Broken Hearts

Infidelity costs: a 19 year relationship, a 12 year marriage- a child’s family unit- a child’s home, a family's dreams and plans for the future- the comfort of having someone there for you in your worst moments and in your happiest, who stood in front of friends and family and promised faithfulness. All gone because of a sense of entitlement to please oneself - not just once, but over and over again day in and day out for 5 years, without feeling guilt, without thinking about those whose lives will be broken forever- your reputation- your extended families - your mutual friendships - how your child will view you as he gets older, how the woman who has loved you for almost 20 years would be devastated. You stood there for 5 years blaming your wife for a “not normal” marriage. While your...
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It was February 6 years ago when I was referred to a physical therapy clinic for neck pains. That very first day I went for my consultation, I shook his hand and I felt something right away, an instant attraction. I went for treatment 2-3 days a week for 2 months. With small talks, I learned about his family , wife and kids. The feeling I had kept getting stronger and I could tell he felt the same. One day during my treatment, he took my hand to help me up and gave me a hug. I felt the closeness while he held me for at least more than 2 minutes. Long enough for me to have my face touch his neck to smell his scent. I was a hug that I didn't expect. I was surprised and left the room sort of in a rush. I didn't go back for treatment purposely until the following week, which...
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In all honesty, I hadn't stop thinking about this man since I met him 6 years ago. I will refer to him as Mr. B. I knew it was wrong. But I felt a connection I hadn't felt in years. He felt the same for me. The "where have you been all my life" question came up during many of our conversations. He spoke of his discontent with his marriage. A wife who was a stay at home mom but did not do what a wife or mom was supposed to do. She didn't clean the house, the cleaning lady came once a week. She didn't cook, rather she'd have one of the kids call him to pick up food on his way home. She was not interested in any outdoor activities. And most importantly no longer interested in sex. She wasn't affectionate and didn't want to be touched. There was no physical contact. Not...
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An open letter to the best love of my life. I'm Jem and i fell in love hard to a guy and im sharing my story about someone who meant the world to but have left me.. My letter is to let people know that love has no boundaries. That if you really loved the person, every little sacrifice or even the pain is worth it. Just love and give your heart. As i have given mine i proved myself what love really is. My hopes and happiness is in this letter and hoping one day God will hear my prayers. I've met him in a place where two soul was looking for fun. And we clicked immediately. The chemistry and sex was extraordinary. We were so attracted to each other. Things were going so fine and we met weekly and was having an amazing time. After few months of dating, he left the country for...
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Dear John, I never thought that this day would come. This day where I wanted everything to stop – my love for you, my hopes of us being together again. It pains me to do this, but staying and holding on would kill me. I never wanted for us to end this way, galit sa isa’t isa. But there’s no other way to do this, kasi sinubukan na natin lahat. We tried to end it in a nice way, yung in good terms tayo, but we failed kasi heto parin tayo. Maybe this time magwork na. Galit ako sayo, oo. Galit na galit. You made me feel like trash. Alam ko naman e, alam ko lahat ng kalokohan na ginagawa mo, pero ni minsan hindi nabawasan ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sayo. But I can only take so much. You always tell me, iba ako sa ibang babae mo kasi ako, mahal mo. Pero hindi ko alam kung alin ba...
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Dear men in my life, please stop teasing me for being a woman. I know you don’t mean anything bad by it, I really do. And I’m sure for most of you, if I had told you sooner you probably would have stopped. All I can do though is tell you now. Yes, I have those things called feelings Dear men in my life, I know I can get all kinds of emotional. Some of you have called me “over emotional.” Sometimes you tell me to calm down, sometimes you tell me to not overthink or to not overreact. Dealing with my feelings isn’t always fun (trust me, I don’t like it most of the time). That emotional side of me though is part of my womanliness. When you get upset with me for having feelings, or tell me that I have too many feelings, than it makes me want to hide how I really feel. Even in...
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Hi, I hope Khang has recovered well. I have been typing and deleting for the past few days. Honestly, I don't know what to say. How are you? Not a day goes by that I have stopped thinking about you. I guess it's true that sometimes, the most beautiful things in life doesn't last. I met you in the most unexpected way and I lost you just the same. I know I shouldn't have expected too much from the start but what could I do? You are something beyond amazing. It hurts too much but I think I will be okay. It may take time, but i'll get there, right? For once I believed to be, because you taught me to -- always believe in what I can do. You may not realize, you saved me from something inconsolable. Thank you for being there, in my most darkest time and for actually lifting me...
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Who would’ve ever thought someone would be battling addiction for someone else? That’s what I was doing for you, while you were out getting high I was home praying for God not to take you yet hoping one day you would mean what you said about giving it all up for me. Little did I know you knew exactly what to say to get exactly what you wanted! Our story isn’t that long because 7 months isn’t a long time, to most anyways. But what you put me through made it feel like years. I have a love for you still to this day I can’t can make myself understand why... you manipulated me, brought me down to my lowest point when I didn’t think I could go any lower with everything else I had going on in my life. You took everything I did for you for granted. It was my fault though I could see right through...
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An open letter to the boy i gave my everything to and still destroyed me Dear boy, In the beginning i wasn't much of the person i should have been,I had issues and addictions.I wasnt really worth your time. I put you through hell and for that i will forever be sorry. If im being honest you terrified me, no one had ever saw me the way you did, no one had ever wanted me the way you did, no one had ever made me feel the way you did.I had walls that had always kept me safe and kept me braced from the world but you... you somehow made them fall over time with you undying love for me even when i was awful.You saw me through the worst times of my life.If not for you i wouldnt be here today, you saved me. For a while after everything happened we were so amazingly happy, we had a...
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Love, It's been 35 days since the last time I saw you, 40 days since we ended; but still, the memories we've created are like movies replaying endlessly on my mind. Your voice plays like a song on repeat in my head. It seems like you've occupied so much space in my system and I've been trying to clear up that space for a while. But you're like a computer virus. When I thought I already deleted everything, it turns out, nothing was really removed. Who would have thought you would be someone I'd wish to cut off from my life? I certainly did not expect it. Until now, honestly, I'm still hoping I wouldn't have to. But I think you already started cutting me of from yours. And this is me trying really hard to face that reality. But why is this so difficult? How am I still hurting...
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