For my best guy friend

Subject: For my best guy friend
From: a girl in love with you
Date: 24 Oct 2016

Cael,

Where to start? But.. let's be clear. I know you hate sappy shit and all that, but i just needed to tell you a few things. First of all, I want to make sure you know that I can’t stand you 99.999% of the time. Wait wait wait, happy birthday! anyway I’ve never met someone who annoys me as much as you do, but at the same time, I’ve never been more thankful that you’re that person. Thank you for being perpetually annoying, and thank you for the texts or snapchats everyday that remind me how horrible I am lmao. It’s the little things that make me realize how lucky I am to have you in my life. You’re one of the few people that I can talk to everyday and I know that annoys you but I appreciate it so much. Our friendship is something I hold close to me, honestly, I don’t want anyone to be able to describe it. The friendship we have is something I can’t let go of, and I want to thank you for being that person for me throughout this past year. And honestly fuck everyone talking the shit about it, honestly could care less. And you say you don’t like people but I’m glad somehow (which I don’t freaking know how) we’re still friends.

It's not very common to find someone who hates you at first, but develops into the person that means more to you than any other. And you are that person for me.

Thank you for (unfortunately literally) making me laugh so hard that I pee my pants, with your idiotic jokes and completely inappropriate but still extremely funny humor. Since we've been friends, there has not been a single day in which we did not have contact with eachother. There's always something too exciting or hilarious happening that needs to be shared with the other. Thank you making me laugh so hard that I cry, and also making me laugh when I want to cry.
Thank you for letting our friendship be known. There is nothing I value more than my relationship with you, and it seems that everyone knows that.
Thank you for sticking by my side, even if we don't see eachother as much as we did before, and for never forgetting about me. I appreciate that more than you could ever know.
Thank you for listening to bad news that I was not supposed to share with anyone, but I still shared with you. Thank you for understanding that sometimes things are warped in my head, but that I will soon realize how crazy I sound.
Thank you for letting me feel like part of your family. I practically say "I'm home," when I walk in the front door of your beautiful house and am greeted by your mom with a hug. Thank you for sharing your adorable nieces with me, since I don't have any of my own. And thank you also, for treating my siblings like your own. They love when you're over, even if they don't fully express it all the time, and constantly bring you up in our conversations, because you are a part of our family.
Thank you for giving me memories, which are now funny stories to bore my Grandma with on long car rides because it was a "you had to be there" type of thing.
Thank you for helping me realize when I am being oblivious to the obvious, even when I get upset hearing the truth. Never stop telling me the truth, because I need to hear it.
Thank you for fighting with me like a sister. As much as small arguments suck, they only bring us closer together and make me realize just how much I cherish you. Thank you for making fun of me, even when I am embarrassed for making a fool of myself. Knowing I'll have you on my back about it for a little while, just makes me realize that I gave you something to laugh about.
Thank you for being my person. There is no one on this Earth I connect with more than you, and I will love you as my best friend forever.

Thanks for the constant reminders that I can do whatever I set my mind to, and always telling me to just do it and man up. For being there when I have to rant about boys because you’re always there to listen. Which most the ones i’ve talked to recently have turned out to be fucks. Thank you for letting me tell you over and over again that you and shanaynay will end up together because all other guys suck, even though I know that all the girls are head over heels in love with you. Annoying I know. Thanks for telling me when I’m wrong, when I’m overreacting, overthinking, and being an idiot. Thank you for being level-headed (most of the time), and basically being a second-conscience for me. I don’t know how I would’ve survived the last year, without you. Everything I had going on and you’d always be there if I needed to vent about it. Although we’re at different mindsets, the fact that you always have time to listen to me rant about school, a boy, or just things in life generally means the world to me.

I need you in my life man. I need your metaphors, your protectiveness, your "fuck 'em" attitude, your hard ass side, along with your sweet side. I need you in my life.
I actually don’t know how we became so close. And we’re probably closer in my head than yours, because you’ve said it’s only your day ones which is cool I know how much they mean to you. And maybe it’s because I find your horrible sense of humor hilarious, or maybe because we’re so different and the cliché “opposites attract” is so true, makes the best friendships. I don’t know how it happened, but I’m so glad that it did. Although I’ve spent the majority of this letter talking about how thankful I am for you, I also want you to know that I am always here for you whenever you need it. Whenever you need girl advice, fashion advice, life advice, or just someone to talk to, I want you to know I’m here. I know I can be a bit annoying sometimes, always asking how your doing or how school is going, but it’s only because I want to make sure that you’re happy. That’s all that matters. So, thanks for being you because, honestly, there’s nobody else in this world that I would want to call my best friend.

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