Love Letters

Dear C, I won't ever forget the day I gave you that hickey. We had music playing in the back, my bedsheets were flying off the mattress and your heart was completely and utterly beating out of your chest. That was a moment for me, a moment that just made me want to kiss you. How could I ruin my friendship with you like that, though? The only reason you wanted the hickey was to show off to the guy you liked. It had nothing to do with me, but it broke my heart once more. I've never been the best at love and you know this. I always hurt people. I finally figured out why I do this. My first love was you, Cheyann. I was completely and utterly falling in love with you. You broke my heart and maybe it was for the best, but after that day I couldn't seem to let my guard down to potential...
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Hi My Love, As with all the letters I have written before, I don't know where to start. Andami ko nang sulat na naisulat para sayo... yung mga sulat noon na walang sagot na bumalik sa akin
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Lately, christmas tunes are always around... and you always come to mind, my habitual christmas wish. Christmas tunes, sad sad songs, dance songs, love songs, flirty songs, even disney songs...reminds me of you and makes me wish for you. I knew you've been nearby for a while now, I knew you were there, I knew you are just a call away. However, I chose to sit still..to let you be..to stay mum..to let you go. It was not long ago when I vowed to avoid you, blocked you on facebook, deleted previous conversations, decided not to look into your profile. I was doing well...FOR A WHILE, or so I thought. Fate (or whatever you call it) is really playful, I was doing well..why does it have to tease me?! Why do you have to be nearby? Why do you have to be here? Why did you move so near...
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Its just another one of those nights since you left me, I am still confused as to how I feel about you. Its funny, the other day I was thinking about all the things you can tell people thats bad about me but when I thought about what I could say about you I was surprised I couldn't think of one thing, I don't know what that means and I honestly don't wanna explore it (too sad). I know you are probably doing great without me your very strong, but I miss you. Its crazy how even today it feels as if you broke up with me yesterday. I think a lot about us I miss your smile, your voice, your smell, your laugh, your everything I hate how cheesy I may sound but its true, I realize a lot of the problems were my fault but then again I don't know. I thought disappearing for a while would be good but...
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You said something today which I didn’t expect, or feel was fair. I haven’t fancied or slept with anyone who has rented my spare room in all the years I’ve rented it out; about 7 years off and on. That does not mean that men haven’t tried it on with me, they have! And whilst we are on the subject I haven’t slept with anyone at all in the last 18 months. Business is business and sex and love are something else. If you made that comment based on the fact I once said you could stay here then your comment has some validity. When I said you could stay here it was because I had feelings for you. You know I am in love with you, and I know you don’t feel the same way about me, and I have to accept that over and over again. I have so much goodwill and compassion in my heart for you, I’m...
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It has been 3 months since the time I got aware of your existence. I was skeptic at first, but you opened up about your condition. For some reason, it didn't turn me off. It actually made me interested and drawn to you. I liked how open we were to each other, or at least I think we were. Whenever we didn't understand what the other has said, there were no hesitations to ask for clarification. These past few days, however, I noticed something strange. Something that may have already happened to me in the past. I know you didn't want to talk about our past, but I think you should know where I'm coming from. I've been cheated on a couple of times in just a span of 2 years. Yes, same person. I know I was stupid enough to forgive that person over and over even when I knew what he was doing...
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I want to be in love with someone who is completely utterly pathetically in love with me as well. So in love it inspires everyone. So in love that they don’t know how they lived this long without me. A love that makes romantic movies relatable but still doesn’t demonstrate how much a person can love another. I have so much love to give and I just want someone to match it with me. I watch all these shows and movies and I always see how love is depicted. It makes me think if that’s how it’s supposed to be. I know it’s not supposed to be perfect but it’s supposed to be worth the little obstacles and tough times may come up. But love never fails. Love doesn’t hurt, it isn’t supposed to hurt. Love is a great ass feeling and I can’t wait to feel that because all I’ve been feeling is...
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I need to know. I need to hear him tell me. At times he’s so close. Why can't he tell me how he feels? I know he's 1,171 miles away and I know I always said "amor de lejos amor de pendejos" (love from afar is love for idiots) but was I wrong. I’m so confused. It started off all platonic and I loved you instantly. He's told me numerous occasions he loves me and he's grateful for me which is how I knew he valued our friendship. His personality and his sense of humor fit so well with mine. We became such great friends in such a short amount of time. My love for him was platonic like you know when you tell someone you love them it’s because you love them as a human being. Just like you love your best friend, sibling, dog, parents, etc. Yeah, it was that love and it still is because he is such...
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I see you. I watch you with our children and I see how much you love them. I see the way they love you in return. Your love is un-conditional and beautiful and I am in awe of you. I have felt your love, in your kiss, your touch, and the things you do. I see you... I see you. When no-one is watching I see your pain. I see it in your eyes I hear it in your laugh when you say "oh its nothing" but it's not nothing. I know just the slight bits of the things you have shared. I know there's more, much more, more than you think I can bear. Yet you bear it...you bear it in silence. Many who suffered as you have expressed feeling worthless or wondering how someone could love them...and act out in self destructive ways not even knowing why. I see you I see you Past my own pain at the...
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I’ve never been that girl who has dreamed of slow kisses or the ideal romantic dates. I’ve never went out of my way to talk to a guy at a bar or even smiled at a guy from across the room. Sure, I have been on a date. I’ve been stood up more times than I’d like to admit. I’ve been disrespected and mistreated by a guy. I’m a little too familiar with the experience of a guy ignoring the word “no,” instead favoring his own ideas of a “good time.” I’m in my early twenties and I had never been in a real relationship. By all means, I’d given up hope that I could qualify for any kind of normalcy in my life. I’d figured that since I (really) love cats, I would end up as your stereotypical crazy cat lady. Single my whole life, spending eternity in pajamas with curlers in my hair, a house that...
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