There was nothing extraordinary during the first time that I saw you. You were then a usual person whom I bumped into while I was living my usual life. However, fate brought me closer to you. We started talking, getting little chats...little things, just like that. I didn't know that was then and there I started falling for someone that will never look at me the same way; someone who will never know how I really feel; someone who will not even think of loving me. After countless times of denials, I have come to the realization that I like you, and sometimes I had thoughts of telling you. But I was too afraid and hesitant because I know for sure that we don't stand a chance. I believe that men are exclusively for women, and never have I challenged my ideologies and principles in life,...
Love Letters
I fucking hate you. You left me for another man. Sure, I was arrogant, selfish and frustrating most of the time, changing from career to career with no pattern or warning, however, were you any different? You don't agree to get married with no dissertation, child. Ha! I'm actually considering you a child for once. Child! Ha! I hate you so much but the truth is I actually miss you a fuck ton. All those times we went out for food, or a burger or something random. How dare you, Rachel. How fucking dare you leave me the way you did. Do you have any idea the kind of damage you did to me? Leaving me for Kevin the way you did? You don't cheat on your fiance, you cheat on your HUSBAND. That was down right dirty and wrong and you fucking know it, however, both you and I know that I don't have to...
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Water Bear,
You asked "is your chest okay?" when I told you via text that it hurt. I didn't answer because I was scared to. I wanted to answer more than anything else, but I am afraid of being honest with you. I am afraid to tell you how I really feel. I want to though. I imagine if you stay where you are, and I stay were I am, we can be as honest as we want to...and god, we want to be honest don't we?
But I am scared I'll scare you off.
If I'd had the courage to answer your question I would have told you this:
It aches.
Even my bones ache as if they were being bruised from the inside.
If you were to stand near me and gently place your right hand on the left side of my rib cage and softly cup the underside of my small breast and press in, you'd feel my heart beating rapidly...
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To the girl who broke his heart,
You really did a number on him. It's been months and he still crys. I hate you, I really do. But don't because he loves you not me but because you don't love him back. I hate you because you don't find his slightly geeky personality adorable. I hate you because his laugh doesn't melt your heart. I hate you because his voice doesn't make you sleep better at night. I hate you for not loving the way he smells. I hate you because the stupid things he does doesn't drive you the good kind of crazy. I hate you because he hurts so much over you. I hate you because you moved on like it was nothing. Like he was nothing because he's not. He's adorable. His smile lights up my day. He has a great heart and personality. He would do anything for you. Even though you...
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I'm so sorry. I thought this was faster than a hand written letter because by the time you receive the letter, it'll be too late. I feel so bad thinking about the way that I've hurt you and the way that I have reopened your awful wound. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you and I truly regret what I have done. I must have tore your world apart and I'm so deeply sorry.
I'm sorry that I even tried to argue back. I know that you will never able to trust me the same way that you did before. The tears that ran down my face yesterday was filled with sadness and hurt because I love you sooo much, so it hurts me so much to see you in so much pain. I messed up and I know sorry will never be enough because I'm such a screw up.
But for whatever it's worth, I still need you to know that I...
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you.. we met over the summer, but i fell in love so quickly. jeez. between July and January i was the happiest ever. we would spend all of our time together. i was so in love. you asked me out July 6 and we broke up January 1. you knew me better than i knew myself. i gave up almost all my friends for you.
i left my best friend countless times for you. but at the time i didnt care because you were my oxygen and i needed you to live. the worst night of my life was new years eve of this year. thats where everything came crashing down. my baby was done with me.
i still don;t know what went wrong. all i know is you broke my heart into a thousand pieces and ill never be okay again. you ruined my first love. but guess what? i would take you back in a heartbeat because i am still in love....
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as I have grown older, I have come to realize the amount of heartbreak a girl must suffer. me being a young girl that used to find love off of websites has broken me to the core, but has also made me a better person. if I didn't have the websites, I would not be the same person, I would be someone who had never experienced love.
now that I have gotten older and have become to realize what dating websites can do to you, I find myself in even more trouble, I find myself being heartbroken even more. the men that I have given my all too and suffered so much time for are no longer in my life and have moved on. seeing the occasional guy that I thought I was in love a year or so ago on Facebook, and seeing that they have moved on and that they have found love still kills me to this day. seeing...
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Hello old friend,
Do you remember me? Well, the girl I used to be? The girl who was once so vibrant, happy, & full of life? I have fading, distant memories of her also.
The girl who put everyone else's needs & happiness in front of her own? She now is empty & hollow from giving her all to you.
The one who always wore her crooked smile so beautifully, even on the darkest & most dismal days? Now when she catches glimpses of the sunlight beaming on & kissing her skin, she still feels cold because she wishes it was you.
The girl who was friendly to everyone she met? She now comes across as complacent & cold; not trusting even her own shadow.
The girl who once had so much self confidence? She feels ugly, inadequate,...
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I’m trying to think of a way I can let you know of the positive impact you’ve made on me. You might need to indulge me a bit so I can fully express what I want to say.
One of the things you wrote me in your first email was that you weren’t like other guys your age; you were working and going to school, not out partying. That intrigued me. But at the time, I still thought, “I just can’t do this, I would feel like an old, washed-up cougar-lady trying to recapture her glory days!” But there was just something unique about you that made me go ahead and check it out. After our bumpy start, when you came back to me and were so honest about your nervousness, it cleared the way for us to explore our time together and make our own terms.
I know that someday things will end between us. I...
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I spent a lot of time online, reading through pages of stories, hoping I could find one that fits mine. For most parts, I can relate to an experience, but it just won't match.
I always thought that crushes are a wonderful thing. Everyone who has one gets to feel that childlike excitement and uncontrollable rush, which causes a whole lot of smiling and day dreams. That's the feeling you gave me and you don't even know it.
For such a long time, I've seen you as this beautiful, carefree and smart woman who's totally crush-worthy. You never had the slightest idea that you have always been the highlight of someone's day: mine. Well that's pretty much how it started. A crush, just a crush.
Over the months, I've built up enough confidence to finally befriend you.
When i did, the...
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