So many people that I have told my situations to have turned me down, saying that all children need discipline and structure. I, myself, agree with that statement. Yet, no child should ever go through the stress, depression, and fear that I went through. I am writing this letter to let people know that many families struggle, and there is a difference between discipline and abuse.
Dear Mom,
Time has passed, and you have drifted away from me. When I was younger, I used to look up to you as a role model. You were the light of my life. Maybe I was too naive, or stuck up in my child mindset, but I only saw the good in you. You gave up everything for me. You provided even when my own father tried to convince you to abort me. You stayed near me and tried to protect me from all the bad in the world. Unfortunately with you doing this, I feel like you weren't protecting yourself, and this is how you became so controlling, narcissistic, oppressive, and cruel. You were a single mother throughout majority of my childhood, and you remarried several years after you and my father split up. I never had two parents when I was younger, I always had to choose one or the other. This, possibly, was a good thing. But when you remarried, you changed. You slowly started to show me the animosity and hatred you had toward me. Suddenly, everything else became more important, and the only time we talked was when I was being scolded. What once was a beautiful relationship, is now torn to shreds. When I would get home from school and go toward the kitchen, you would tell me that I need to stop eating. I was apparently, 'gaining to much weight', as you'd like to say.
