I was caught so unexpected and so much at a loss. I can’t shake the sadness as easily as I should be able to. Which is trite as it is your sadness, your loss, and your pain. I wonder what my motivator is? How many times is our understanding of grief framed by our own situations? Maybe you can never truly grieve for others without it doubling up to say something about you? Maybe that is the weakness of mankind?
You were my best friend but it has been almost two years since I spoke to you. During this, the times you have crossed my mind have been fleeting. They have also been triggering and I have compartmentalized them for my own piece of mind.
We blended so seamlessly together that I was dumbfounded that we could ever be brought down. In that heady first year of our friendship, I...
Broken Hearts
Bukas na sulat para kay Pepe.
Hindi ko alam kung "trip" mo ang mapaligiran ng mapanghusgang lipunan ng "social media" dahil sa ito ang "trend" ngayon. Gayunpaman ito na ang "La Solidaridad" namin ngayon. Ipagpaumanhin mo sana, Pepe.
Madami akong gustong ikwento sayo kaso baka madismaya ka. Huwag na lang. Karamihan sana patungkol sa pulitika pero baka maghalo ang madama mong galit, inis, puot, hinayang, hinagpis, yamot, at bungang araw dahil sa init ng panahon. Huwag na lang.
Alam mo ba? Sabi ng pamahalaan medyo nakaka angat na daw ang bansa natin. Hindi na daw tayo masyadong naghihirap. Nabawasan na rin daw ang bilang ng mga pamilyang kumakalam ang tiyan at ng mga walang pinagkukunan ng ikabubuhay. Ngunit sabi lang nila ito. Diba nga may kasabihan na, "Ang taong naniniwala sa...
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Dear Ex-Girlfriend,
I now have the courage to introduce myself to you. I can imagine how much you despise me after all you have been through.
I bet it wasn't easy, it wasn't for me either. I think you deserve to know the truth, so here I am telling you that I wasn't intentionally stealing your man.
When I met him I had no knowledge of your existence. I fell in love quickly, almost at first sight. I could feel something was wrong, because it was just way too perfect to be true. After days of paradise he told me he has you. A woman waiting for her man in his home-country many kilometers away from our fairy-tale.
He never went into details about you. Your looks, the way you are or anything. Never a bad word. It gave me a very hard time what to do. I never wanted to break up...
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Dear Glenn Beck,
Good sir please forgive my frustrated tone as I am a long time fan of yours, but I have grown rather tired of that endless work. You, Hannity, Limbaugh, Cruz and all of your Tea Party cronies along with Obama, Sharpton, Gore, Clinton and their Liberal cronies are WORKING ME TO DEATH!
There's plenty of blame to go around, but I blame you Glenn Beck because you're the only guy who SAYS he can find all the answers. If everyone will just work hard enough the answers will come in time right?
Well this is MY time. There is a sickness in the pit of my stomach that is common with exhaustion and there is a taste in my mouth that comes from the unmistakeable smell of rot and decay. It's the putrid smell of Josh's rotting flesh. Josh Duggar. Yes that man. That...
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Don't sh*t where you eat. I believe that's the saying I ignored.
I'm so sorry that you feel you've had to take a side, or form an opinion or invent a theory behind what has happened to the marriage of your two friends.
I can tell you that I have been you. I formed opinions. I gossiped. I speculated about motivations, intentions and conflicts that I knew nothing about. I seemed to get some satisfaction out of organizing the pain of other peoples lives into some order that I could understand. I'm not proud. I'm sure this divorce is the universe explaining to me in very blunt terms that it is not my place to evaluate the lives of others. I've learned my lesson.
I will never know what you think you know about my marriage. I will never know what you've heard or what you've been...
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Dear Affair,
It has been several years now but I am lost, I am hurt, I am baffled. I thank you for being within my life for such a short space of time and for showing me what passion truly is, with the essence of one look into one another's eyes, however I also hate you for coming into my life, for chasing me desperately, for promising your love to me, for weeping over me, for pushing me into events I never desired and for breaking my heart more than you could ever imagine.
The time I spent with you, albeit we were both married, was exquisite. It made me feel alive, electric and I had the energy to be anything, anyone and feel a goddess. I desired to see you, feel you and hear your voice, as you stated you did with me.
I think perhaps in the end you were simply bored for this...
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As I write this I have a chaotic mesh of emotions. The first and most prevalent is love. I love you all so much. You have become such a large portion of the positive aspects of my existence, it’s hard to comprehend how much you mean to me. The few genuinely happy memories I have, are all thanks to you guys. You have made such an enormous impact on my life that I can’t imagine a future without any of you. But the sad truth is we have grown distant. I don’t feel like I can approach you all in the same manner I have before, and I know it is my own doing.
This brings me to the next emotion; Regret. We all make mistakes, we all have done things we wish we hadn’t, and for the most part we were able to set things right and move on. But there comes a point where it begins to wear thin, I am...
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I'm done sugar-coating things and putting on a brave face for our families. You know that having a family of your own is not something you want, and despite what you think I know it too. I know you have no desire to have children with me. There will always be a reason, some made sense at the time - you were between jobs and the timing was bad - but since that is no longer valid, your reasons have become just plain mean. I didn't go to university, just a trade college, so I'm not smart enough to teach a child anything academic. My interests are cooking and sports, which are useless, unlike your passion for music. I have no patience, though dealing with you proves otherwise. I am uncaring and aloof, though that didn't stop you from marrying me. Oh and I'm fat... if I have a kid now I'll...
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Something I've just read in one of these open letters really resonates: "I know these feelings will subside and I will look back on it and feel silly for letting it get to me so much but I just don't like the thought that two people I have been close to are giggling behind my back."
At the time the "have been close to" was replaced by "am close to". You were giggling with my best friend about me, and then neither of you would tell me what you were giggling about. It really is silly to worry, I know, and afterwards, you just clammed up and said it was a private conversation and my 'best friend' said she's sorry, but you asked that I should please not tell me, and so she felt she just couldn't.
From my side, I thought that was a betrayal, but she has since apologised. As for you, you...
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I don't pretend to know what courage or strength it would take to face me. Nor do I care. Why is it not the first thing you knew to do to try to ease the pain.
I've been waiting for 31 years now. I know the hole you left in my life, in our lives will grow easier to live with....if only you would face me, tell me you're sorry. I'm not waiting for an explanation. Making me understand why you stabbed my brother until he lay limp underneath you would only horrify me and open the part of that wound that has closed. I just want to hear you say sorry, let me rest, quell my anger.
I know where you are, this is a tiny village - this little paradise of a nation near the bottom of the world. But you have never sought me out. None of us. I ache to know you are sorry.
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