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My son, with his gorgeous shroud of copper hair, a smile of an angel and a heart of gold. He makes the best cup of coffee i've ever tasted (bar from costa coffee). He lights up a room. He is also a genius.... not Mensa genius but getting there. He came top of his class in his recent exams, and uses words that you have to get a Thesaurus out to understand what they mean. He challenges himself and isn't happy with second place. My son, is also living with Tourettes Syndrome. Most of the time he just gets on with his life the best he can, never letting anything get in his way. His Tourettes was always mild, little motor and vocal tics until recently. Over night, he developed Corporalia (swearing), this was always my biggest fear ever since he was diagnosed at the age of 6. many nights were...
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Dear Cancer, I guess "dear" really isn't even appropriate considering all of the damage you cause people. I've heard about you my whole life, but never really gave you a second thought, until that cold day in December. When you came into my life, you chose to attach yourself to one of the most important people in my life. Around Christmas 2016, we found out my grandma had bladder cancer. I'll never forget all the anger and confusion you made me feel in the moment when the doctor said your name. I'll never forget how scared my grandmas eyes looked and how that made me scared, too. In the weeks following, we set a plan. A plan to take you out of our life, send you back to the dark hole you so rightfully belong in. When my grandma started her treatment, the number one rule I had for...
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First of all I just want to thank you for bringing my child into my life. Without you my child wouldn't even exist. Here are some things I wish that you could understand about your child. Our child is special ..special needs is just a label.. Day to day dealing with the constant tantrums and the really bad meltdowns that sometimes get violent while you do not have to do anything is really starting to get to me..I love our child..our child was given to US for a reason..their special needs do not make them harder to love or a burden..Being a child of divorce or a broken home is bad enough but when your child has autism it can be so much worse..Autistic children need routine they need to feel safe and secure and need things reoccurring and as scheduled as possible..When they are used to...
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Dear Ethan, As I look at your baby photos I can't help but think how did we get here? How is it possible that you're now 10 years old. How did 10 years pass so dang fast? I have fully enjoyed this beautiful adventure as your mother. I have loved guiding you through life and being able to love and encourage you along the way. I know you are not perfect but in my eyes your so amazing! From the moment I held you and looked into your eyes I knew this life would be full of adventures. I admire your imagination and creative mind. You have always been such a smart little boy. You have a love for animals that is so sweet and kind. I am so proud that you have chosen to follow God and I am grateful he chose you to be my first born! I fear how fast these next 10 years will go by so fast but...
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I have always given you the opportunity to see her as much or as little as you would like, from the very beginning. YOU have chosen to play some fucked up game of manipulation with my sick child and its deplorable. Its not up to me when you decide to see her, contact me about seeing her, or about anything else for that matter. I cannot make you be a good person, nor do I have to hold your hand and teach you how to be parents. She is a smart kid, no thanks to you, and she sees right though your shit. You are right, you don't know if I want you to contact me. Obviously after what you two did, I would happy if I never saw your faces again. But no worries, I will be the grown-up and DEAL with you because it is what is in the best interest of my child. Whatever you are trying to do, it...
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When you're younger all you know is what your parents tell you. And that's okay. But then you grow up and your start looking at things in a different perspective, your own. As I was growing up I knew exactly what would happen to me. I'd graduate high school, go to college (10 minutes from the house bc that is as far as I was allowed to go), and then get married. When I was 19/20 that was all I wanted. But that's bc I didn't know what I wanted to do with school and I knew the only way out was through marriage. But everyone that ask for my hand in marriage wasn't right for me. To be honest I was way out of their league. And this is why they thought they could have me 1) I don't speak Arabic 2) I know nothing about the religion/culture 3) I don't come from a wealthy family 5) they knew no...
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Before I say anything, I just want to say that I love you so much. I can't live or imagine my life without you. We met when we were little and we are still here, together. We are now seniors in high school. Soon we will be going out and living in the real world. The future holds many uncertain things, but the one thing that I know for sure is that we will always be best friends. I think that one of the things that attracted to each other was that we were both outsiders. I have never been the popular one and I have never had a lot of friends. We are both very weird, half the time when people see us together, they wonder how two people like us exist. That's why I love being with you. You accept me for who I am and is not afraid to tell me when I am wrong and to put me in my place. We...
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So i as going to start this letter off by say something completely ignorant .. but I'm better than that so we will start with something else. Sunday, January 12th 1975 ... you gave birth to a little redheaded girl.. No other children yet, but I believe a few miscarriages before this baby girl...one would think two parents would be ecstatic... I never could sit back and really put much thought into it, I'm guessing because I was young, and didn't have children of my own yet.. But now at the age of 42, I have raised the most beautiful, kind hearted, perfect soul that I could ever have dreamed of having the honour of parenting. As we get ready for her to go off to University in August, I see her dad and I struggling tremendously, with the thought of not having our baby girl around all...
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To my Birth Parents: Hi. I have no idea how to address you properly. You are just strangers to me after all, just some people I've only ever heard about in stories. This letter started out in resentment, anger, frustration, but then I took a look at my life and I realized I can't be angry at you because you gave me away, and for that I thank you. This letter is for you, my family, and for me as well. I'm writing this letter now out of thanks and maybe hoping one day you will understand why I never want to meet you. I hope you understand. Almost 20 years ago you changed my entire life. You gave me away, and I'm hoping, on that day that you knew you were giving me away to the most caring and strong people. That day not only changed my life but many others. I got the future I knew I...
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"Mom", Giving birth makes a woman a mother. But it doesn't mean she is a real mother. What did you do when I was born? Were you happy? Did you care? Why didn't you show me love? I don't remember you saying "I love you". I don't remember you ever being proud of me. I don't even remember hugs. But I guess when you're treated like dirt and emotionally neglected for over half your life, you tend to forget anything good that ever happened. Why didn't you leave? You've used the excuse of being afraid he would take us or you said that you stayed because of us. So...you stayed so we could be abused even more? Sorry. That makes no sense at all. Why weren't you there for me? Yes, you were physically in my life but you weren't THERE for me. Remember when I won that award in high...
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