I knew when your dad and I first started seeing each other that things might get rough. Your parents had just recently divorced - a situation I had nothing to do with - and you and your sister were teenagers. While you were not necessarily hostile toward me, your sister, J, was. It was a situation that only worsened as the months went on and a mere ten days after our marriage, your father I were discussing all of this in a counselor's office. Over the years, I hoped that things would change, but they never did. You remained cool toward me and your sister cut herself out of her father's life. Nevertheless, I did appreciate that you always had a relationship with our twin sons, 'Rob' and 'Joe.' Even though there was a twenty-year gap between you and them, it was nice that you cared enough...
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Telling you directly how I feel isn't going to happen because I don't plan on seeing you again.
You have no idea how bad it hurts that my kids don't have an active grandmother in their life. They had a very loving and caring grandmother just a few years ago, but she is now in Heaven watching over them.
Do you think they don't notice how you are with Jaylyn and not them? They DO notice, just like everyone else does. Everyone turns their cheek to it, but I no longer will.
Do you even know what grade Amber and Carson are in? I'm sure you don't, because their name doesn't start with J.
You couldn't even pick up your phone to make a birthday phone call, THEY NOTICED. They are just used to it though, you honestly probably dont know when their birthday is.
Our dinner before...
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The first 10 days…
30 weeks pregnant and you’re getting uncomfortable. Every time you make a comment like, “I just need this baby out of me!” peoples response is always, “trust me you’ll want that baby back inside of you as soon as the long nights start.” Like, really? That’s comforting, letting me know I’m going to dread having my baby. Every time I got a “Ha! Say goodbye to sleeping!” or a, “just wait till the explosive poops!!” its like people were bitter about their own experiences and felt the need to scare me.
I’ll admit, I was naïve in thinking that it would all be a breeze, but no one told me about the baby blues. No one told me half the time I would cry with the baby. They didn’t tell me the lack of sleep would leave me depressed, exhausted and overwhelmed. How would...
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I am at a loss and can't find the words to express my distain for you. Who in the hell do you think you are!!! Hurting my parents the way you have. It must be such a burden to know that everything you touch dies but it wasnt always this way.
I remember when my mom and I went to check on you, you were alone in your highchair, a few saltine crackers on your tray. Your biological mom was in another room with friend's. My mom said stay here with Shawn, I will be right back. I didn't mind, you were my nephew and I adored you. You were family and. back then, we stuck together.
All my life, I did not get along with your biilogical mother, honestly, I didn't care. She has done horrible things to me through out my life so, her not liking me did not hurt a bit. I involved her in things and...
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Losing a parent is hard for anyone, but imagine losing your father and best friend all in one. At the age where you haven't even learned the difference between right from wrong yet.
He's your best friend, your protector, your whole entire world.
All of a sudden, he's gone.. forever.
The man you looked up to, the man that took you to the grocery store in your pajamas at 2 a.m, the man who took you to work with him when you would pretend to be sick in the first grade just so you could spend more time with him, the man who loved you and his family more than anything in the world..that man is gone forever.
Of course at only eight years old the only thoughts that could possibly run through your mind when your mom sits you and your siblings down on the couch just to struggle to say...
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I've been debating on weather to do this or not, and honestly I'm just tired of crying over and over again about the things that obviously ain't changing.
You have been an addict for so long it's became just who you are. And I hate that for you. You think noone understands you but don't forget I was an addict to, now sober, wishing you was to.
U have been put of jail, rehab.. and still no change.
Everytime I see you, you seem worse off than before. The last mug shot I seen of u literally broke my heart. I just want you to know your not alone and you can change. I want you to be here for me and your neices... but your not..
I want a sister I can call and talk to but I cant.
I want someone to go shipping with and to do girlie stuff with.. but your not here... I just want my...
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Hello.
I don’t know your name, your face or your story. All I know is that one day, maybe late at night, you looked up an open letter for the loss of a sibling. I know that at some point in your life your sibling passed away, leaving your family torn in pieces and you are struggling to see past that.
How do I know this? Maybe because one night in my senior year of high school, almost 10 years after my brother died, I did the same thing. I found exactly 3 letters. 3 out of 1000s of letters. Letters for parents, letters for spouses, even letters for pets. But what the world chooses to hide, chooses to block, is the pain of loss in a child, or even an adult, when they lose a sibling.
I know that when it happened, your soul felt torn to shreds. You didn’t know if your...
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Dearest Grief -
You can sure be an unpredictable bitch. You come at times when I don't want you but you somehow know I need you. So, I will acknowledge you, the monster in all your forms, no matter how ugly you are. I know there is beauty in you too but I just can't see it yet. I have discovered by ignoring you, you become bolder and engrain your despair to be heard into me. Well, come at me grief. No matter your form. I'm ready. At times I may stumble in response but I grow stronger with each time we meet. I've been given tools to deal with you from the one I actually grieve for. My mama taught me well. But she never told me how annoying you'd be!
But if you, grief, are the only one present right now, come and sit a while, I'll talk to you. I definitely have some things to say....
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to you my wife, may you find peace in every aspect of life. may you feel calm ripples by leaving me behind. i am so tired, i am. recently i have diacovered from you that you have been blaming me for a year now that i am a big mistake. i am the root cause of your dad's death. i did not place enough effort in letting you have the time to spend with him duting his last few months. i got you pregnant, i went to your house alone to ask for your hand. i told your father that i wud like to take you home with me and take care of you. he was so proud of me for being a man. and boy! i was so boastful! I myself was ridden from mu home, but i never told you that. intead, i told you that it wud be better if we separate. we did. for 9months we loved and lived as a happy husband and wife. we never...
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If there's anything that I've learned recently it is that it's much easier to pray for someone when they've done everything right. It's a much harder task to root for them when they are lost and confused. I spent my entire life bitter and angry at a man that I believed had no excuse for leaving me. It took me until only recently to realize that holding onto those feelings was only hurting myself. So instead of being angry and spiteful, from now on I choose to pray for those who have wounded me. I see how lost you are and I see how you hurt. I see how hard it must have been to know that your little girl despised you all these years. And so I choose to let go and forgive, for myself and also for you. I don't require an apology anymore. I don't require for you to make things right. Hell, I...
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