Son,
What was once a never ending dark tunnel of soul searching finally came to rest a year ago. I had reached the light. I had found my purpose in life.
What I once thought was love was no more. You took what I previously believed and turned it upside down. You showed me something much more powerful, more beautiful. For this I am forever grateful.
I will never forget the day I first laid eyes on you. You were already a few months old. My lifelong wait was over. As your arrival was near I shook in nervousness. When I saw you for the first time deep emotions ran through me; my legs buckled and I had to sit. The more I stared the more I cried. You were so beautiful.
Unfortunately life can be cruel. As the months past things got progressively worse. We were kept from having any meaningful time together. The very same love I spoke of was being used against us. I was powerless. I felt useless. I'm sorry.
Today you turn 1. Not much has changed. We remain strangers. A stranger whose attention I so yearn for. I dream that I will get to see who you are, what you will become, what lights up your eyes like when I think of you. A life together one day I hope.
Time will indeed tell but for now know that you are loved and that I will never stop fighting for you. One day we will have a strong bond or I will never rest. You are my purpose in life.
Sincerely,
Your Father
