Family

You probably think that how you treated me was okay, that raising a child in a suffoacting house devoid of real affection was normal. That hiding me when the missionaries came to our house and treating me like a dog around our family was funny. I'm here to tell you it's not, I remember you locking me outside for contradicting your lies, I remember puking up my food for years because I was never "pretty". You were ashamed of me and slowly, I was too. I don't know why you are the way you are but you have left your mark on me, I'm depressed and anxious. I can't eat a full meal without wanting to send it down the pipes. But you know what I'm not? A victim. I'm an Honors student and a varsity track sprinter. I have people that love me, can you say the same...
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Dad. You don't understand. My throat closes up, and I feel like I can't breathe. My heart races, I can't go in there, I'm having another attack, can you please go in instead. "No." You don't care, I know. I'm acting stupid. Sir your daughter is in a bathroom stall forcing herself to throw up, can you come get her from school? Fine. "Are you stupid? You made me miss work for this? Get in the fucking car. " 13 years old , and I ask what I've done wrong to upset you and you reply, "you were born." Screaming and arguing, constant insults and directed anger. Chokehold me against the wall some more. Please? You might as well. I go to school with bruises on my forearm and wrists from where you previously had grip so tight that I had to kick and squirm just to get away, "what's wrong"...
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Sorry I can't write perfectly. Dear Family, I have been longing to tell you a lot of things about my current state right now. I know that you're not happy to see me this way and felt like you've done everything for me. I'd like to let you know that I appreciate everything you did and that I am also disappointed with my life. I've been longing to tell you that I've tried to keep a job, but failure is inevitable for me. I hate it when I fail and I love to tell you my small stories of success. Sometimes I get a reaction from you when you hear it. I often don't. I've been longing to tell you about the lies that I've made up to cover this extreme feelings of sadness and abandonment. I'm sorry if I'm too quiet and I sleep a lot. I just don't know this state I'm in and how to...
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There is this person standing far away from you. A person to whom your happiness matters the most. Someone who gives you everything you need in life and much more than that. You can never thank him enough. Yes Papa, You, I wanted to thank you. I've had a list of things and actions I'd like to thank for. Apparently, word limit and emotions hold me back. Papa, you're so strong. You've always been an inspiration. I can bear anything and everything but I can't see you fall. You are the only selfless person I've ever known in my life. You've worked for around 27 years. I bet you've had your ups and downs. My mind just wonders at one thing about what can break you down? Papa, I still remember the day I broke down. Everything around seemed useless, I didn't want to continue anything at all,...
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Firstly I want to thank you for raising my amazing fiancé! Thank you for raising him to have manners, emotions, courage, and to treat people with the respect you'd want. Thank you for raising the man of my dreams. With that being said I think it's time I address the bond you and he have. I truly admire the close connection you and he have. He is your baby, and your only son. But he is not a child tho you treat him as such. He is a grown man who needs to make his own live choices and shouldn't have to worry about how his actions and choices will make you feel. His world is growing and should include more than just you. I understand that sounds harsh but it's coming from a fiancé who is sick of her relationship revolving around you. Do you realize he puts you above anything and anyone...
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As I sit in the wake of another failed relationship, I cannot help but reflect on how your choices affected my development. I trust no one, expect to be let down, and have little to no self esteem. I see you... for who you are. Your actions taught me that being myself wasn't enough. I had to prove myself worthy for your time and affection. You were the first man I ever knew, ever loved. Your job was to love me unconditionally, to make me feel like the centre of the universe, to teach me that I was enough, I was worthy, I was special. You failed. Miserably. You chose yourself, women, booze and weed over giving me consistency, love, security and safety. You taught me to beg for affection, to wait til you had time for me, to accept less than the best. You made your love conditional: I...
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An open letter to my boys. To my eldest. You were my firstborn, the first time I experienced true love and the first time I felt real fear. I loved you from the moment I found out I was carrying you, and When I pushed you into this world that love multiplied to an amount I could never had imagined before. I swore to love you unconditionally, to give you the world and to never let any body hurt you. I'd like to be able to say I've kept those promises but you and I both know I've failed on the latter two. I do however love you unconditionally , I hope you see that. I was young when I had you, naive, and definitely immature. You helped me grow in ways I didn't know were possible. You challenged me and pushed me and highlighted my limits, you also taught me there was no limit to a...
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Dear BM, You have hurt my daughter so many times, from using her as a pawn, to letting terrible people into her life, to abandoning her. You constantly run your mouth about me, but you have no right! I've been loving your daughter since she was 2 years old and the sad thing is I've been involved in her life longer than you have now. I wanted to tell you, YOU are missing out. You thought when you had to take care of her you were missing out on partying so you pawned her off on your parents refusing to give us rights, but you were wrong. You are missing out now, on all the amazing things that MY daughter is. And I'm sad for her, I'm sad that she wishes you wanted her. I'm sad that she cries and asks why you don't like her. I'm sad that no matter how shitty of a person you are toward her...
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There's no words that can describe how fortunate I am to be your daughter. You raised and took care of me like a princess. You did everything for me, that you washed even my stained underwear because I didn't know how to do it on my own and you continuously doing it since then. How you spoiled me because I grew up not knowing how to iron and wash clothes. Even when you're sick, you still get up and do all those things and you will just instruct me to do the things that you know I can. When I told you i want to explore more things and work abroad, you were the first one who encourage me. You respected and supported my decision and that was the first time that Ill be away from home. That I need to stand on my own and be responsible enough to take care of myself. And I thank you for giving...
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Bheero, 2 years ago. 7:57 pm. Emergency C-Section after hours and hours of hard labor and even harder pregnancy. Bheero, you’ve been giving me hell since before you were even born, and I wouldn’t change you for anything. You came into my life like Master Shifu and unleashed the powers in me,the strength to grow you up the strength to be your Mumma. The last two years has been an amazing journey for us. From staying alone without papa to be a papas boy as soon as you were back living with Papa. I still remember your mouse like sneek as soon as you were born! Havent seen your papa so restless before,Honey Mumma was so excited that she clicked you the very first moment she saw you. You made Dida travel all alone for the first time and Dadu he flew down from office as he couldn’t hold back...
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