And I can see it coming. The moment when I know he will choose her over me. The moment I know will come. I've been here before. Multiple times. A different guy, a different friend but the same heartbreak. And I know where it will lead me. A dark, cold hole where I sit and wonder why I'm once again not good enough. A place where the only thing that consumes my mind is where I went wrong or is there something wrong with me? A place where I consider myself unlovable. A place where I hide my tears to the world until it's time to go to bed and I'm by myself. And I lay there all night smothering my screams with a pillow. A place where I give up my innocence to someone else, a place where I drink myself to belligerence or get so high I can't remember when my feet left the ground, just to block...
Broken Hearts
This letter is for those who are still wanting and waiting; wanting to give love and waiting to be loved back.
I am single for more than a year now, I know it's not that long but I am still hoping for that 'magic.' I know it sounds pathetic but I still believe in the magic of love. When you keep on looking, you'll never find the perfect one. But when you're not trying, the right person will just be there unexpected.
But the big question is what if I am not worth to be called as "The One?" What if I'll never be the right person? What if that unexpected person is already there for me but I am the one who's not ready yet.
I once read a quote from TheGoodQuote that says "If you're waiting to be ready, you're waiting for the rest of your life." So I am trying to let myself out, trying...
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Lethal,
As a child, you were my best friend. I was only twelve years old and you were twenty-one at the time. We never actually met in real life because obviously that would’ve been very inappropriate, but I was never close to anyone the way that I was close to you. It was the kind of friendship that meant something. I believe we were playing Borderlands on the Xbox 360 and just happened to get matched up. I still remember how we met. The way that I pretended my headset was broken for some silly reason. The way that you coaxed me out of my shell and let me really be myself. I was shy and naïve and young, and you were fascinating. I’m sure that you were like any other person on the planet, but to me, you were something of an entirely different nature. You’ve always kind of been a dream...
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An advice to myself:
Throughout my life, even though I’m young, quite a few boys have already broken my heart. And for some weird reason I keep making the same mistakes… Why can’t I learn just like a normal person? The worst thing, which I regret every time is: I trust in other people very easily. And after I trust them they break my heart, just like that, and after that I depress a little, and a little and a little more.
Something I have noticed in these past months is that a lot of people ask me “why aren’t you smiling? Is there something wrong? Are you okay?”, I guess the answer for that is that I grew? I’m more mature? Or even, I stopped believing?
To be honest with you I love life, and I make the most of it, I travel around the world, I play sports, I study, I go to the beach, I...
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T
You were my first boyfriend, the first boy I kissed, and even now you still have a place in my heart. You were always so goofy and really cared for me and I took that for granted. I want you to know that I didn’t intend to be a heartbreaker, I was just too young and not ready for a relationship. You deserve the best, and I know it won’t be hard for you to find. You truly are a great guy.
C
You were the first boy I truly loved. You were everything to me, and right now it all seems so far away and distant. So long ago I loved you. You were an asshole, and I will leave it at that. You know what you did, but I hope you know how you affected me as a person. At least once a month I think about you and everything you did. It hurts me still, but just know... I you ever texted me a “hello,” I...
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I'm not really even sure where to start. It's been 13 years. I turn 18 in two weeks and I wish more then anything that you could be here to send me off into the scary life of adulthood. I was too young at the time to completely understand what happened, but when dad sat me and veronica down and told us that you had been in an accident and you wouldn't be coming back again, I just sat in confusion as to how someone I spent everyday (basically attached by the hip) with, wouldn't ever be coming back. At your funeral I still was confused, Even after seeing you in that casket I couldn't grasp the fact that that was you. So many people showed up to your funeral, I didn't even think someone could know so many people. I'm often reminded of that day vividly, whenever I smell flowers every emotion...
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Two strangers, never met before, never seen each other, and a series of very very personal questions.
https://youtu.be/rfH1Gpsu3Ws
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Dear Ex,
I know it's been a while... so much has happened in my life since we last spoke. I'm sure the same can be said for you. Life has been good to me as I hope it has been to you. Living without unnecessary burdens has helped tremendously. Life is hard enough, why should it be made any harder? I could preface this letter with some sophisticated segue, but I'll just cut to the chase and say how good things have been since our split... that's actually an understatement and I'll be honest when I say it didn't happen without a lot of pain and recovery from the emotional trauma you inflicted. Yes I said it; that you inflicted. I came to 2 realizations over the past year. The first of which was... it was mostly your fault. That may be impossible for you to want to accept... but I assure...
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Dear you,
Its so painful to know that you are the only one who are in love to someone. Someone that never become yours, someone that you cannot call mine, someone that you never had a chance to be together, someone that you love from far even though his is to close to you.
Just walk up in the middle of my the night. All I can here is a loud cry coming from someone that feels hurt and that are in so much pain, someone that is so familiar to me. I search for it, everywhere, I looked around the room even though it was so dark inside I tried to look for that someone who cried so loud and then I stop, I tried to calm myself and then, I begun to start to hear again the voice, the voice was so loud and I can really feel the pain that he is going through. I touched him even though I cant...
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To start off, I would like to give my apologies for this sad event, for I know my love ones will be sadden maybe to go a bit further to say disappointed. Momma, you may even say I’m selfish for the decision I have made, and I feel as if I cannot disagree for maybe I am. To be completely honest I know my life has been short lived, I cannot continue with this enduring pain. For my heart has been broken for it seems as if time cannot fix this deepening pain. It has been half a year and I still cannot go a night without tears running down my cheeks; I miss her and know I will never find a love as true; to me she was my life and to lose her I know I can no longer deal with the pain. I feel as if I have no one to express these feelings to anymore for I have told you all before, but now my...
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