Losing a parent is hard for anyone, but imagine losing your father and best friend all in one. At the age where you haven't even learned the difference between right from wrong yet.
He's your best friend, your protector, your whole entire world.
All of a sudden, he's gone.. forever.
The man you looked up to, the man that took you to the grocery store in your pajamas at 2 a.m, the man who took you to work with him when you would pretend to be sick in the first grade just so you could spend more time with him, the man who loved you and his family more than anything in the world..that man is gone forever.
Of course at only eight years old the only thoughts that could possibly run through your mind when your mom sits you and your siblings down on the couch just to struggle to say the words "daddy's been in a bad accident.. he's with god now" are "what mommy?" and "why isn't daddy coming home?". You're too young to understand why in the world your best friend, your dad..the man who holds the family together is gone forever..why? But you're told as you grow older, the pain will grow and it will only get worse. At such a young age, you could never possibly learn why such a thing happened.
As you get older though, you learn to know what they meant. Every big moment in your life will somehow lead to you crying, and wishing he was right there with you. Your first boyfriend, first day of middle school, high school, boy problems, friend problems, and the worst of them all, the day you get married. It's not a wedding if your father isn't there to give you away. The fact that when you have children, they will never get to meet that amazing, funny, loving dad you had to call a grandpa. You learn to dread holidays, especially Father's day.
There will always be days where something goes wrong and it all comes rushing back because it just does. You're going to want to be alone, and just cry it all out. It will feel like your world has ended, but it hasn't.
You need to know that you will be okay, you will survive. I promise you that no matter how awful or hard it may seem, it's going to be alright. It's okay to cry, crying is perfectly fine. It's okay to want to be mad at those kids that take advantage of having both parents alive, it's only logically fair in our minds. Remember that your family is always there, and even when that's an issue, God is.
Your daddy is always going to be with you, you're always going to be his little girl. He's watching down on every step in life you make, and he's prouder than ever. He's there for it all, the bad and the good. Your wedding day, he will be in the front row seat from heaven. Soak in the memories you had with him, even if there may only be a few. Just know, that you have an advantage over most people.. your daddy, your best friend, your protector is right above you, keeping a close eye on you at all times..sitting right next to God himself. How awesome is that? You have an angel and you call him Daddy.. he will always love you.
