An Open Letter To My Exes

Subject: An Open Letter To My Exes
From: M
Date: 25 Sep 2017

You were my first boyfriend, the first boy I kissed, and even now you still have a place in my heart. You were always so goofy and really cared for me and I took that for granted. I want you to know that I didn’t intend to be a heartbreaker, I was just too young and not ready for a relationship. You deserve the best, and I know it won’t be hard for you to find. You truly are a great guy.
You were the first boy I truly loved. You were everything to me, and right now it all seems so far away and distant. So long ago I loved you. You were an asshole, and I will leave it at that. You know what you did, but I hope you know how you affected me as a person. At least once a month I think about you and everything you did. It hurts me still, but just know... I you ever texted me a “hello,” I would reply in a heartbeat.
I’m sorry you got caught up in such a crazy time. I don’t think you ever really had feelings for me, and our relationship was very strange. We weren’t fit for each other at all. You were a huge goofball, and I always have loved that, but that was really it. We had nothing, and my feelings for you were no more than a lost broken heart looking for love. I’m sorry I wasted your time.
You were clingy. You are a great guy and deserve someone equally as great. I still have the plushie you bought me and I cherish it so much. I’m sorry that we didn’t work out. It was just too weird with the age and the clinginess. I don’t want someone on me 24/7. Its alright, just be self aware, you will find someone who loves you for you.
Boy. You hurt me the most. Even more than C. Two years down the drain. I loved you so much, much more than words could say. The distance was rough, but I had faith we could do it. I was madly in love with a boy who I thought loved me back. I flew all the way over there to see you, all 4077 miles. I spent a large portion of my life dedicated to you. We talked about our future together: getting married, adopting kids, everything we planned to do together. I love you still, so much, and you will forever mean more to me than anyone else. You left me with a broken heart, an agonizing pain in my chest I have never felt before. I’ve never cried this hard over something so stupid. You left me with “I don’t love you anymore,” and that was the one statement that broke my heart the most. I love you still. I will miss you.