Bear with us. It's not that we don't want to give love and receive love in return. It's more that we're afraid to give someone the power to break our hearts into a million pieces.
When you are a child of divorce love and relationships mean something totally different than your peers. We've seen how every "I Love You" can turn in the blink of an eye into "I Hate You" and relationships torn apart.
It's difficult for us to use those 3 little words because we know what they can turn into and we have seen it first hand. We understand the full weight of those words and it may take us a long time to say them to you. When we do though, trust that we mean it. We wouldn't be saying it to you if we didn't know in every fiber of our being that we are truly, madly in love with you.
We try to...
Family
How I wished I was stronger that time. That time we had you. I know I really disappointed myself, my parents...
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Dear Depression,
There is no way to clearly explain you. You suck the joy out of my life, the inspiration from my every whim, my aspiration to chase my dreams. I try to hide you, but you're very loud and like to make yourself known. I try to ignore you, but you're much more persistent than I am. I try to overcome you, but you're stronger. Somehow, even in my happiest moments, you're there, waiting for a moment to pounce and steal my joy.
I can't begin to explain how many chances I've missed, how many people I've lost, and how much I've changed because of you. I'm tired of being alone, I'm sick of not doing what makes me happy, and I'm done with feeling like I hit a dead end no matter what direction I take.
How is it that I can give the best advice, but can't follow it myself? How...
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I am writing this letter to Cemille P. Parker and anyone she has given my mobile number; starting with area code(610). If I did not personally give you my mobile phone number, please do not call me. Time and again my mother has given - and continues to give - people my phone number. She will indiscriminately pass my phone number on to others. There is a long, detailed history behind my request. Out of respect for me, please do not call me if my mother ever gives you my number. Thank you.
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Mom and Dad,
I'm not sure if those names really fit you guys anymore. For me, a mom and a dad have always been people who love unconditionally, people who see past your flaws, people who accept you for what you truly are, no matter what that may be. I was raised in a suburban two parent household, I never went to sleep hungry or without a "Goodnight, I love you". Now, sitting in the bathtub crying after a conversation with you, I don't see the mom and dad who showered me with praise and love after even the smallest of accomplishments anymore. I see the people, the strangers, who from the comfort of their bed just told me they didn't love me anymore.
There is a backstory of course, no parent would take back their love for no reason. Right now, I am home for the final days of my...
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Dear Little Sister,
You’re 18 now, no longer a baby. That’s weird, it makes me feel old, and I don’t like it.
I woke up this morning thinking about you and how you’ve grown up when I wasn’t looking. You’ll be a woman soon, and though you don’t see it, in many ways you already are one. We’re very different, you and I.
But there are some things I’ve learned, from surviving my young adult years that I want to share with you. So, in the spirit of unsolicited sisterly advice, here’s what I want you to know as you head into the metamorphosis stage of growing up.
On Your Beauty:
Society is ugly. According to them you will never be thin enough, toned enough, pretty enough, or perfect enough. The truth? YOU ARE ENOUGH. Right now, exactly as you are. Your beautiful curves, your...
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{I'm just not happy}
I'm sorry
I'm binging like crazy
Sleepless nights
Are almost every night
I understand you care
But when you yell at me for
Simple
Dumb
Things
It hurts
{Because you don't understand}
What I'm going through
Or what I've been through
You might think you do
But you don't know my life
And my story
{what you don't know,}
You don't know that I was sexually abused for
A few years
Ages about 9-10
That girls house I used to go over to
Her brother
That's just graduating high school this year
I believe.
The stuff he did to me was wrong
But I still went over there
Even tho I had a choice
But I still don't understand
Why
I did this to myself
I could've left
Or
Stopped it
But once
I realized that it was wrong
I left
{...
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I was 12. I was crying mum I felt so bad. I didn't mean to cut so deep fuck. You know it still fucks me up you just fucking left me at the hospital alone. to live with my father and step mum. I was so numb for so long, i forced myself to keep you out of my mind. I forced myself to smile every day I didn't want to get out of bed but I didn't complain. Then what? Just as I accepted my step-mum as perhaps my new mother - she fucking leaves me too. She leaves my dad, she takes my sister my step brother and again I'm shoved away. I still think I'm the problem. The worst part is I don't want to say I'm not to blame because I know I fucking lie to myself to cope. I am the problem. I managed to drI've away my dads love, his daughter practically his son too. He lost his house because of me but the...
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I personally believe Moms are very tough and just all around amazing people. I have been realizing more and more as I grow up and move away from home and start college. My mom is seriously the most amazing mom on this planet. I have recently moved twice, once being to a totally different state than my mom and the other was to my own home about an hour away from my mom. I do not like always being away from my mom but that's a step in life people have to take. My mom has always been called mommy and probably always will be. She has been my best friend since birth, also the only one to have my back every time I need her and even when I don't need her she's there. Being that I lost my dad when I was eight years old, my mom and I have created a very strong loving bond. She will forever be my...
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Dear Mom and Dad,
It’s not difficult to take care of a cat. All you’ve got to do is make sure his food bowl is not empty, change out his water, and occasionally clean his litter box. It’s definitely less effort than raising four children, but you guys managed that and we all turned out great. Well, we all turned out pretty decent. Either way, it’s a hell of a lot simpler to keep a cat alive. There was no need to give away my cat and absolutely no need to give Rajah away without even telling me. I know that you guys are good people and you try your best. But think about the example you have set for your children through these actions.
As you know, I got Rajah in high school when he was just an itty bitty kitty that I could pick up with one hand. He’d follow me around the house, getting...
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