Not long ago you said you’d love me forever
You said in fifty years we’ll still be together
“I need you”, you said
Telling me in not such a long time you’d be dead
But it was all a lie
You were never going to die
Took my heart in the palm of your hands
Said you’d look after it, said you would keep it
The only thing you kept was me and you kept me a secret
Should’ve known then, but love is blind
Thought you were the best person ever; so sweet & so kind
“It’s terminal” you said, you don’t know how long you’ll last
It’s in your lungs, it’s in your brain, it’s spreading so fast
All the phone calls and crying in the middle of the night
All the times you said you’re not giving up and that you would fight
All the things you said and all of them were lies
Sometimes I look back and think would it have been easier if you had actually died?
I would still feel broken, I would still feel a mess
I’d still think about you and get that hurt in my chest
I love you so much but I wish you were dead
