Love Letters

It has been 3 months since the time I got aware of your existence. I was skeptic at first, but you opened up about your condition. For some reason, it didn't turn me off. It actually made me interested and drawn to you. I liked how open we were to each other, or at least I think we were. Whenever we didn't understand what the other has said, there were no hesitations to ask for clarification. These past few days, however, I noticed something strange. Something that may have already happened to me in the past. I know you didn't want to talk about our past, but I think you should know where I'm coming from. I've been cheated on a couple of times in just a span of 2 years. Yes, same person. I know I was stupid enough to forgive that person over and over even when I knew what he was doing...

I need to know. I need to hear him tell me. At times he’s so close. Why can't he tell me how he feels? I know he's 1,171 miles away and I know I always said "amor de lejos amor de pendejos" (love from afar is love for idiots) but was I wrong. I’m so confused. It started off all platonic and I loved you instantly. He's told me numerous occasions he loves me and he's grateful for me which is how I knew he valued our friendship. His personality and his sense of humor fit so well with mine. We became such great friends in such a short amount of time. My love for him was platonic like you know when you tell someone you love them it’s because you love them as a human being. Just like you love your best friend, sibling, dog, parents, etc. Yeah, it was that love and it still is because he is such...

I’ve never been that girl who has dreamed of slow kisses or the ideal romantic dates. I’ve never went out of my way to talk to a guy at a bar or even smiled at a guy from across the room. Sure, I have been on a date. I’ve been stood up more times than I’d like to admit. I’ve been disrespected and mistreated by a guy. I’m a little too familiar with the experience of a guy ignoring the word “no,” instead favoring his own ideas of a “good time.” I’m in my early twenties and I had never been in a real relationship. By all means, I’d given up hope that I could qualify for any kind of normalcy in my life. I’d figured that since I (really) love cats, I would end up as your stereotypical crazy cat lady. Single my whole life, spending eternity in pajamas with curlers in my hair, a house that...

I never expected to fall in love with you, at the time I thought my heart belonged to someone else. You made me realize that it didn’t. While we went about getting together all the wrong ways, it got me to you. To the man that cried on our first date while I laughed uncontrollably because I thought it was cute. I never told you this but I knew in that moment you were going to be a big part of my life. You wanted to love my kids like they were your own and you do even now that we’re not together. To the man my family loved at first because they saw how happy I was. I remember exactly what changed, a misunderstanding that I informed them otherwise but didn’t matter. Our relationship changed after that. It became more complicated, and we parted ways. Six months had passed, and...