met you was the day life was ready to take my sorrow away and replace it with happiness. I never had this type of love we share, that’s why I’m always acting as if I’m an idiot. You can’t totally blame whether I act like an idiot because it’s your love that’s getting into my head. I don’t want to know if I go hungry but I’ll rather see you eating your fav meal than me eating mine. I’m a man, full of mistakes and emotional cripple most times, I need you to always see the best in me rather than judge me with my mistakes. One thing happens to human nature, when you have been doing all you could for someone and did not do just one thing right, people tend...

An open letter to the man that stopped to render aid after I wrecked my car. I hadn't hugged anyone in years. I don't like to be touched and I cringe and go stiff when people try to hug me. I don't have a significant other, I don't even date. I'm neither lonely or content. I just am. I'm alone. The nightmare has been haunting me for as long as I can remember. I'm very young, 3 maybe 4. I'm in the back seat of a car in the dead of night. It's completely pitch black outside and I'm all alone in the car. Suddenly, it starts driving all by itself. There's no one in the drivers seat. There's no one except me, in the car. I try to open the door to get out but I can't. They're all locked. There's no one to scream for, there's no one who would even care. The fear is unimaginable and I am...

Dear Peter, I often cursed the fact that I loved you so very much. Being in love with such a gentle, accessible soul was absolutely excruciating and I thought I would never recover from my feelings for you. Every time I looked at another man, your image would immediately replace their face and I would convince myself that we were meant to be together. Nevertheless, it took me three years to date again as I knew it wouldn’t even be a profitable replacement. You left a painful weight on my heart and I couldn’t even let you go because you were shining with perfection. I used to hate being so weak around you, so embarrassed that I adored someone who could never love me. I was furious that you always gave me a patient and graceful friendship, torturing me with kindness without meaning...

2010-2011 was the best year of my life na hindi ko inakala until this day... Best yun kasi andun ka. I feel sorry for my 2011 self today, dahil ngayon I regret so many things. Even though I know that I am a good friend, but I was a terrible person. I wasn't nice. I don't know why I was like that back then. But it is what it is, it already happened. That girl is done. Now, I am 29, palagi akong bumabalik sa nakaraan. Tas palagi kitang binabalikan. In 2015, nag start akong mag work sa starbucks, I worked with a guy that I thought was like you. He is also my sweet friend. Naalala kita. Sana pala, nung araw na naalala kita hinanap kita non, baka sakali maging mag kaibigan tayo ulit. Then, recently I was able to add you as a friend on Facebook, we had a small talk. Tas nalaman ko, nag...