I do not remember the day you were born, I was only 7. I do have many memories of you though, I've known you for 32 years or at least thought I did. I remember the times we laughed and shared secrets. I remember the family vacations we went on. I remember doing the silly things that sisters do. I sometimes look at the kanji letter tattoo that means "big sister" and I laugh with tears filling my eyes.
We always joked that it probably actually meant cowshit or that yours which meant little sister, meant hopscotch or something totally different than what we thought. I wonder if you think about me and ever miss me, the way I do you, sometimes. I miss my niece and nephews. I would like to know the niece that I've only met twice, both times when she was first born. I know that it will never be possible to have my nieces and nephews in my life because of you.
You've told them that I'm a dangerous person and that if they're around me, I'll hurt them due to my past Drug abuse. I am clean now and have been for 2 years, yet you continue to call me names related to drugs and tell people I'm using on social media and let your murdering boyfriend, do the same. Yes I called him a murderer because he is just that. On the day that he beat our dad while you stood by and watched, doing nothing and turning your back on him, he killed him.
Dad is still physically here but due to the brain damage and stroke that your other half caused, he's not the dad I knew for 37 years of my life.
My son will never know that man, just the broken shell that your boyfriend left behind for us. I lost my sister and best friend that day because I will not or can't ever forgive you for what you've done. I do not care if you live or die, it won't affect me either way.
Sincerely,
Your nephews mom
