Good morning and happy easter.
I've waited a while to be able to message you. This morning seemed to be the ideal day.
Why you ask? On such a wonderful day, full of joy, surprises, family time, and love? Well allow to explain.... Today is a special day; not only because my family and I get to enjoy each others company hunting eggs and eating candy. But also because Christ rose up today from the grave. Upon doing so, he forgave a multitude of sins for not only you and i, but also, those who had him put into the grave. These people spit on him, lied about him, mocked him, called him horrible names, beat him, stabbed him, and nailed him up for all to watch him die. He could have, at any moment, chose to leave this world. But instead he took it- and forgave these horrible people for the things they did. Saying "father forgive these people for they know not what they have done." What relevance does this have on such a special day, you ask? Well I'll just tell you.... You see, its taken four gut wrenching years and a whhhoolleee lot of prayer and meditation to do the christian thing and begin to think of forgiving the terrible thing you intentionally did to my beautiful family. It wasnt perfect, but again, who's is? Everyone goes through trials in their life with ups and downs. But none the less, you came along with your pride and low self-esteem, and you knowingly participated in the crucifixion of what I had worked for almost four years to build. You lied on it, spit on it, beat it, stabbed it, and left it, in hopes it would die, for your own personal satisfaction and gain, saying "once a cheater always a cheater" probably hoping I'd spend my days afraid every moment that someone like you would come along and take advantage of my husband weakness. You treated the damage done almost as if we were but another proud notch on your belt. How glorious you must have felt. How strong and accomplished you were to have hurt our innocent child by causing years of fear and strife in his life. But none the less, Im here to say that, "you clearly knew not what you have done" therefore I must forgive you as Jesus has forgiven others and myself. See, I could have left my family unit with good reason, abandoned it, and moved forward in life.
But I prayed to my savior and he commanded me to have faith and stand firm on all of the words he had previously given my husband and I about what our life was, and how our exsistance as a family was no coincidence. You see, you were so very ignorant in what you merely thought you knew about us. When you came upon our life, you probably had no idea that I've been through this many times is past relationships. And that my husband had a back for self destructive patterns due to his past. You probably didn't know we were experiencing the newness of parenthood, living with my parents because we were so broke paying child support and being between a decent paying job. You probably didn't know my husband was, at the time, a struggling alcoholic, and a recovering addict, with daddy issues. You probably didn't know that I was by this time in my life, so accustomed to being abandoned that I had all bit written the book on how to survive, and that I specialize in helping others heal. You probably didn't know that you were being used as a tool to try to destroy a plan God had designed. You see, my gracious heavenly father showed me that you were but a small wrench thrown in the mix, a tool of Satan, if you will. Sent in all your self doubt to try to , steal, kill, and destroy, what God was trying to build up. You probably didnt know that i understand your reasons for doing what you did; Because your own marriage fell to pieces for whatever reasons, and your current relationships consisted of married men and amphetamine users, you had it out for anyone who may be happier and prettier than you. You felt the desperate urge to be desired over others because you truly felt undesired. This is probably because you have been cheated on and abandoned as well...
But even in the face of all of this ugliness, because I had faith in my Lord, we stood against every storm you tried to create. Every lie. Every trick. Even those of your friends. Against the false CPS accusations when you attempted to have my child taken away. We fought the good fight. We were perfect in doing so? No. But no one is. So why on earth am I writing you? To say, on this glorious easter morning- I can now enjoy my family more- because we have worked SO much harder over the Years to become what we are today. We have a beautiful home, In a beautiful town, a beautiful baby girl, and a handsome son. And best of all, we have our family unit.
My husband now works so much harder to show me how much he values me. He has opened up to me in a way he was too afraid to before. He no longer drinks, and now leads our family to church. I could only hope and pray that you get to experience the wonderful feeling of knowing deep in your soul that you are fully loved, and specifically chosen, the way my husband loves and chooses me. Knowing that the choice was there for both of us to leave, but instead we chose to be like Jesus and stick out the battle to see the love prevail in the end. I pray that you have asked for forgiveness for your harletous ways. And have soon put an end to destroying innocent families as a token to your self esteem.
I pray that Jesus will bless your family on this morning, and that your children will enjoy their easter. That they will be raised around a mother who values family and its meaning and importance. Most of all I pray they when you die in your old age one day- that you can give a good heartfelt account for every single family you have damaged and destroyed, and that God himself will grant you passage into heaven. Happy easter.
