to you my wife, may you find peace in every aspect of life. may you feel calm ripples by leaving me behind. i am so tired, i am. recently i have diacovered from you that you have been blaming me for a year now that i am a big mistake. i am the root cause of your dad's death. i did not place enough effort in letting you have the time to spend with him duting his last few months. i got you pregnant, i went to your house alone to ask for your hand. i told your father that i wud like to take you home with me and take care of you. he was so proud of me for being a man. and boy! i was so boastful! I myself was ridden from mu home, but i never told you that. intead, i told you that it wud be better if we separate. we did. for 9months we loved and lived as a happy husband and wife. we never passed the night fighting. after 9months, our little angel came out. she's adorable!
it's been a year since your father went to his kingdom. but i know it's just been so hard for you. i understand. you've been having these mood swings and i have been hurting so much. you are hurting me. but i always find myself at your feet begging you to stop and let's just forgive and forget. the biggest arguement happens for no reason.
my dad got sick, he is between life and death. i know. because i've seen it happend to most of my clients. one comes in without any complaints, the nxt thing I know they all passed away. i've seen it. hundred of times and im just so scared to loose a father. i don't know why you can't understand that. i know you have been so busy with work that you forget to even ask me how my day was, you forget giving me a kiss or a hug when you come home. it's okay for me that you act that way. i know you are tired. but i am so fed up with all these things that you do! your father, it's been a year. me, my dad is still here. i can still fight for his life. please understand too. that i don't want to loose a father.
-midnightpanda
