Love Letters

It hasn't been a year yet, but we're slowly getting closer to it. Everything lately has been kinda hectic. I never thought that after everything I had been through, that it would ever get better. I spend a lot of time thinking about the things that have happened between us and what might happen in the future. It means a lot to me that you always try to contribute to anything that makes me happy. It also means a lot to me that no matter how many times we start to get attitudes, we can always fix things. It takes a lot to go back after an argument and I'm really glad that you always do. I can never tell you enough how much I appreciate you, I'm sorry that sometimes I'm not always the nicest person in the world.

I am writing this letter to one beautiful and amazing person in my life. To the one who never fails to make me smile. And even though we quarrel sometimes and have those little fights, we can never stay upset with one another. Because we're just that good. I want to take this opportunity to say how amazing you are. Smart, pretty, faithful, loving. You're not perfect, but you manage to look perfect to others, to me. They always tease how small you are, but whenever I see that, all I can think of is that your head will be close to my heart when I hug you. I wish I could. Just hold you in my arms and hug you. Take all that stress away. Take all those tears away. And take away all the pain you're still feeling up to this very day. You don't deserve to be hurt. You always tell me how...

MASAYA NGA BA AKO? Pero bakit hindi yata totoo? O baka pilit ko lang ipinaparamdam sa sarili ko, na masaya ako, na ayos lang ang lahat, kahit na hindi, ganon na ba talaga ako kagaling gumamit ng defense mechanism? Bakit di ako makaalis? Bakit di ako makawala? Pinipilit kong iwaksi ang kadena na nakatali sa akin pero hindi ko magawa, hindi ko kaya. Pagod na pagod na ko sa set up na to. Gusto kong maging malaya pero bakit pilit ipinagkakait sa akin? Di ako makahinga. Di ako makagalaw. Sugatan na ang sentro ng pagkatao ko. Walang pang-uri ang kayang magpaliwanag ng nararamdaman ko. Paulit ulit na naglalaro sa isipan ko ang mga salitang ito. Bakit ba ako nabubuhay sa nakaraan mo? Bakit pakiramdam ko ang lapit lapit niyo pa rin sa isa’t isa, kahit ako na ang nasa tabi mo? Bakit pakiramdam...

Years ago, I started liking how you project yourself in front of the crowd with class and eloquence. Your grace sets you apart from the tradition of what teachers look like. Every day was a moment to look forward to. Generally, I do well in school but my class with you was different. I came to value compliments for having the highest score or reading my name in a certificate. Months passed and I get to know you. Our small talks under the mango tree made me felt something else. Your philosophy in life especially as an educator amazed me. I realized that you’re not just the hard to find beauty and brain. You also have a heart, a fragile heart that no one dares to see. You are the kind of woman who knows what she wants and how to do it, immediately. Your advocacy as an educator was one of a...