Friends

I’m sure that you don’t see anything wrong with your behaviour; from your perception, you’re simply offering advice as a friend concerned for his wellbeing. If you pitched it that way to someone more removed from the situation and the people in it, they might believe you too. You’ve made use of the fact that people don’t look closely or listen properly most of the time. You’ve used it to your advantage in getting by in the world – appearing friendly to the right people as needed to get the things you feel you need. I don’t condemn you for clinging so desperately and relentlessly to this position even as it becomes ineffective. I don’t condemn someone using the best coping mechanisms they’ve managed to come up with from their life circumstances because that’s all any of us really have to...

E, I'm so, so, so sorry. You trusted me with a secret and I went and fucked up your life by telling the counselor. I was scared of losing you and worried that you'd overdose for real. How the fuck am I supposed to deal with that? I care about you, and instead of that hospital helping, you just came back even more stressed and miserable from all the missed work. You spent a week without touching another person. You missed Comic-con. You spent a week of your life in a prison for the suicidal and it's all my fault. It's not bad enough that your dad's in jail, your brother's a dick and you've been in the closet for years. I just had to go and get you hospitalized. I tried to go visit you, bring you books and candy, but they wouldn't let me in. I'm "too young". Old enough to date and kiss...

I never thought we would ever not be friends. I thought this friendship would last forever but here we are we haven't spoke in months and the worst thing is that I feel like your okay with that. We were inseparable since we were 3 or 4. I knew all your secrets and you knew mine, if you were ever sad or mad or just needed someone to hear the weird thoughts from your head I was always there and I knew you were there for me too. Rain hail or shine I could count on you to be there but lately I've had to stand out in the cold alone. You see what happened is you met him..it was so exciting and you were so happy and I was so happy for you , we spent hours on the phone talking about it and I gave you advice and you told me about your dates and how he made you feel and how you thought it was...

Cael, Where to start? But.. let's be clear. I know you hate sappy shit and all that, but i just needed to tell you a few things. First of all, I want to make sure you know that I can’t stand you 99.999% of the time. Wait wait wait, happy birthday! anyway I’ve never met someone who annoys me as much as you do, but at the same time, I’ve never been more thankful that you’re that person. Thank you for being perpetually annoying, and thank you for the texts or snapchats everyday that remind me how horrible I am lmao. It’s the little things that make me realize how lucky I am to have you in my life. You’re one of the few people that I can talk to everyday and I know that annoys you but I appreciate it so much. Our friendship is something I hold close to me, honestly, I don’t want anyone to...