The unheard screams of a mother and child.
After getting myself into a rut of about a month along with illness and obviously covid19 it's been a emotional rollercoaster. The house a mess, rent arrears all of which are admittedly my own doing but I had my beautiful little boy aged 6 and 4 months and my 17 year old hormonal middle son and we were happy together. At aged 4 I had decided to home school my youngest as he was a little speech delayed and still not fully potty trained (he would wee bit would not poo out of a nappy). Did some online research and it's not uncommon for speech delay or for boys to have potty training issues up until around 5 so I wasn't worried as my other 2 grown boys hit their milestones at different times as all children do. Then came covid19 and the lockdowns...
Family
Grandmother:
Thank you for laughing when you told me my brother tried to have sex with me when i was 2 years old... not knowing he succeeded when i was 4.
Father:
Thank you for being so wrapped up in your own problems, that you completely ignored your girlfriend's son beating me until i let him have sex with me, every single day, and making me take naps with him in the same bed, perpetuating the act.
And Thank you so much for calling me a liar when i told you about it, because i was "only 9 and didnt know what sex was" and there were no bruises to prove the beatings.
--Because of you, i always take my kids claims at face value and believe them until proven false.
Brother:
Thank you for knowing this was happening and not only not doing a thing to stop it, but finding ways...
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Your child’s health matters. How many times does it need to be repeated? I have seen the negative effects obesity can have on a child through their developmental years. It is a gruesome internal battle! So how do we combat this ever-growing issue? Everyone has heard about exercise and healthy eating. They are important, but isn’t obesity more than just the way a person looks? How about the way a person feels? Allow me to suggest a new way to combat childhood obesity:
First, as I mentioned before, obesity is an internal battle with oneself. As a child I was told by countless doctors that I was obese for my age and height. However, I never felt labelled as obese until I went to the doctors. I had an athletic build. I grew up playing sports, and exercise was an important part of my...
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You were a small child when I met you. A baby, even. I know you weren’t sure how to feel about me, just as I wasn’t sure how to feel about you. Through the years, we grew, as we’re supposed to
I never wanted to replace your mom, I also needed you to show me respect. I loved you long before me. I saw the neglect your mom gave you and you just wanted her approval! I was afraid to hug you, to say I love you, because I didn’t want to be seen as this monster who wanted to wipe out your family. I waited for you to say it first, and waited.
I maintained patience when you went against every thing I liked or said, I knew you were struggling with your own things. I saw the hurt and anger for the things you had been through and I was scared, scared my love would make things worse. I wanted to...
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You were a small child when I met you. A baby, even. I know you weren’t sure how to feel about me, just as I wasn’t sure how to feel about you. Through the years, we grew, as we’re supposed to
I never wanted to replace your mom, I also needed you to show me respect. I loved you long before me. I saw the neglect your mom gave you and you just wanted her approval! I was afraid to hug you, to say I love you, because I didn’t want to be seen as this monster who wanted to wipe out your family. I waited for you to say it first, and waited.
I maintained patience when you went against every thing I liked or said, I knew you were struggling with your own things. I saw the hurt and anger for the things you had been through and I was scared, scared my love would make things worse. I wanted to...
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Firstly, I want to apologise for being quiet and not getting back to you - I’ve not been in a good place. I do want to explain a few things to you so that you know where my head is at. I would like to talk about the things which have caused me a lot of stress in my life and which I am unable to speak to you about (although I have tried in the past but you either put the phone down or become dismissive). I realise that some of my memories may be somewhat skewed given that I was only a child but also, I know that during my many years of counselling, I have been well understood by those who hear what I went through as a child.
I really struggle with the distance between us. Yes, over the last 6 years we have been somewhat closer, but still not as close as I would like it to be. It...
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Although parenthood is one of the best things in the world, it can get quite stressful at times. This is particularly true for first-time parents. With so many new things to get the hang of, so many different - and often contradictory - pieces of information, and an endless list of "helpful" advice, becoming a first-time parent can get quite confusing.
To be fair, new mums seem to have it the roughest during the first few years of mum life. Getting ready for feeding time, trying to fall asleep when your baby sleeps, being constantly covered in stains of suspicious origin and - for some reason - not being able to shake off that baby spit-up smell are just some of the wonderful things you get to look forward to.
On top of that, the first time your baby does anything, you'll most...
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Happy Father’s Day
I wish you were a better father.
A better father who understands and respects my boundaries. Respects what I do and don’t want to talk about, so you don’t get your feelings hurt when YOU push my boundaries.
A better father who doesn’t completely cut me out of your life when we don’t agree. I’m human and I have my own thoughts and opinions. That’s life.
A better father who was a part of my WHOLE life instead of just my childhood. My adulthood is just as important and valuable.
A better father who is excited for all of the milestones in my life.
A better father who is there for me ALWAYS. No matter what.
I gave you slack because you didn’t have a great father and father figure in your life.
Why do you do the things to me that you were so...
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What you did to us is beyond evil. What you did to me (YOUR wife), my unborn child, Wendi...
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Dear Vincent,
I have posted some messages for you on the internet ONLY because some corrupt government people have locked me out of my 6 email accounts and I learned three months ago that the U.S. government has been using the U.S. Post Office to to do some of their dirty work as you can see in this article and videos.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IZtqOx9X8M
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2tt7uhspY0
https://www.salon.com/2021/04/21/is-the-post-office-spying-on-you-usps-covert-operations-may-monitor-social-media-posts/
Now I really don't know how many of my 40 letters I sent you since I got back from China in August of 2019 were delivered or how many of my 800+ emails I sent you since I arrived in China in 2008 until I was detained for 485 on April 11, 2018 in China...
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