Just to start off, i want to thank you for all that you have done for me. if it wasn't for you, i don't know where i would be right now. you cherished me and loved me, but throughout the years, you have made me learn more and more that i want to be nothing like you or my family.
Dad, you have always made it to where i have gotten what I've needed. when i was younger i wanted nothing but for mom and you to get back together. that was my one wish. to me it was hard seeing you with a new woman and mom a new man every month and i was only 8 or 9.. The day i moved in with you i thought my world was going to flip and be so much better, but it didn't. my world got worse. Your new wife would verbally, emotionally and physically abuse me, yet you would turn the other check. i thought you were supposed to be my super hero and protect me from the hurt and the pain. but you didn't.. then one day you chocked me and threw me on the ground, with fear in my eyes and pain in yours i knew that you weren't the same man i once thought you were. you weren't the person i thought would save me. since mom wasn't around and she was doing terrible and trying to get her life together i had nowhere to go..
as i got to high school i realized soon that i was in for a rude awakening. With no mom, a father and a step mom who treated me poorly and all i wanted was to feel loved i went straight for attention from guys. Dad all i wanted was for you to do was tell me i was doing good and tell me i was a good person. i was on the varsity cheerleading team, making A's and B's and trying hard to maintain a good social status. But i was never good enough.
Mom, even though when i was younger you and dad both left me for a while. i still loved you and forgave you. i missed you and wanted nothing but a relationship with you. then, i got it, but you were to busy with your social life and going out every-single-night. so in 5th grade when you were busy sleeping with that guy and i called dad to come pick me up to move out and you told him that i couldn't come back. i didn't think you loved me anymore. you hit rock bottom and so did i. you would lie to me and tell me you were on the way to pick me up, i would sit outside for hours, make my dad drive around and look for your car and you wouldn't answer your phone nor show up..
when i started to hate you and not want anything to do with you, you realized and changed. now 5 years later I'm back with you, I'm thankful.
but the moral of this is, i can't forgive you, you both are selfish and took my love for granted. you pushed me aside and now that i am old enough to say and do what i want neither of you like what i have to say. I'm going to college and having a better future than both of you and you can't be happy for me.
i hope you both realize one day when i want nothing to do with you how much i loved you and would have done for you. but you decided to let love lives and party lives take the better of you.
if you're reading this, just know this wasn't meant to hurt. but to inform on some details that you both think i don't remember but refuse to talk about.
love,
your long lost daughter
