Nothing more rough than growing up without a father. But it's more worse being sent into foster care because of his actions. Its worse when you grow up in a home without your parents. The day I got the phone call my dad passed changed my life.
This was a man I had a few visitations with before his rights were tirminated. This is the man who was suppose to tuck me into bed and night and read me a story.
Instead this man was weak. This man left me for someone else's problems because he was to scared and to big of a coward to face them. This man had a wrap sheet two pages long. He was unstable, being a foster kid himself, he didn't know how to raise a child. Both my parents bailed. And to my dad. My dad who passed away my 10th grade year, I'm learning to love myself and forgive you for...
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The first time I remember being violated by you I had fallen asleep on the couch watching T.V. with you. I woke up to find my pants pulled down and I felt you rubbing your penis on my butt. I slowly stood up and just walked to my room. The second time you were about to go to work and I was asleep in my High School Musical pants, I woke up to your hand up the leg of my pants fingering me. I pretended nothing was happening. After a while of things like this happening mom started to get suspicious and kept asking me things about it. When I finally told the truth I felt ashamed and dirty. We went to the cops and I told them everything. But you and mom pressured me into changing my story and saying nothing had happened and I had said yes just to say it.
The molestation stopped for awhile....
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You know who you are and you may come across this. Knowing you, you'll keep scrolling and not take the time to even acknowledge I exist. I debated on even taking the time to write anything, I could have sent it text message, through the mail, or not at all.. But for our daughters peace of mind I chose to openly write it. She deserves it. We all want answers and you can't seem to give any, but put me aside and she deserves the answers. Why? Why didn't you show up to the hospital? Why didn't you ask about her when she was in the er? Why do you ignore the pictures you receive of her? Why do you pretend she doesn't exist? Why did you never ask to even see her? Why isn't she good enough for you?
I don't even know where to begin.. It all started out of no where, it went too fast too soon...
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I thought you were my best friend, but I can see that it was just a trick. That our friendship wasn't real. You're just as bad as the people you complain about. You don't care about me. You used my loyalty against me. You used my tolerance against me. You used my solidarity against me. You used my naivety of people to your advantage. But you didn't count on me figuring it out, did you? Despite me figuring it out too late, well, you know what they say, "better late than never". After this year, you can expect for me to walk away from the crap that you put me through. When graduation night comes rolling in, that'll be last time you'll ever hear from me. I won't stand for your manipulation anymore. I won't stand for your crap anymore. I can't stand it. It's literally draining me and I refuse...
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I would start off this letter with the basic saying of “my parents are the hardest working people I know,” but there is more to my parents than such an overused saying. I have always had a complicated time choosing one word that describes my parents “best.” Or even harder, which one do I pick when it comes to the question of who is my role model? I hate those questions because the people who ask them as part of essays for applications clearly do not want to know everything about my parents. And I wish someone would ask me to write a letter sharing all my feelings about my parents. However, I know I am never going to be asked because I am done with the college process. Sad isn’t it? The colleges that are accepting you sometimes do not even ask about your background. I’m not a strong...
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Today as I was sitting watching television with my oldest child, he turned to me and said, "Rachel is really fat. She eats too much." I couldn't believe my ears. I quickly asked who he heard that from and he responded with your name.
My heart sank.
My children all adore you. You let them sit on your lap while you read book after book. You will make 3 different meals just so each one has their favorite food. You are always thinking of them. I know you love them and they sure do love you. The one thing I didn't expect you to teach my son is how to bully other people.
I know that you grew up in a time when there was no such thing as being politically correct. I also understand that you are getting older with each passing year, but neither of these is an excuse for being so hateful.
I...
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Hi, I'm sure you have heard all about me because I've heard all about you. I know she said I was crazy, and I'd happily confirm that I am. So, keep that in mind if I ever ask a you a question about her, which I'm sure I will. She tells me EVERYTHING!!!!! Whether it's a text or what you said to her face I already know. So let's get to the point. I don't like you, and I won't like you until you prove to me that you should be with her. And remember I'm crazy so I will break you if you break her heart. Oh! And just because you're the boyfriend doesn't mean anything because I will come first. Boyfriends come and go but best friends are forever. So when I call her for whatever reason, yes I know damn well you guys are on a date, but I will call and she will listen. And if you tell her to ignore...
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When I was five, Daddy told me I could be anything I wanted to be when I grew up. At that point, I danced around the living room while he played music from the stereo.
When I was seven, Daddy hooked up a microphone in the game room and let me sing as loud as I wanted to any song I wanted.
When I was ten, I came home from school, upset because some boys called me "ugly." Daddy told me when I got into high school, I'd be the hottest thing they'd ever see and they'd regret it.
When I was twelve, Dad woke me up in the middle of the night so I could dance with him, and he stood me on his feet and danced me around the living room.
When I was fourteen, Dad found out I had depression. He got sad and blamed it on himself. Don't worry, Dad, I don't blame you.
When I was sixteen, Dad...
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I am writing this letter with tears in my eyes and a heart that hurts.
I'm sorry for the difficult choice I had to make. Never did I want to hurt you or cause you any pain. For the last five years you have been the light of my life. My love for you is so big that I don't even know how to express it in words.
Sometimes in life people can't get along and stay married. I know you sort of understand this because of your Mommy and your Papi. There is so much love for you but sometimes kids get mixed up in adult decisions and get hurt in the process. I love your Papi and always will. But unfortunately we are not able to fix our difficulties so we need to live separate lives.
This choice is not your fault; it's Papi and I's failure. You are not the reason for any of this. Please know...
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Our marriage is over and my world has fallen apart. I go through the motions and have become an Academy Award Winning Actress hiding my emotions in public. I still love you but don't know why. You abused me during our relationship as much as you abused alcohol, marijuana and Xanax. I was a casualty of your addiction. I lived most of my abuse behind closed doors with no one from the outside world knowing my pain and suffering. You are a high functioning alcoholic. You held the same job for 12 years (but did just get laid off), you are good looking, your parents are wonderful people, you are kind, a good father, you exercise and are in good physical shape, you are smart and even have an MBA. We were financially stable and you had a good life. In some ways you are even nicer than me. But it'...
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