Hi dad. It's been a few years since you left me to be with your new family. I don't think about you often, but when i do, i wonder if you think about me. i wonder if you ever regret leaving. You never got to meet my brothers. or our dogs. You won't get to see me graduate. You weren't there for me when i was in the hospital. I used to be so jealous when i saw other kids with their dads. I don't know why. I didn't even miss you that much when was younger. i just wanted a dad i guess.
I remember when mom would get mom at you when i was younger, and we lived in that small studio apartment. I always wondered why she was mad at you. i still don't know. but as i got older i kinda made some ideas on why. you're not a good person. i was too young to realize. but i remember the macaw you owned. kept it in that tiny cage. why the house always smelled like smoke. when you would let your dog pee on peoples graves. when we stayed at your exs house and you screamed at her because her kid was breathing to loud. you'll probably never see this, but if you do. im disappointed. and i hope you're able to see all the bad things you've done.
- J.
