You Bastard!

To the boy who gave up on me, I know at times I was mean and cruel to you. I had days where I wasn't feeling okay and when I needed you, I wasn't able to communicate it correctly to you and I'd feel even worse than before. I would get angry or annoyed and you were able to handle it for a while, but then you met her. When I communicated to you that I felt uneasy with you befriending her, you took it as me being controlling and as me eventually being "the worst person you ever met," but what you didn't understand was that your attention was going to someone new. You'd always deny any sort of feelings that I suspected you had for her, but I knew you took a liking to her because instead of saying, "baby, you have nothing to worry about, I love you," you said "I didn't know we had run our...
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To the boy who gave up on me, I know at times I was mean and cruel to you. I had days where I wasn't feeling okay and when I needed you, I wasn't able to communicate it correctly to you and I'd feel even worse than before. I would get angry or annoyed and you were able to handle it for a while, but then you met her. When I communicated to you that I felt uneasy with you befriending her, you took it as me being controlling and as me eventually being "the worst person you ever met," but what you didn't understand was that your attention was going to someone new. You'd always deny any sort of feelings that I suspected you had for her, but I knew you took a liking to her because instead of saying, "baby, you have nothing to worry about, I love you," you said "I didn't know we had run our...
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Let me start this by saying that in no way, shape or form would I expect my high school experience to be like what happened. I've never had trouble making friends, and I've never really been disliked. But, freshmen year, I guess that changed. My intention for this letter is for it to be a slap in the face for you, to cause you a little pain for all the suffering you caused me, but ironically, this is also a thank you. Freshmen year, I entered a new school, knowing few people. I remember crying to my best friend who lived in another town that summer. I was terrified that I wouldn't make friends, people would hate me and I would be miserable. But I knew in my heart at least I had you. Well, I guess I was wrong. We were friendly going into this school year. We had a bit of a rough patch the...
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I was so strong before you, I was so independent before you, I was so happy before you, I was so me before you. I should have seen the signs earlier on, but i was young and i wanted something so bad, that something i still have no idea to what it is. We were happy some of the time but looking back at it now the happy times sure don't outweigh the bad/sad times. Why we got married I will truly never know, I can not get my head around it as to why i went a head and planned a bloody wedding when you had never actually got down on one knee and proposed to me.. Why was you just handing me a ring enough? Because i loved you, more than my own life it's self.. Yes we had ups and downs but we both worked some dam long hours, well i fort you did... For so many years you told me i was...
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Hello. I want to start off by telling you, I wish you well. I don't know if you will ever see this, or even know that it is meant for you. I just want you to know a few things about me, about the person that I have become. You broke me. I want you to know that I have nightmares so bad that my partner has to hold me as I scream and cry because I remember those things that happened. I want you to know that every single time I go to a bathroom I need to lock the door out of fear and if there isn't a lock, I wait. I want you to know that every single time I see those abandoned train tracks I squeeze my eyes closed because the flashbacks are so bad that I can't bare to look there. I want you to know that I cried for 3 days when I found out that your girlfriend was pregnant for...
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Hello. I want to start off by telling you, I wish you well. I don't know if you will ever see this, or even know that it is meant for you. I just want you to know a few things about me, about the person that I have become. You broke me. I want you to know that I have nightmares so bad that my partner has to hold me as I scream and cry because I remember those things that happened. I want you to know that every single time I go to a bathroom I need to lock the door out of fear and if there isn't a lock, I wait. I want you to know that every single time I see those abandoned train tracks I squeeze my eyes closed because the flashbacks are so bad that I can't bare to look there. I want you to know that I cried for 3 days when I found out that your girlfriend was pregnant for...
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I sit back in disbelief asking myself how? How could my 1st love who I thought at the time was perfect, Caring, grown, responsible,...
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Mr Yiannopoulos, While we don’t know each other personally, we do share at least one historical experience that will affect each of our lives forever. Like you, I was sexually assaulted by a Catholic Priest, close to the same age you say that you were. I was 14 years old and sought support and help from a Fr. Michael at a local church. As the oldest child in a very abusive home there were no positive male role models in my life— my father was physically and emotionally abusive As you characterized during a recent press conference, I too didn’t realize that what had happened was as wrong and damaging as it turned to be until much later in life. Not until 2009 was I able to concisely recall the true scope and details of what happened to me. I’d been trying to figure out why I was...
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Dear Reader, Now if you are the reader I wish to speak to, then you have a very specific outlook on life and how you feel things and activities should be gone about. Concepts, that people easily relate and respond to may become social norms, and they in turn become an instruction booklet to some in a sense, a foundation to build judgement and expectations on. If you are who I expect you to be, you should mostly align with this, for it will impact your day to day decisions and mannerisms. I say this for I am exactly as I have described, but after reading the novel Women in White, I have done much self-reflecting upon my day to day life. For example, I’m a big person when it comes to first impressions. They affect the way I view anything. I still go back to my impressions of...
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I haven't decided if I am going to send this email yet but if you're reading it, it's because I have given in to my compulsion to say exactly what I'm thinking and I know how much you like that about me... It's been eleven weeks since I got back from New York, four weeks since my abortion and only four weeks since you sent me a message telling me that you still love and miss me. More importantly though... It has been just a few days since you took your wedding ring off under the table in Gullivers hoping I hadn't noticed it. Silly really, isn't it? When you'd clearly put it back on to make a statement in the first place. Except you'll tell yourself you put it on, not to make statement, but because you're a good married man now who is making the right choices and behaving the way a...
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