I know we aren't on good terms, we haven't been in a long time. But if by some chance you read this, just know this is coming from the heart.
I don't regret meeting you, the only thing I regret is being naïve. You picked me up when I was down, and you were the first man to ever do that. I over analyzed the entire 'whatever' we had.
I would be lying if I said I didn't fall in love with you. I was so in love with you, and it took me a long time to fall out of love. I know you didn't mean to hurt me when you told me that I wouldn't be able to satisfy you, but for awhile, I felt like I was never going to be good enough for anyone.
But as of now, I'm over you, I don't hate you. If you called me and needed help, I'd still be there for you. You'll always be my first true love,...
Love Letters
Hi honey!
I wrote this letter for you because I don't have the courage to say this to you in person.
I know we've only known each other for a short time, but in that time you have made me happy.
I remember this "thing" with us started when you first accompanied me to the train station. Yes, I'm calling it a "thing" because we never really had the courage to confirm whatever this is to each other. Then we started texting each other sweet things and sharing our lives to each others. Then we just started calling each other endearments that only the two of us knows.
I'm old enough to know what we've been doing, but the thing is I don't know if you do. We both know that I'm five years older than you. And even though you said it doesn't matter, I still felt like it should matter...
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I know I never told you, but I loved you. I know you gave me no reason too, but that’s implying that love is reasonable. It’s not. I have learned that now after having endured your silences, absences, and illusions.
I don’t blame you. I understand that you were too busy to love me back, too full of hurt from the past. And I don’t mind.
But sometimes… When it’s late at night and I start thinking about the way you used to smile at me, I tear up. I loved you so wholeheartedly and pathetically that I wish I could regret it. But I don’t. Because you were worthy of my love. You taught me lessons I otherwise would have lived without and you gave me the time to heal while I figured that out.
You were the first boy I had ever met that didn’t want me for my body or its benefits. You...
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I have met you in the most unlikely places, a dating app called Tinder. It was a whirlwind romance; it was the kind of relationship that happened to two people from different walks of life.. Can you really find love in Tinder? Well, I’ve always believed in taking chances and so when we matched that opened a line for us to talk. You’ve always believed that we control our fate by the choices we make, while I always believed in letting things work for itself.. fate and destiny, and all that romantic idea about love. You’re a logical person and I’m the creative type, you’re rational, I’m emotional… The first day we talked, I asked for your birthday.. only to find out your zodiac sign and if we have a future. At first, I said, it’s never going to work out.. Just a force of habit that I’ve...
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Our time together was brief. It ended as quickly as we jumped in. There wasn’t much thinking; more spontaneous doings that happened so fast we didn’t pause – I didn’t pause – for consequences that we can now feel. I don’t regret the few months spent trying to love someone new though. I did try. I can promise that. You could have been my second love and I’m sorry it had to turn into a “could have been.”
I thank you in many ways even though you came to a point where you felt you had to give up on mending my heart any more. If we are being honest, we both could see that all along, it was an impossible task; but I thank you for trying as long as you did. One of the last things you said to me, that you were “so enamored by me” I can’t shake from my memory. From the beginning, until our...
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People always throw around the phrase, "I have the best girl in the world." They say it and don't mean it or just say it in the spur of a moment. When those words came out of my mouth or from my fingertips though, I was 100% sure every time throughout the 6 years I did have the best. For you, please mean it too when those words come out because love shouldn’t have room left for doubt.
Treat her like she's your one and only. She should be your one and only. Don't forget to hug and kiss her every time she walks in your door and every time she leaves. You can never show her too much love and affection.
Don't take anything you have or do with her for granted. If you ever lose it, you'll know why I say this. Make sure to comfort her even on those days that you need comfort. Put her...
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Dear C,
The last time we spoke, we were at a sushi bar. You ordered the Romeo and Juliet and I got the Rock n’ Roll. I believe you were wearing a teal t-shirt and blue jeans. I was wearing cargo shorts, white shirt and a sleeveless hoodie. You made a valid point when you asked me why on earth I would wear hoodie on a hot August afternoon. To this day, I still don’t have an answer for that. Anyways, before I leave for good, there is still one more thing I have to say:
I am sorry.
I am sorry for not being as supportive as I should have been. As your former boyfriend, I should have been at the frontlines, cheering you on as you ventured China. It isn’t every day that an American teen gets a full scholarship to Jiaxing for a summer program. Instead of asking you how you were, all I...
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Anyone who thinks that they 'know' you
Is damn fool
You're more complicated to understand
And as far away from us all
Than the tip of the universe
Maybe one day I'll find the long lost map
That will show you back to you
Until then I'll hold you real tight
Because I never know when I've lost the fight
I wont wash-up on your shoals
But I'll dig an unnamed grave if I have to
You're the treasure I need
Even if I have to bleed
Worlds End is human form
I wish for a lull before your storm
Other lovers, preachers and liars
Flames lick my skin from your fires
9 years we've weathered each other
We're torn and tattered
But all that's ever mattered
Is you holding me tight
Because you never know when you've lost the fight
I wont wash-up on your shoals
But I'll...
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I remember the day you walked away as though it were moments ago. I remember every single word that was spoken and I remember exactly the way the bile tasted in my mouth as I choked on the words. I remember the way the room smelled and the sky looked- how the sun shown with the brightest of rays and how fall was fast approaching, but the sounds of summer still whipped around me. I remember the sound of your voice when you said that every thing was ok and the sound of my phone when I received the email moments later that stated otherwise.
An email. I have yet to comprehend how that was the best way that you could say goodbye, but I guess our entire relationship was emails and blocked numbers so I should have never been surprised. Amongst all of these memories, what I remember most is...
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I knew eventually he would find you, and I knew eventually I would have to see him light up by someone else's smile.. But what you don't know is how happy I am that he's fount you..
You see, before you...there was me. I was the one who he fell in love with, who made him upset, and the one who use to make him happy. Did you catch that I said "use?" Well if you didn't, now you realize exactly what I said. It took me a while to grasp the concept that I wasn't no longer the one who he wanted, who made him happy... I was the one who was hurting him, but also he was hurting me.
When we met it was that "I feel like i've known you my whole life" feeling. Funnier part of that is the time we spent together felt like my whole life, because that's how much life he brought to me. Before him I...
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