To my ex-best friend

Subject: To my ex-best friend
Date: 21 Nov 2016

This isn’t going to be one of those letters where I talk about all our old memories and all the stuff we’ve been through because I swear that letter could go on forever. And I'm also not going to go into the details on how our friendship ended and everything else, more specifically because I don’t know how it ended. And that's the issue. I don’t know where it went wrong. One day we were fine and within the next few weeks, I wasn’t important anymore. You had different friends (who were my friends too at one point) and I didn’t matter anymore. You had your boyfriend and his friends, and maybe I wasn’t supportive enough of your relationship because he had screwed you over once before.
I can’t think of where I went wrong or where our 10-year friendship went wrong but I wish I knew. I wish I had some type of clue or idea of when it started going downhill and I wasn’t your future maid of honor, soul twin, and number one anymore. It was as if you had flipped a switch and it all just changed. maybe it was me or maybe it was you, but I just wish I had some closure. sometimes I really wish that we could go back to how we used to be… random drives, and hour long phone calls. 3 am talks and random bursts of texts with random information. all of our plans went down the drain and i have no idea how or when. I guess, for now, I'm going to keep doing my thing, and you’re obviously going to keep doing yours, and maybe one day, if we ever cross paths (which I’m sure we will, I mean it's a small town) you could ask me how I’m doing and you could tell me where I went wrong… but until then, I'm going to hold back the need to text you or call you when something important happens in my life, because, for a moment I would have forgotten that you weren’t my go-to anymore… I couldn’t text you at the drop of a hat anymore, and I needed someone else to confide in… it really hurts that you aren’t my person anymore, and i still cry over it occasionally (like right now) but it’ll get easier, and my feeling of texting you when something happens will fade away and I'll move on with my life, just like you have with yours… but I'll always miss you and the memories we made because they were good, and I thought we would continue to make a lifetime full of them. We were supposed too… But, I guess things just happen without a rhyme or reason and we all just have to find a way to get through it… I’m just still trying to find my way through it.