My dearest grand child,
Beta, I may not be around when you will read and understand this letter, but I wish I glare your loving , moonlike, laughing face when you grow up.
Beta, when you grow up people around you may call you a girl ,pour loads of advice on you and keep restriction to do this thing and not to do that thing, may always try to make you aware that you are a girl. But you should always be aware that you are no less than anybody else and mainly so called PURUSH of this world. You can do anything you like ,anything and I mean that. One thing I would like to remind you that strength ,be it physical or mental, remains in the brain. And I am sure my child , my blood cannot be helpless ,agonized ,fearful before this PURUSH dominated society. Our father of Nation, Mahatma Gandhi...
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I still remember it clearly; the day you first opened your eyes as you sleep on this neatly laid fabric, and you, covered in a cream white linen to give you the warmth you sincerely deserved. I wasn't only staring for I was fascinated with the feeling of explicit ardor the moment our eyes finally met. This has been a euphoric moment any other soul would love to perceive. I couldn't help myself from caressing your innocent face; brushing down your perfectly rounded cheek, to nuzzling your adorably tiny nose. You are the perfect blessing, I thought to myself. This playful grin faded into a beam for I can't do anything but cry in joy and relief.
Days to months, turning to years-- numerous moments have passed but I still see you as an infant who knows nothing but to give me the delighted...
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Its five years now, a lot has happened, since I last seen you. I've won a regional championship, graduated high school, moved 8 hours away, made Dean's List in college with a 4.0, and I play college hockey. But I know you know all of this of course. You know there is a lot I wanted to learn from you, ask you, and experience with you. I know we weren't as close like some son and fathers are. I'll admit I blame myself for that, I could have called more, or could have even asked to come see you more. I find myself every single day since you have passed thinking about you. Whether it was a Tuesday class at night, or when I say my prayer right before I get on the ice. You are always on my mind. I know was a lot to handle as a child, and looking back I wish I wasn't. I've gone back to visit you...
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It was the day after my 6th birthday, my mom and dad looked so sad and I couldn't understand why.
They said we all had to talk as a family. That's when I found out my dad was leaving. That was 13 years ago. I as many others have had so much trouble coming to terms with the fact that my parents didn't love each other anymore, and that we would never be together as a family again. It's not something anyone should ever get used to... but more often than not that's exactly what has to happen. I was jealous of those families who were lucky enough to spend Christmas together or even just a meal together. I hated that I couldn't come home and just watch wrestling with my dad everyday.. I was a daddy's girl and the hardest thing for me to do was be apart from him.
I hated the trading back and...
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Dear John,
I haven't even gotten into an actual sentence and I'm already tearing up...
I just want to start off with, I would do anything to have you back in my life. Along with Papaw too. You and him were my only fatherly figures in my life that I really really looked up to and adored.
I think about you all the time and I always wonder what our lives would be like today if you were still here. Maybe we'd still have our movie Tuesdays, maybe we'd do our Super Man dives (even though I'm far too big now) or maybe we'd even do our flips. No one will ever know.
I remember that week so clearly like it was yesterday, but it was seven years ago. You were staying in Kentucky with Grandma Jenki and you had a good job. Now that I'm older, I also realized you got off whatever drugs...
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Dear... Dad or I guess "hey you",
I know we never actually knew I was your daughter until I was four, but you always told me deep down you did know. Why didn't you step up if you truly knew?
When we did the DNA test, I honestly was a scared little girl through it all. I only knew you from the parties my mom, uncle, and aunt always through in our trailer (I was indeed the party baby, surrounded by drunks), but I'd never met your family.. they were scary and unfamiliar. Soon, I came to like your family... and you.
The only problem was, were and are an alcoholic. You were always getting arrested for DUI's and your apartments were always being taken and all my toys, locked away in a storage cell the police had given you. All my cherished childhood toys and memories, gone. Never...
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I am my grandparents eldest grandchild. I know many do not know me, only know the repeat tellings of others, you do not have to like me, I'm not bothered. But I feel compelled to write to you about my grandpa and what he means to me.
My grandpa, the only father I have ever known, and with my grandmother raised me most of my life. He is a husband of 62 years to my grandmother.
62 years of marriage, how many people can say that, not many.
I have so many fond memories with my grandpa. Our fishing expeditions to the ponds, he taught me to fish, to sit still...
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I killed myself at the age of 35 and no one noticed.
It was not their fault, it was mine.
I moved far away, got married to a person who had mental issues and I tried to make him comfortable by cutting off my security.
I cried out for help and no one was there. I messaged my husband on hangouts and WhatsApp with no reply. I messaged my sister this morning and she did not respond. I called my parents and no one was home.
I drown in a pool and left my three-year-old son alone downstairs for hours before my husband noticed.
I slit my wrist in the bathroom while all the kids were sleeping.
I threw myself down the stairs.
I went out the front door and walked to the highway. I waited for a truck to get close enough and then jumped infant of it.
I took all the pills I...
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I knew when your dad and I first started seeing each other that things might get rough. Your parents had just recently divorced - a situation I had nothing to do with - and you and your sister were teenagers. While you were not necessarily hostile toward me, your sister, J, was. It was a situation that only worsened as the months went on and a mere ten days after our marriage, your father I were discussing all of this in a counselor's office. Over the years, I hoped that things would change, but they never did. You remained cool toward me and your sister cut herself out of her father's life. Nevertheless, I did appreciate that you always had a relationship with our twin sons, 'Rob' and 'Joe.' Even though there was a twenty-year gap between you and them, it was nice that you cared enough...
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Telling you directly how I feel isn't going to happen because I don't plan on seeing you again.
You have no idea how bad it hurts that my kids don't have an active grandmother in their life. They had a very loving and caring grandmother just a few years ago, but she is now in Heaven watching over them.
Do you think they don't notice how you are with Jaylyn and not them? They DO notice, just like everyone else does. Everyone turns their cheek to it, but I no longer will.
Do you even know what grade Amber and Carson are in? I'm sure you don't, because their name doesn't start with J.
You couldn't even pick up your phone to make a birthday phone call, THEY NOTICED. They are just used to it though, you honestly probably dont know when their birthday is.
Our dinner before...
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