To the Best Friend I'm Leaving Behind in 2015

To say I'll never talk to nor see you again would be lie. I'm sure I'll get back to you in time and I'm friends with your brother so I'm sure I'll see you around. I'd like to tell you how I feel but it never matters because whatever I say to you is turned around on me to be made my fault. I truly thought we'd be best friends forever, but the more you stab me in the back and the more I've let you, the more I become depressed. Often times I feel like your mother, like I'm responsible for you and I'm not. I'm just one big disposable vehicle to you. I think this was the final time I let you stab me in the back, where you won't get away with it. I don't understand what your problem is, all I know is it started with your first boyfriend and how I wasn't good enough because I didn't have a dick attached to my hip.
You've pushed me aside too many times and hurt me too many times and I've always let you back into my life, but I find it even more shitty that this boy you're after is also your ex's friend. It honestly disgusts me, and for your information, no one at that party liked him. You have horrible taste, and I'm not talking looks. To say I find your double standards sickening would be an understatement. I find it almost comical that you blow up if I talk to others or hang out with others without you, but yet you find yourself better than my friends when you only have a part time job, no vehicle, no license, and aren't even going to school. Yes, I didn't invite you to go to Awolnation, but it's only because you tried to fuck up the previous concert because of said boy. It seems the older we get I'm beginning to realize that I've been holding onto threads of something that I wanted so badly. You've shit on me when it was the last thing I needed on my plate. I hope this boy works out for you, and if it doesn't, and you come crawling back to me like you always do.
I don't believe I'll be there this time. I've decided to live my life for a change, I hope in the future you realize what I've done for you over the years. As for now I think it's best to part ways, maybe we'll reconnect at some point. It would be nice but for now I'm done. To tell others it doesn't hurt to say goodbye to a friend I'd be lying. It tears your heart apart, but it's for the best and it will pass.
Maybe one day, I'll answer your question.